Jiraiblr - Blog Posts

i hate having a dream about the actual perfect man to exist ever, and where i get all taken care of and loved because waking up is even more unbearable :(((

XP dawg I never check my follow count

Thxs for 52 ^^ (I have 71 on my main, WHICH IS CRAZY CAUSE IT WAS AT 50 AS WELL LAST TIME I CHEKCED😭😭😭)

Ajdhaihdw sometimes I wanna be completely honest with my therapist because I really want help, but at the same time I don't want him to tell anyone else but I know he'll have to :((

WAHHHH, I HAVE WCHOOL IN TWO DAYS IM GNA KMSSSS

I'm definately over her

*I whisper, stalking her social media and stalking the people that she follows and the things she likes*

FUCK THIS BINGING PERIOD I FEEL LIKE IM GOING TO THROW UP

WAHHHH, I CANT TAKE BEING ALOONEEE, IF I DONT GET A PARTNER BY NEXT YEAR I'LL BE PUTTING MY HEAD INTO THE OVEN

WAHHH TYSM FOR THAT TAG !!!

(I'm gna blur the songs cover because there's like blood and disturbing shit)

(the blue eyes look so unsettling-)

TAGS !!!! (sorry if there unwanted, im also tired so i wont be doing a lot of my moots)

@gutted-pawz @insufferablewhore @2u1c1d4l @noodle-bro @crumbledtoast

i found a cool tag game on twitter and i really wanna import it (o^ ^o)

this picrew + the last song you listened to :]

no pressure tags: @blood-loving-leech @overtaken-boredom @lesbianthatyaps @kameonerd566 @hexedvampire @laczki @anonymous-shxtposter @fleurafae @flovqy + anyone who wants to do it <3

Wdym my thighs are in pain and there's NO ONE available to kiss them better?!?!?!?!?!??💔💔💔

OK I THINK I HAVE ONE EXCEPTION FOR THIS

I'll only let some older man, who doesn't want to do it, bc he doesn't want to hurt me, but does it anyway because he feels bad, but he's flustered and hesitant the whole time, and when he does it, it barely even cuts the skin, but the second time he gets to confident in himself and ends up cutting to baby beans

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(And then he cleans it franticaly and cuddles me and kisses the cuts after)

Idk if it's just me but the thought of having someone cutting me for me sounds so gross.

Like for starters, what if they get there greasy finger oils on it and my blade rusts😒

And what do I do, just...sit there and watch them do it ? Or do I strike up conversation ?!?!? 🧍‍♂️

I js like doing it alone, cause I know exactly how I want it, and I get to be proud of myself for going deeper and getting more blood >:3

"I don't feel safe around men, unless there a gay man or trans"

GFRGAGAGGR STFU FAGGOT ILL SKIN YOU AND EAT YOU JUST AS MUCH AS ANY CIS GUY HDIRHWAJUSVDJSHABSHDHSBDVX

I needdd to take a shooweerrrrrr, wahhhhh I don't wannaaaa.

But my hair is so crunchy, it's been like a week since I've had a shower or brushed my teeth🧍‍♂️

Ugghughhhu this is so annoying, I haven't gotten sick for years but these 2 months I've just STAYED sickkkkkk

I also have had no appetite and it sucks whej my mother makes me over eattttt, it makes me wanna dieeeeee

Ive also had no energy to cvt so I've js been so fucking stressed💔💔 and I can't cut how I want 💔💔

Idk what I did but I lost around 2kg

I WASNT EVEN TRYING TO AND NOW MY HEARTS MESSING UP AGAIIINN, WAHHHH I DONT WANNA GO BACK TO THE HOSPITALLL💔💔💔

(I'm at 42.9kg🤤 I was up to 44.1kg or smth. I wasn't actively trying to loose weight though, its just randomly started to drop :000)

i am such a terrible and disgusting being!! i deserve to have terrible things happen to me!! ☆*:.｡. o(≧▽≦)o .｡.:*☆

uugguughh my stomach hurtsssss nowwwwwww, whyyy can't I js diiieeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

PLAYING IRL FNAF RN !!! 🔥🔥🔥

(cvtting myself when everyone's still awake)

I actually have no clue why i decided to do these all right now, i js suddenly really fucking needed to, and then i wasnt even thinking about how i did it and now my thigh is rlly itchy and stings 😭

I ALSO GOT SOME BL00D ON MY PANTS (kk I changed them :P)

TW FOR REALISTIC MAKEUP AND SFX: BL00D ABD CVTS

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The blad3s actually might be ok :P I did it harder soo uhm yeah :3

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Yum yum bl00d 🤤😋

Also to clean up I've been using the same tissue for like 2 months

This thing is actually nasty as hell😭😭 (I'm not sure why part of its blurring :[)

AND THIS CVT WOULDNT STOP BL33DDDINNGGG, LIKE I WAS TRYNNA RUSH BUT IT DIDNT WANNA STOP💔

Not to obvious but still :( reminder to never cut in ur favourite pair of pants💔

Idk if it's just me but the thought of having someone cutting me for me sounds so gross.

