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saw this and thought it fit ren pretty well haha
adding the inspo image down here just in case
Hi, hope you had a great new years ^^
If it's okay can I request a fic of Redacted teaching Angel how to ride their bike or just Angel just riding their bike in general?
Hiiii my new year was good! I hope yours (and valentine's,easter,etc) was good as well!!
the date callin me out for how long it's been since jan i'm sobbing /silly
I feel like emo boy would be extremely thorough about teaching them so... Maybe I'll do a part two where Angel actually drives... đđ
~A Riding Lesson~
[REDACTED] was in their personal garage doing some maintenance on his bike when you arrived a little early for your date. All he could offer in greeting were a few sweet words and a quick kiss, due to their grease stained fingers. You chose to silently observe them for a while, sitting at the bench they left their toolkit on. You found yourself leaning forward, watching with pure fascination.
There was precision to each movement as they went about their work with expert hands. Were it not for the occasional smiles he threw your way when he picked up a different tool every so oftenâsmiles that somehow still sent your heart aflutter after so longâyou wouldâve been completely absorbed.
You'd always been curious about how it worked. But there was never really a good time to mention said curiosity. Especially since you were more focused on holding on for dear life whenever they drove somewhere, even at a snailâs pace. You supposed now could be a good time.
âCan you teach me how to ride it?â you suddenly asked once he came over to pack his tools away in the box at your side.
Their scarred hand that was idly twirling a wrench stilled as he looked down at you, light blue eyes glittering with the beginnings of something. â...Yeah, love? Yâmind saying that again fâme?â
Much too late to take it back, you noticed your mistake. You were so absorbed in your thoughts that it felt like you were picking up a conversation. In reality, it hadn't even started. âThe bike, Ren,â you hurriedly corrected yourself. âTeach me how to ride the bike.â
ââCourse. My bike,â [REDACTED] nodded along and continued putting away the tools. The smirk on their face was unmistakable, but they surprisingly held back from teasing you any longer. âMaybe a quick lesson, then.â
âReally?â You perked up.
He nodded towards the bike with an amused smile as he closed the toolbox and wiped off his hands. âWeâve got time.â
Excited as could be, you hopped over and quickly sat in the cushioned seat, immediately fidgeting with the handlebars. It already seemed weird being in the front, let alone by yourself. But your heart got a little louder when your dark haired lover sat behind you on the bike.
You were certain he could feel how you shivered as his hands wrapped securely around your waist and his head rested on top of yours. Stumbling for words, you almost shouted, âSo! âŠWhere am I taking us?â
âNowhere. Yâneed to know where everything is first, Angel.â
âBoooo.â
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After fifteen grueling minutes of quizzing, he finally agreed to let you ride around the parking lot. They hopped off the back of the bike, swinging the key around their finger. Â
Without his weight to balance you, you suddenly felt a little unsure of yourself. You thought he was going to ride with you, so you asked, âDid you only sit on the bike to hug me?â
âYeah, yâlooked so cute I couldnât help mâself,â he admitted shamelessly. They didn't give you the key just yet, merely circled the bike a few times with a careful gaze. âClutch?â
You frowned. The quiz was supposed to be over. âLeft lever.â
âThrottle?â
You remembered that one easily. He always revved the engine with it before leaving. âRight handle," you said confidently as you grabbed it.
âFront brake?â
âUhhâŠâ you started, quickly panicking at the resigned look in their eye. âRight pedal.â
âThat's the rear brake. Maybe next time.â They gave a swift denial of your short-lived dream.
You stubbornly stayed put on the bike, though your hands were no longer holding the handles, instead resting in front of you on the seat. âI could drive it down to the street, at least."
âYâreally think so? Itâs a lot tâhandle,â he cautioned. He reached in front of you with the key in hand, quickly putting it in the ignition. The engine purred in that quiet way you were used to.
