Dissociation - Blog Posts

07/25/2021

i don‘t know how much there is left of me before i disappear completely

Coming down

funny how distance looks different sometimes. When I'm sitting back to the dresser, watching my desk come into focus, much closer than anything's been in weeks.

There's carpet under my feet and the hum of a box fan off to the side. Light looks different, brighter where it plays on the reflective surfaces. Throwing overlapping shadows across the room.

And I'm suddenly aware of my own skin where it stretches over my knuckles. Tingly and colder than the night air.

Someones shifted the focus, dialed it up a little. And suddenly I'm here again.

I rub the blanket across my cheek, trying to ground myself.

I feel your skin instead burning and intrusive. Grating on me.

I feel like I'm floating. I'm off in a dream.

Experiencing horrors I've already seen.

My breathing is heavy. I try not to scream.

I scrub at my skin. It never gets clean.

"it's a strange phenomenon to gaze upon the mirror and see everything. Everything that wasn't the self."

One of my favourites.

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🪴 gildatheplant Follow

Literally just making it any solid color would've been better guys.

🚛 mintymaiden Follow

I'd like to point out that the rainbow has more positive than negative meanings.

🏞 ichigo-hiyoko Follow

im sorry but this reply absolutely killed me the rainbow can mean whatever the heck you want it to mean, that is never going to change that this straight up looks like they DRAGGED BLOODY BODIES ACROSS THE FUCKING FLOOR 😂

🎱 youthful-pills Follow

Hi fun fact, colors do have meaning and there is a legit thing called color theory. The rainbow does have more positive connotations than negative like the @ mintymaiden said. For example, violet is associated with more money, wisdom, and elegance than with blood and death just like the chart shows you. Also, check out "The Designer's Dictionary of Color" by Shaune Addams. Have fun learning something

Xoxo

-Designer

🏵 diasporanpapi Follow

i think y'all are missing the point here.

🌈 forlovefromfear Follow

You can theorize to Thrashthrust and back but that doesn't change my immediate reaction which is that someone is literally dragging corpses around

📓 jhenne-bean Follow

I like that the presumption here is that "No One On Grumblr Has Heard of Color Theory. Let Me Explain in Depth" rather than simply acknowledging that the VISUAL EFFECTS of this particular color choice, applied in the manner it was, can still amount to "this is a hospital and that looks like blood"

like, color theory doesn't exist in a vacuum. If your design of choice for Hemospectrum Paint is asymmetric splatters and splotches against the wall, or in this case, a shellbeast trail on the hallway's floor, and infographic won't override the viewers' instinct

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this post is the perfect summation of grumblr's reading comprehension and critical thought abilities

Suddenly I was in the shower. I looked down and my legs and my feet weren't my own.

It was like I was watching a movie or a cutscene in a video game.

Trying to put clothes on a dead eyed stranger.

i am soooo out of it todayyy i cant ground enough to do anything but read and watch stuff rahhh

nothing feels real enough todayyy