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Am I the only one that doesn't really use affirmations on the regular?
One thing about me is that I don't want to do things unless I have fun with them. Luckily this doesn't apply to studying lmao (at least most of the time-), but it does to shifting.
Saying the same things over and over and over again is too repetitive and boring for me, so I just...don't really do it-
There are times in which I do use affirmations, but most of the time I try to focus on other things for the sake of not getting bored and dropping whatever I'm doing to shift.
If there's anything I've learned about shifting is that we shift constantly. I don't need to affirm to get up and go to the kitchen to get a snack, I just do it. So why would I need to do it to shift?
There's also the fact that when I keep repeating something in my head for a long time I kinda forget what I'm saying- or even how to say it unless I stop for a minute (you know that feeling when you say a word multiple times and suddenly it doesn't sound like a real word? Yeah, that). And most of the time my mind just ends up thinking about something completely unrelated and I completely abandon my method.
Instead of affirming that I'm in my dr I try to 'feel it'. Basically I think about being in my dr without using words- if that makes sense. I'm not sure how to explain it to be honest.
And obviously, since I've never seen anyone in the shifting community not mentioning affirmations, my smooth little brain HAD to start overthinking- but he better shut up, because I'm tired of his shit💀
And actually I just remembered that not everyone has 'a narrator' in their head when they think. And since literally anyone can shift then why wouldn't I be able to do it without affirming the way most people do? Also, there are people who have shifted on accident/without meaning to- AND ALSO, there are people who have shifted without knowing what shifting was- HOW AM I SUPPOSE TO NOT MAKE IT WHEN THERE ARE PEOPLE WHO HAVE SHIFTED WITHOUT KNOWING WHAT SHIFTING WAS??? I don't think they went to bed while affirming of being in their dr SINCE THEY DIDN'T KNOW WHAT SHIFTING WAS- AND YET THEY DID IT!!
So yeah, I'm going to shift now, goodnight!!
I'm working on both my main bnha reality script and a new one (that I won't be sharing because it's a little bit too personal) so now I'm alternating obsessing over these two realities.
But my little human brain is worried that if I make an attempt to shift to another reality different from my bnha one, which is the one I put more effort in, I'll magically lose the progress I made.
Can someone be like "the fuck are you talking about? You won't lose anything!" because I'm going insane-
Yesterday I randomly found something that really reminded me of Kurogiri from my main bnha reality. I was tired so I didn't think too much about it, but I took a screenshot anyway.
A few minutes ago I was in my gallery, thinking about my dr and all, and I saw the screenshot.
"I'm not crying, you are!" that's what I would say if I wasn't crying- I'M CRYING-
I MISS MY BIG BROTHER SO MUCH- GET ME THE FUCK OUT OF HERE!!
↑ this was the thing I saw by the way. If I don't shift tonight and I don't get to hug Kurogiri for AT LEAST an hour straight, I'm going to make it everyone's problem-
I'm trying to continue writing the draft which is basically a remake of the intro to my main bnha dr, but every time I come online and try to write something down I'm just unable to do so. I've been thinking about what happened the last time I tried to shift to that dr, it happened about a week ago I think.
Basically I was lying in bed, visualising my dr bedroom and eventually I fell asleep. When I woke up I was still here, but it was pretty early in the morning (around 3am if I remember correctly), so I began my lazy method again.
While I was visualising I felt something- and it wasn't pleasant at all.
Basically when I do my lazy method I just imagine that I'm my dr self and I'm laying in bed in my dr bedroom. But that can get kinda boring so, since I scripted that eventually Kurogiri will come into my room to wake me up, I prefer to imagine the same thing but Kurogiri is already there. I don't know why, it helps me concentrate more for some reason. Usually when I'm particularly sleepy and cozy I can't help myself but think about him sitting at the edge of my bed and running his hand through my hair (words cannot describe how much I like that- it's an amazing feeling- it makes me feel so cozy and loved😭🙏🏻💕)
So now you might be thinking "did you actually feel his hand on your head while you were trying to shift?"
Unfortunately no- I really wish that was it, but it wasn't.
I was doing my method, like usual, and suddenly I felt a hand touching the left side of my body on top of my blanket. It basically tapped my body from my hip to my shoulder and then once on my mouth which was covered by the blanket. When I tell you I was TERRIFIED it's an understatement- I literally thought someone was in the house. My first reaction was to pretend to be asleep and my heart was RACING. Eventually I said fuck it and did a reality check (pinched my nose and tried to breathe) just to make sure I wasn't dreaming.