You watched as [REDACTED] held firmly on the clutch at one handle, and slowly guided your hand to the throttle on the other. With the lightest turn of your wrist, the engine roared loud, vibrating the seat more and more. But he turned it even further and you could hardly hear yourself think.
It made you nervous. If you werenât sure where the break wasâor which one to useâitâd really spell disaster. âOkay, I get the point,â you sighed. They let go of your hand and the engine died back down to its usual purr. âIâll try harder to remember where everything is. No crashing your bike into a stop sign for now.â
âGood. Just wanâ you t'keep that pretty little head right where it is, love,â he hummed and kissed said forehead. âNow, scoot. Or we can head upstairs so âcan teach ya how to reallyââ
âI meant the bike!!â
Genre: G.N Reader (Angst!)
Summary: You're the Corland Bay Butcher, The Serial Killer, you heard in the news, Bodies, dead, gone, You're nuts! What if, someone was helping ya back to keep you safe, Will you see through his act after all, You met him first. NOT HIM
Violence & Gore â Mentions of knives, blood, and killing.
Mental Instability â Implied unhinged thoughts, intrusive urges.
Obsession & Fixation â Thoughts circling around a past encounter.
Dark Poetic Themes â Romanticization of violence and chaos.
Self-Awareness of Morality â Internal conflict about killing/mercy.
Shakespearean-style Poetic Bullying â Intense self-deprecation with a dramatic, lyrical flair.
You're a killer.
Not just any killerâa serial killer.
Why? Could be justice. Could be fun. Could be nothing at all, just a way to kill time. Could be moneyâblood-soaked bills stacking up in your pocket like trophies. Itâs on you. But no matter the reasonâyouâre a fucking serial killer.
A name whispered in alleys. A face nobody remembers. A shadow in the wrong places at the
You're a killer.
Not just any killerâa serial killer. The kind that gets headlines, Netflix docuseries, and edgy teenage fans who call you âmisunderstoodâ while painting their nails black. Maybe you do it for justice (sure). Maybe for fun (closer). Maybe for nothing at all, because boredom is a worse death than whatever you dish out. Or maybeâjust maybeâfor money, âcause even murderers gotta eat.
You, though? Youâre a special breed of fucked. You donât just kill; you curate. A gallery of ruined bodies, each arranged with a shit bow and a shit-eating grin. You're the scum of the earth, and you know it. Flaunt it, really.
Theyâll try to psychoanalyze you. Daddy issues, mommy issues, the whole trauma-riddled spiel. Theyâll say youâre broken. That you snap at the world because the world snapped at you first. Theyâll search for meaning where there is none. You donât care to distinguish truth from the realâtwo entirely different beasts.
You probably fake-hate black holes because theyâre clichĂ© but would style yourself after one with a smile. Suck the light out of the room, leave nothing but a cold abyss.
And yet.
You are a fucking liar.
A cute little library assistant by morning, shelving books with a saccharine smile, whispering âshhhâ to old ladies and college students. By night? Youâre a fucking scary-ass serial killer in a raincoat, dripping something that ainât just rain.
Crowbar, knivesâhell, anything sharp enough to carve flesh from bone. Baby, itâs your choice of weapon. You love blood. Live it, breathe it, bathe in it like itâs a second skin. Your love language? JK, no. You donât need love when youâve got arteries splitting open like pages in a well-loved book.
Turn the page. Whoâs next?
Alsoâsadlyâan anime fan. A shit living show called Attack on Giant owns a piece of your rotten little heart. You know itâs bad. You donât care.
And worse? You have a fictional husband. Haruki Haruko. The timid, sympathetic, air-headed (but in a good way), people-pleaser type. Cotton candy in human form. The kind of guy whoâd apologize for bleeding on your knife.
How the fuck does a blood-soaked abomination like you love a walking pink marshmallow like him?
Itâs fictional. STOP.
And it gets worse.