Like for starters, what if they get there greasy finger oils on it and my blade rusts😒

And what do I do, just...sit there and watch them do it ? Or do I strike up conversation ?!?!? 🧍‍♂️

I js like doing it alone, cause I know exactly how I want it, and I get to be proud of myself for going deeper and getting more blood >:3

WAHHH I NEED MORE ATTENTIONNN, SOOOO PLPSLPLSPLS FOLLOW ME ON PINTEREST 🥺👉👈

૮꒰ ྀི >⸝⸝⸝< ྀི꒱ა

aww that sounds awesome, what kind of pizza did you have??

im laying in bed with a stuffy nose and sore throat due to the dry weather 😭😭 hypothetically i should be sleeping,, buuut i woke up since i couldn't breathe and havent fallen back asleep yet. so now im just scrolling tumblr and waiting for my package to arrive

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I HAD CHEESE PIZZAS, ITS THE ONLY GOOD FLAVOUR (nobody argue this, it's factual >:[[[[[[)

WAHHH STUFFY NOSES AND SORE THROUGHTS SUCK SMMMM, ILL MAGIC WAND THEM AWAY🪄🪄🪄🪄🪄🪄🪄🪄🪄🪄🪄🪄🪄🪄🪄🪄🪄🪄🪄🪄🪄🪄🪄🪄🪄🪄🪄🪄🪄🪄🪄🪄🪄🪄🪄🪄🪄🪄🪄🪄🪄🪄

Also package😍😍😍 whatcha get !!!

(Also do try to get at least a little bit of rest, I hope you don't die in your sleep🥲)

you seem so cool i rly wanna get to know you more but i struggle with anxiety so ill settle for being an anon for now

anyway hru??

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I completely understand, dont feel pressured to get out of anon 💜💜💜💜

(Thxs I am very cool😼😼)

Im quite good at the moment, I just had some pizza (which made me feel a little sick, but having water so hopefully it gets better😅) and I'm about to do some drawing and work ^^ hbu you :D

"Don't do a permanent decision to a temporary situation 🥺"

If you fucking say this to people, I reeealllyyy hope you wake up tomorrow and all your fingers are gone >:(((

Whenever someone has said this to me it basically fells like someone is saying

"That horrible thing your going through ? Yeah, it doesn't matter enough for me to give actual advice or show I care, I'm just going to invalidate how you feel ^^"

Sometimes people who experience mental illnesses, poverty and suffering in general, it doesn't feel like a 'temporary situtation'. So technically you are just invalidating how someone feels. If a kid has been suffering with severe depression and abuse for over 10 years do you think it's going to feel like a temporary situation to them ? Abuse isn't forever, but it can last years. And what about people with permanent mental health issues, or chronic pain issues ? That doesn't sound so fucking temporary to me.

I don't want anyone to commit, but if someone tells you they're thinking of it and you put on a shit eating grin, and say that stupid line, I will be finding you and eating you😍

you're so real oh my god i miss people (i say, knowing full well i wished everyone was dead yesterday)

You're so real for wishing everyone to be dead

I don't need a partner and I'm ok with being alone, I don't need a partner and I'm ok with being alone, I don't need a partner and I'm ok with being alone, I don't need a partner and I'm ok with being alone, I don't need a partner and I'm ok with being alone, I don't need a partner and I'm ok with being alone, I don't need a partner and I'm ok with being alone, I don't need a partner and I'm ok with being alone, I don't need a partner and I'm ok with being alone, I don't need a partner and I'm ok with being alone, I don't need a partner and I'm ok with being alone, I don't need a partner and I'm ok with being alone, I don't need a partner and I'm ok with being alone, I don't need a partner and I'm ok with being alone *rocking back and forth, chanting this and gripping my hair*

You remind me of THAT//BOY by lunarr :3

I have no clue who that is 😰

edit: Found it ^^ Fire as hell song 🔥🔥understandable why it reminded you of me lmao ≡(▔﹏▔)≡

Im very happy rn🤤

Tw: bl4d3s (sharpeners)

I ALSO HAD THE PINK MONSTER IT WAS SO GOOD OMFGGG <3333 me n my vro only got one so we shared it🤭🤤

gng i literally couldn't get out of bed without crying this morning, but then I happy now 🤤🤤🤤🤤

(the delusions and Maretu are keeping me alive rnnnnn🤤🤤🤤🤤🔥🔥🔥💪💪💪💪)

I HATE BITCHES WHO HAVE SHIT ART, SHIT PERSONALITY, SHITTY TAKES, AND AN EVEN SHITTIER/BETTER LIFE THAN ME AND ARE HAVING IT ALL. THEY HAVE SUPPORT, INTERACTIONS, FANS AND EVERYTHIJG I WANTTTTT

I need someone to stay with me so bad omfg😭

The amount of times I've tried to tell people to not talk to me if they can't handle me bc I know I'm not a great person, but people are always like

'No I don't mind, I can handle it ^^'

LIKE OBVIOUSLY YOU COULDNT BECAUSE YOU LET ME GET ATTACHED THEN LEFT

AGAHAUAHAHAHA IF I GET ONE MORE FP OR FRIENDS AND THEY LEAVE, YALL WILL NEBER SEE ME AGAIN 💀

SEND ME ANOOONNNSSS OR ASKSSS IM BOOOOREEEDD