Self H@rm - Blog Posts

im either cvtting, complaining abt not r3strict!ng well enough, or studying til i can't think anymore and i wont stop until i get skinnier and keep those grades up.

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I am nothing if not envious.

If you've ever mocked someone, or a group of people, who say they're suicidal and you don't have an extremely good reason, then you're a trash person. I don't care if you think they're lying, if they "can't possibly be suicidal" because "they have it so good" or "they're just overreacting"; there is a very good chance that you could be the cause of their death. Everything is an act and an overreaction until we follow through with it and you realize that when you could've helped us or even just left us alone, you chose to mock us and dismiss us because you were ignorant. I hope it fucking haunts you.

I wrote this for a freshman year English assignment

December 26 I opened my eyes

a sweet summer sky full of wonder

a sparkling shore swimming with marine life and acute awareness

At two years old I tried to join my sister's class

they said I wasn't ready; I could have been ready

Six years old I was a student

reading novels, doing advanced math, a social butterfly

mom's perfect daughter

i couldn't have been ready

Twelve, a hurricane

waves hitting, a freight train shattering every bone in the body

disease striking the world, pain striking my mind like no twelve year old should know

my first thoughts of ending it, deep cuts engraving once perfect skin

tears shed, friends lost, incessant dread lurking as the Grim Reaper breathes down my neck

Fifteen, will I ever be ready

newfound friends, love, a new sense of belonging

but still i bleed, they scream, and together we weep, knowing I could have been more

i am drowning in that ocean, burning in the sun

look what's come of be, a wreck, a disaster in the making

I wasn't ready

(I think I got a B+ on this, so ig at least my teacher liked it)

I promised myself i would stop cuttting, i guess some promises are meant to be broken.

Lowkey would wanna get better. But I am literally nothing without my addictions and obsessions, so we’ll stay here.

I’ve been cvtting all afternoon..It’s so euphoric, but I always feel like I need to go deeper after a while bc it just doesn’t effect me in the same way. I’m always thinking about how much easier it will be to cvt when I’m thin.

ALL SFX NOT REAL!!

BLOCK DON’T REPORT!!

MAKEUP PRACTICE!

Ignore my fat thighs but I thought my cuts looked pretty today.

JUST TOOK A SHARPINER FROM MY ART TEACHER, I’VE BEEN MAKING CUTE BABY STYRO’S ALL DAY, SINCE I’VE BEEN HOME. ❤️❤️❤️

I’m so done. I’m going back to school in a few hours, I just pulled out a chunk of my hair, I ruined my fast, and if I tell my parent they’ll send me back to the ward, and I have a therapist appt later today.

gotta make sure my mom don't find em again

trying 2 act nonchalant as if I don’t carry my bl@de around with me everywhere like it’s my child 💔

funny how my mom though she could hide bl@des from me (i found some) she sucks at hiding them

born to be a wrist slitt3r, forced to be a leg cutt3r 💔

My life is.... Actually great. I have it amazing

My parents care really about my mental health

I have amazing friends

I have a super comfortable lifestyle

I have a nice house and a great school

Im a straight a student

And my family is wealthy......

So why am I so sad?

Why do I $h when I have a perfect life

Why am I like this when my parents actually care and love me....

Why am I like this when all my friends care so much about me....

What's wrong with me. I have a great life.

I'm so ungrateful and useless....

I should just die.

Mom said she might start doing bodychecks, chat am i cooked?

If she does, she'll notice my ribs show more than usual

Okey

So this is my other account aside from @youngheartperfection or smth i don't remember, Because I am grounded rn, because im a self h@rm1ng piece of sh1t, and my mom found my lovely bl@d3s, and grounded me i love her sm

Imma jump, lowkey picked a day and everything (This is a joke for legal reasons)

Im gonna jump on god

TW

St@rv3ing until l0s!ng your p3ri0d>>>>>>>>>>

TW

When you st@rv3 y0urs3lf so much to the point it hurts to 3at when forced tooo>>>>>

i gained ten pounds and broke up with my boyfriend

Now i’m like the soul sucking extremely depressed and hopeless mentally ill instead of the manic 🌈💕🌸 mentally ill where i felt good but knew it was bad

which one is best

god i want to die

my boyfriend is gonna break up with me and i gained five pounds bc of halloween

REPOST THIS SO PEOPLE SEE PLEASE OR ADD MORE WEIRD PEOPLE THAT YOU KNOW ABOUT

IF THIS BASTARD TRIES TO TALK TO YOU PLEASE DONT LET HIM HES LIKE ONE OF THOSE WEIRD "COACHES/DOMS"

let's be mentally unstable without creepy mens interference please 💕

LIKE MY POST TO GET SKINNIER OR SOMETHING ‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️this is the only form of social media where I show my face 😭 so I'm not too worried about people finding me I love my severely triggering communities though 😝💕

idk why I'm posting this tbh

tw bodycheck at the bottom (I look kinda fat bruh 🙁)

the urge to slit my wrists is insane ngl but I kinda wanna make one of these my pfp which one should I do??? I hate vertical pics so much they make my face look so long 😭

PLEASEEE HELP ME

how can I tell if I have bipolar disorder

I reeeeallly think so but It feels fake because I haven't been diagnosed. I've read about symptoms and everything but idkkkk I get so unstable and then I'm fine idk what to do and I don't know if I should get diagnosed because then my mom would know and I'd have to take meds and I don't want that

Idk I like the picture

filter: blade

filter: sh

filter: cvt skin knife carving stab

filter: styro styros

filter: relapsing relapse