You and your online friend MOTH? Howling for Haruko like a couple of rabid fangirls. CAPS LOCK ON. ESSAYS IN THE GROUP CHAT. âHE DESERVES THE WORLDâ âHIS LITTLE SMILEâ âI WANNA PROTECT HIMâ â all while your hands are still sticky with blood.
MOTH doesnât know youâre a killer. Shut up. They think youâre normal. That you just have âdark humorâ and a really convincing way of describing knife wounds.
âomg if haruko was real iâd die for him <3â
You? Staring at your body count. Thinking, buddy, I donât even die for me.
Life was fine. Whatever fine means for someone like you.
Then two idiots fucked up. Bad dudes. Real pieces of shit. The kind that makes even God wanna look away. They got your eyesâmetaphorically or literally, who caresâand suddenly, you had a reason. An excuse.
You were already a killer. Now youâre a haunting.
They go first. Before the others. Before the side quests and the casual bloodshed. You want them to know. To feel it. The way your presence clings, the way their shadows stretch too long at night.
They look over their shoulders. They see nothing. For now.
You donât just kill them. You ruin them.
The first one goes slow. Too slow. You take your time, peeling back skin like wrapping paper, watching them twitch, eyes rolling like marbles in their sockets. You laugh. You LAUGH. It bubbles out of you, high and breathless, like this is the funniest shit youâve ever seen. Because it is. Because they thought they were untouchable, and now theyâre meat.
The second one? Screaming. Begging. Doesnât matter. Youâre an artist, and their body is just another canvas. You make something beautifulâuglyâperfect. A mess of red and twitching limbs. Your hands are soaked, your raincoat is dripping, and you feel fucking alive.
And then.
Someoneâs watching you.
The air shifts. The hairs on your neck rise.
What the fuck.
You pause. The feeling lingersâsomeone watching, something just out of sight. But you? You just shrug.
Eh.
Not your problem. If they saw, they saw. If they didnât, theyâll wish they had. You wipe your crowbar off on whatâs left of them, let the sticky warmth seep into your gloves, and turn on your heel like this was just another Tuesday.
Footsteps. Yours. Handprints. Also yours.
If the police are slick enough to find you? Good for them. Youâll make it fun.
Youâre gone. Vanished into the night like the walking crime scene you are.
And thenâhe arrives.
A man, moving like heâs got all the time in the world. A black hoodie, mask pulled up just enough to hide what matters. Black hair, messy but intentional, like he ran his hands through it one too many times. And his eyesâblue. Too blue. Like the kind youâd see in angel paintings before they ruined you. Too bright. Too sweet.
If you were still there, youâd think, No fucking way.
But youâre not. And he? Heâs got cleaning supplies.
Because it seems like you left.
He starts to clean. Like itâs routine. Like heâs done this before.
But you didnât leave.
You grab him from behindâhard. Slam him down, pinning him with your weight, breath hot against his ear. He barely fights back.
âThe fuck do you think youâre doing?â you snarl, pressing down harder. âWhat are you, some undercover cop? Finally found the killer? Corland Bayâs sweet psycho serial killer?â
His eyesâtoo fucking blueâwiden. Stunned. Mouth slightly open, like heâs trying to form words but forgot how. And something about the way his face flushesâ**soft pink, creeping up his neckâ**is wrong.
You donât notice. You press the knife against his throat. Harder.
âTalk.** Now.**â
You keep him pinned.
Knee digging into his ribs, knife pressed against his throat, eyes narrowed. "What kind of detectiveâpoliceâwhatever the fuck are you?" You hiss, pressing just a little harder, feeling the faint hitch in his breath beneath the blade.
But thenâhis breathing.
It changes. Too heavy. Too shaky.
Like... ahhhh???!?!!?
AHâ????
Your grip tightens. "The fuck is wrong with you?" You growl.
And him? His pupils are blown, his cheeks are flushed, and his breath is ragged in a way thatâs not fear.
Oh.
Oh, what the fuck.
You press the knife a little deeper. Not enough to kill, just enough to scare. Or maybe to feel the pulse beneath the bladeâfast, uneven, a little too eager.
"Youâre gonna die here, you know that?" you murmur. Cute. Like this is just conversation. Like youâre talking about the weather. Another collection. Another body. You grin, sharp and mean.
But heâs still fucking flustered.
Still breathing all wrong. Eyes shining. Like he wants to say something. You peel his mask up, slow, deliberate. His fingers twitch, reaching like heâs gonna stop youâno. You shove his head back down, hard.
Almost makes him faint. Almost does.
You glance around. The mess. The streaks of red. The bleach.
Oh.
What the hell was he trying to clean up?
You look back down, and his eyesâtoo blue, too brightâare glassy, struggling to focus. He tries again to speak. You donât care. You push his head down againâtoo hard.
He goes limp.
You sigh, irritated. Tear the mask away.
And pause.
Tall. 6â5â, easy. Sleeper buildâlean but solid. Hands covered in marks. Scratches, burnsâold, deep, childhood scars. Piercings that gleam under the shitty streetlights.
And his face?
...Pretty.
Too pretty.
And somewhat familiar.
What the fuck.
He was trying to clean up the mess. Your mess. The blood, the gore, the little bits of art you left behind like a signature.
A serial killer fan? A wannabe? Some poor, mentally ill fuck who thought you were some kind of idol?
Hah.
Darlinâ, he was being nice.
Nice enough to clean up after you, to make sure your ass stayed off the radar. And you knocked him out.
Killing him now? Sad. Kind of a waste. But itâs tempting. The way his throat is right there, the way his too-pretty face would look even prettier painted red.
Nah.
Lifeâs shit. Heâll grow out of it. Probably. Or he wonât.
And wouldnât that be interesting?
Too hot to kill.
Thatâs the excuse you land on. Not the stupidest one youâve made, not the worst, but damn if it isnât pathetic. You. Showing mercy. Saint Y/N, patron of dumbasses who clean crime scenes.
You almost carry himâalmost. Heâs fucking heavy. Dead weight in every sense of the word, and your arms are not built for this. You drag him instead, yanking him into another alleyway, gritting your teeth at every awkward shuffle of his too-tall, too-pretty, too-stupid body.
He could wake up. Could see the sun. Could get scared, maybe. Maybe heâll take the hint. Maybe heâll run. Maybe heâll get the fuck out of Corland Bay and out of your life.
Oh, Y/N.
You showed sympathy.
Youâre a saint, arenât you?
Why the fuck was he trying to clean the mess?
Weird-ass serial killer fan? Some freak with a savior complex? Someone worse?
You donât care. You wonât care.
Your work here is done. Corland Bay sleeps. So should you.
You yawn, stretch, crack your neck. Good night, dumbass.
You need to sleep. For your work.
You had⊠a dream.
A little child. Small hands, soft voice. He tries to give you a ring.
Innocent. Loved you.
And youâyou looked. You canât remember your own expression, but your face felt warm, felt happy. Like he was everything. Like he was your darling. A sweet boy.
You canât see his face.
"Do you wanna marry meâŠ? Angel! I'll take good care of youâŠ"
His voiceâsoft, bright, hopeful.
You donât get to answer.
Because Leon, your ass of a friend, grabs your hand, pushes the boyâs away. The ring falls. The boy stumbles.
Heâs crying.
"He's a freak! I told ya! Why did you hang out with him? Look!"
You couldnât say anything.
You didnât.
Leonânah. He took your hand. You let him.
And you watched.
Watched the boy cry. Watched him pick up the ring.
Your older self watched.
Watched your kid self. Watched the way your little hands twitched, how your feet stayed planted, how your mouthâsilent.
You felt something. Like you wanted to remember. Like if you just reached a little furtherâ
Thenâ
A sound.
Loud. Jarring. A kick to the ribs of your dream.
Yeah. You woke up.
Congrats.
Youâre the beauty of gore.
Coffee. Black, like your soul or whatever. Bitter, like your mornings.
You flip on the news. Same shit, different day.
"Yet another body was pulled from Bluemoss this morning. Authorities believe it was the work of the infamous Corland Bay Butcherâ"
What a fucking name.
Hideous.
You hate it. If you were gonna be branded a legend, youâd at least give yourself a name with some style. But no. The public loves their sensationalist, overcooked horror movie bullshit.
And this case? This crime?
Itâs years old.
What the fuck.
Maybe people are just dumb.
Itâs like that one show, Dexter. The whole Bay Harbor Butcher thing. Lame. At least Dexter got a name with a little biteâthis? This sounds like something a washed-up true crime podcaster would spit out between sips of pumpkin spice.
People shouldâve named you something cool. Something with presence. Something that rolls off the tongue like a whispered threat.
You sip your coffee, scalding hot, burning the tip of your tongue. Whatever. You like the pain.
The news anchor drones on, their voice that usual mix of forced solemnity and thinly veiled excitement. Because thatâs what this is, right? The public eats this shit up. Blood and bodies and mystery.
And the dumbest part? This case is years old.
Theyâre still talking about it, still digging up corpses like long-forgotten relics, still pretending they care.
But you know the truth.
People donât care about the dead. They care about the thrill. The spectacle. The fear.
You roll your eyes and take another sip. Yeah, whatever.
You do like Dexter, though. Good show. But come on, at least his name had branding.
Moth texts. Buzz, buzz. Your phone screen lights up.
You flick open the keyboard, thumbs hovering. Moth is sweet. Thoughtful, even. Different time zones and all, but they still check in. You shoot back a quick "Thank you!" because youâre a saint.
Grey bubble. Theyâre typing.
Moth
"btwww! did u see the latest AoG ep?? i heard Haruko got an outfit change!!!!"
Moth
"spoil it for me. did he really change his hairstyle as well?"
You scoff. Baby stays the same.
You type back so fast your screen almost cracks.
"HHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE"
He didnât. Still the same. Still cute. Still sweet. Still the most lovable little cutie to ever exist.
You hammer it into the keyboard like itâs gospel.
Moth
"LMAOOO bless. also. shouldnât u be at work rn."
âŠOh. Oh, shit.
FUCK.
You throw the phone. You bolt. Clothes? Shitty. Aesthetic? Somewhere between 2018 emo-core and 'I let a Tumblr gremlin dress me in the dark.'
WHY?
Fuck it. Youâre emo.
You catch yourself in the mirror. Oh. Oh damn.
You look hot. Like feral raccoon meets 2018 Hot Topic cashier meets 'I definitely bite.'
Self-confidence? SKYROCKETED. You are an icon. A menace. A walking, talking Tumblr sexyperson if Tumblr had any taste.
Oh shit.
Work.
Oh no.
Oh no no no.
You canât be feeling yourself this much and then drop a fucking uwu. Thatâs a war crime. Thatâs illegal. Thatâsâ
âŠYou wink at yourself in the mirror anyway.
"Time to cause problems."
Door swings open. The world outside assaults you with daylight. Gross.
"Oh! Hey there, Angel! Looking good!"
Violetâs standing there, all sunshine and soil-stained fingers, practically glowing in the morning light. Sickening. If it were anyone else, youâd gag. But itâs Violet. So you deal with it.
You flick your eyes to her hip, where yet another potted plant balances like a permanent attachment. Her whole apartment? Basically a jungle. If you didnât know better, youâd swear she was growing a sentient vine army in there, plotting to take over the world with nothing but greenery and kindness.
You? Not complaining. The air always smells fresh, floral, and earthy as hell whenever sheâs aroundâa perfect mask for the lingering traces of smoke and death clinging to you.
"New plant?" you ask, because duh.
Violet grins, fishing for her keys. "Mm-hmm! This oneâs a rosemary bush! Thought itâd be nice to have something useful."
Useful? You know fifty different ways to kill someone with rosemary. You smile.
"Nice."
Violet eyes you up and down, her expression turning downright delighted.
"Loving the look today, Angel! Very... 2018 Tumblr emo."
You snort. "You wound me."
"No, seriously! I kinda wanna raid your closet one day." She nudges you playfully, still grinning like sheâs just discovered a hidden treasure trove of goth fashion secrets. If only she knew.
You laugh, all teeth and mischief. "Sure, sure. One day."
One day. Which means never. Because the only thing your closet is full of? Knives. Knives, crowbars, and the occasional bloodstained hoodie. Hardly the wardrobe of an alt-fashion influencer.
Then she dropped a bomb.
You blink. "Nope. Nada. Never heard of him."
Violet narrows her eyes, lips pursing. "You sure? "'Cause he seemed real familiar with you.""
Your stomach does this weird little flip, like your instincts are tapping at your ribs, whispering, Hey, maybe pay attention to this one. But you shut that feeling down real fast.
"Violet, babe, I think you dreamed this one up." You flash a grin, all casual confidence, even as your mind works overtime, flipping through the mental Rolodex of potential problems.
Tall guy? Dark hoodie? Alternative fashion? Too many belts? Jesus, what is he, a Final Fantasy character?
"No clue who that is," you repeat, a little slower this time, letting the lie settle.
Violet hums, unconvinced. "Weird. "
You shrug, pretending your skin isn't crawling just a little. "Sounds like a him problem."
But in the back of your mind, you know damn well this is gonna be a you problem real soon.
"No worries, Vi. I got work now, I'll check later." You wave a dismissive hand, already stepping away.
Check later? Lmao, no. You didnât give a shit. Who the hell would stalk you?
âŠUnlessâ
Oh.
If it was a stalker, then they were bold. And if they were bold, that meant either two things:
They were stupid. In which case, easy kill.
They were a detective.
And ohhhh, baby, wouldnât that be fun?
You bite your lip, suppressing the grin creeping up. A detective? Hunting you? Now that was hot.
Hell, maybe you'd let them catch up just for the thrill. Let them get close, real closeâclose enough to think they had youâbefore you turned the tables.
Oooooh. Fuck.
Yeah. Thatâd be fun.
You hit send before you can second-guess yourself. Maybe itâs better to leave it at that. Maybe itâs better to pretend you donât care. Maybe, maybe, maybe. You can stack those maybes like a house of cards, but it wonât stop the wind from blowing.
Youâve got bigger things to deal with. A shitty apartment. A shittier job. The nagging feeling that something off is creeping up behind you, but you? You walk faster.
You breathe deep, step through the library doors, and let the scent of old paper settle the static under your skin. Itâs grounding. Familiar. The only thing that stays still in a world that never does.
And thenâ
âOh!â
Elanor.
Sweet, doting Elanor, with her scatterbrained ways and her insufferable meddling. Sheâs already smiling, head tilting, eyes flicking you over like sheâs about to say something thatâll make you regret showing up today.
âSooooo?â She hums, teasing. âHow does it feel to no longer be the one in charge of stacking books all day long?â
Before you can answer, she keeps going, because of course she does.
âAlthough⊠youâll still have to work the front desk from time to time, unfortunately.â
You shrug. Offer a smileâif it even counts. Make your way past her before she can wring you into another conversation that leaves you tired before noon.
The familiar chime of the library door rings. Someoneâs entered. Not your problem. You duck down, slide your bag under the desk, start pulling out your things. You focus.
The hum of the library settles you, slow and steady, like an IV drip to an addict. Bookshelves, faint ink-and-paper perfume, the distant murmur of people who still think this place is a sanctuary.
And thenâagain.
Elanor.
Her voice drops into something light, airy, knowing. Fuck.
âLooks like heâs back again.â
Your fingers freeze on the paper in front of you.
âYou know, that new guy? The one who always checks out the books you put on display?â
Sheâs got a grin in her voice. It makes your eye twitch.
âAnd if I didnât know any betterââ (you donât, Elanor, you never do,) âIâd say he has a little crush on you.â
Pause.
âBecause he was staring. A lot.â
Oh, for fuckâs sake.
You shove her chair so it spins away from you, ignoring the heat creeping up your neck.
The universe, it seems, has chosen today to test your patience.
And nowâbecause fate is cruel and Elanor is worseâ
Aisle 8.
The red light above the shelves blinks. Someone needs help. Him.
Of course.
You sigh. Drag yourself up. Refuse to look at her. You donât need toâher glee is practically a tangible thing, radiating off her in smug waves. You weave through the shelves, every step an exercise in reluctant inevitability.
And thenâthere he is.
A broad figure. Back turned. Wearing the comfiest cardigan youâve ever seen. He hasnât noticed you yet.
You clear your throat. âAhem.â
Flinch.
He turns.
Stops.
And for the first time all day, so do you.
Pink.
Pink hair. Soft eyes. Tallâtoo tall. Looking at you like heâs just walked into a dream he wasnât ready for.
You stare.
He stares.
Somewhere, distantly, reality stirs.
His jaw moves, something almost forming before it stumbles out clumsy and quiet:
âWoah⊠You lookâŠâ
A beat.
His eyes flick over you, unreadable, thoughtful, confused.
âBut I thought you preferred softer clothingâŠ? Thatâs why IâŠâ
Why he what?
His voice dies. He clears his throat, face burning cherry-pink, matching his hair.
âAhem! Um⊠S-Sorry, I hope Iâm not bothering you.â
And youâoh, youâ
You donât know what the fuck is going on.
Howâs that?
Not about this. Not about him.
But his voice drags you back, an anchor to the present, and you scramble to piece together whatever sentence just left his cherry-stained lips. Thereâs a kind of innocence in the way he struggles for the right words, tripping over them like a nervous actor missing his cue. Itâs almost endearing. Almost.
You give him a slow nod, a silent cue to keep going.
He takes a breath.
ââŠI need some help. IâIâm looking for a specific book, you see, butâŠâ
And there it is. The sleeve-tugging hesitation. That stammer, that nervous shift, like a protagonist straight out of one of Mothâs favorite anime. Theyâre going to absolutely lose it when you tell them about this later.
The stranger tries again, steadier this time, his gaze catching yours with something just a little too sharp.
ââŠDo you have any books on native flora? The best Iâve found are on generic wildlife, but nothing on Corland Bayâs plants.â
Plants? Your first thought is to direct him to Violetâthis is her territoryâbut instead, you let out a quiet chuckle and step a little closer, scanning the shelf beside him.
He twitches. Not awayâcloser. Just slightly. A shift so subtle itâs almost imperceptible, except for the way his breath hitches when your scent brushes past him.
âNo, youâre in the right section,â you murmur. âTheyâre just⊠buried.â
Your fingers ghost along the book spines, slow, deliberate, until you find the one. You tug it free, turning it in your hands before offering it to him.
âThis the one?â
He doesnât answer right away. Not with words, at least. His gaze lingersâtoo long, too intenseâbefore he finally reaches for it. His fingers brush yours, barely, but thereâs a slight tremor in them.
Then he flips through the pages, scanning, searchingâ
And stops.
âYes,â he breathes, triumphant. âThis is perfect. Thank youâŠâ
You barely have time to nod before he adds, almost too softly:
âHaha, youâre like an angel, you know that? So kind.â
Your heart stumbles. Your lips partâ
ââŠWhat?â
His expression shatters into pure, unfiltered horror.
âOh my Godââ His face flushes, hands flying up as if he could physically shove the words back into his mouth. âI didnâtâDid I actually say that out loud? Oh, shit, Iâm so sorry. That wasâThat mustâve been so weirdââ
Itâs adorable, in a train-wreck kind of way.
You bite back a grin, raising your hands in mock surrender. âRelax. Just caught me off guard, is all.â
His eyes flicker with somethingârelief? Embarrassment? Itâs hard to tell beneath the flush crawling up his neck.
âR-Really?â His voice is softer now, hopeful. âWell, I meant it.â
You sigh, shaking your head. âSure.â
And that should be the end of it. You should step away. Let him bask in his mortification. But he doesnât move. Just watches. A silent, expectant sort of tension stretching between you.
You clear your throat. âUh. You shouldnât stare like that.â
His head tilts, almost curious. âWhy not?â
Your stomach twists.
âBecause I donât know you,â you reply, words lighter than the weight pressing against your ribs.
His lips twitch, like heâs suppressing a smile. âAh. A technicality.â
You exhale sharply, already regretting this entire conversation. âYou havenât even told me your name.â
âHavenât I?â
A pause.
Then, smoothly: âRed- Ren.â
Ren. The name tastes unfamiliar, but something about it scratches at the back of your mind. The way he says itâlike itâs borrowed. Like itâs just another book on a shelf, waiting to be picked up and put back down under a different title.
Still, you nod, forcing an easy smile. âNice to meet you, Ren.â
His gaze flickers downâto your name tag. A quiet hum leaves him.
âY/n,â he muses. âOr⊠Angel, maybe.â His grin sharpens. âBoth suit you.â
Until he tilts his head, expression sobering.
ââŠYou said you needed a new lock for your apartment.â
You blink, thrown off by the sudden shift. âYeah?â
âWhy?â
You hesitate. Thereâs no real harm in telling him, right? Itâs not like heâs the one who broke in.
âSomeone snuck in last night,â you admit, shrugging. âDidnât steal anything. But still. Creepy.â
Ren hums again, thoughtful. Then, without missing a beat:
âI could watch your place.â
Your breath catches.
You blink at him. âWhat.â
He shrugs, casual. âStay up. Keep an eye out. Handle it if anything happens.â His voice is smooth, steady, like heâs offering to water your plants while youâre away. âWouldnât be a problem.â
You stare.
He meets your gaze, unwavering.
Itâs insane. Itâs suspicious. Itâs absolutely something you should say no to.
Instead, you hear yourself say:
ââŠYou offering to be my personal bodyguard now?â
Ren smiles. âOnly if you say yes.â
"You really want to protect a stranger like me, Who knows, You-" You went closer to his ear whispered "can't trust anyone...What if, I'm luring you for my own fun..?"
He flustered, almost fell down...You giggle and left.
You smile. Evilly.
Heheheheh.
He looks cute, wonât lie. Almost too cute. Youâve always wanted to commit a Haruko crimeâsink your knife into something pretty, watch something lovely turn ruinous in your hands. Killing him would be fun.
Wouldn't lie⊠those blue eyesâ
Theyâre similar.
That man.
The one from the alley. The first one you didnât kill. The one you let walk free.
Your mind wrenches back to him, unbidden. That look in his eyes, the way he stoodâdifferent. He wasnât like the others. He was⊠something else.
And maybeâjust maybeâyour poor, gutted heartâŠ
Ugh.
Stop.
Ugh.
You smile a little.
Shitty. Yes. Youâre fucked in the head.
And oh, how you love it.
A wretched thing, a beautiful disaster, a creature born to revel in ruinâyou, a lover in the way fire loves to lick at the edges of a home, the way a knife loves the tender give of flesh.
What is it, then? This itch in your skull? This whisper in your bones? Some ghost of mercy rattling in your ribcage? How disgusting. How divine.
You let one go. One. And yet his ghost lingers like the taste of copper on your tongue. A memory dressed in blue-eyed regret.
You should carve it out. Bleed it dry. But oh, donât you adore the ache?