The worst part is that it wasn't just a feeling, I literally perceived a hand- specifically a left hand (don't ask me why a left hand, but when that happened I could only picture a left hand for some reason).
Kurogiri would NEVER touch me like that, NEVER!!
So I know for a fact that wasn't him and I wasn't feeling something from my dr. I know I probably was just half asleep and feeling weird shit, but it's not the first time I wake up in the middle of the night and go back to sleep feeling like that AND THAT NEVER HAPPENED BEFORE- and coincidentally it happened right while I was doing my method.
I don't know, but whenever I think back to it, and I try to connect it to my dr for some reason (the reason being I'm delusional), I can only think of All For One- HAVE I EVER TOLD YOU GUYS ABOUT HOW MUCH I HATE THIS MAN? THE SHEER HATRED I FEEL FOR THIS POOR EXCUSE OF A HUMAN BEING IS ONE OF THE MANY THINGS THAT MOTIVATE ME TO SHIFT TO MY MAN BNHA DR- I GENUINELY CANNOT WAIT FOR HIS DEATH, WORDS CANNOT DESCRIBE HOW HAPPY I WILL BE ONCE THAT HAPPENS-
So yeah, I'm kinda going insane for what happened and now my hatred for All For One has reached a new level- can't believe my dr self will (temporary, thank fuck-) think of this man as a saviour and some kind of role model and shit-
I don't know why the hate I feel for him motivates me to shift, but it's so funny because whenever something bad yet silly happens in the cr I just pretend that's him trying to sabotage me and I'm like "bitch ass motherfucker that's not gonna work, I'm shifting and kicking your fucking ass💪🏻😼"
All For One I hope you shit your pants and have a horrible day overall!!!😘🥰😍
MLP DR SLAYYYYYYYYYYY ‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️
IXBSSHHSSVSHGSVSVS-
LITTLE ME ALWAYS WANTED TO BE FRIENDS WITH THE MAIN 6, IT'S INSANE-
So don't mind me shifting as a cute, little pony and be a new element of friendship-
BUT I'M SO UPSET BECAUSE I DON'T KNOW HOW I WANT TO LOOK LIKE IN MY DR, I SPONTANEOUSLY COMBUST EVERY TIME I TRY TO THINK OF SOMETHING GOOD, HELP😭🙏🏻
I'm actually tweaking right now-
I MIGHT HAVE ALMOST SHIFTED LAST NIGHT-
Let me tell you what happened-
And even if I wasn't actually about to shift then I'm going to be delusional because I said so and because it'd be so fucking motivating-
So I went to bed like usual and I started doing my 'lazy method', how I like to call it. Basically I just get comfy in bed and I imagine being in my dr, specifically where I scripted I'll be the first time I shift (for my main bnha reality it'd be my bedroom). Before I actually tell you what happened, it's important for you to know a little bit about my cr and dr bedrooms.
When I'm laying in my cr bed there's a wall on my right (assuming I'm laying on my back). A part of the door to my room is 'blurred glass'- I don't know how it's called, I'm sorry- and you can still see some light coming in, despite the fact there's some kind of curtain over it.
On the other hand, my dr bed has a wall on the left instead of the right. Also the room is pitch black when the door is closed and the light is turned off (also there are no windows).
So what happened? I was in bed, visualising my dr when suddenly I felt like opening my eyes. I don't remember why I wanted to do that, but note that in my script I wrote that my eyes open automatically once I'm there. When I opened my eyes they physically felt weird and at first it was pitch black, but then it immediately went back to looking exactly like my cr bedroom (I could see thanks to the light coming from the kitchen opposite my door). When that happened my heart was beating like crazy, like when you feel that falling sensation but without the falling sensation, if that makes sense. I don't know how to explain it, but I felt like I didn't 'perceive' my surroundings. I didn't 'feel' the wall on my right, but I didn't feel one on my left either, like it'd be in my dr. I didn't feel my blankets or the general shape of the room or anything else really. And my first thought was 'I'm shifting'.
Yesterday I didn't think about it that much because I was super tired, but when I woke up this morning I FLIPPED!!
So yeah, I'm tweaking right now, I'm about to spontaneously combust :)
I suddenly got the urge to make a new pinned message which includes my main bnha dr and my waiting room (and other things). Not sure why but…oh well-
There's a chance I'll delete the old ones after I'm done with this post so…yeah-
Why am I making a post about it? It's my blog, I can do whatever I want with it- just like with reality shifting, I can go wherever and I can do whatever I want😏
See? This post wasn't useless after all!!
(please laugh-)
dream journal: entry 1
february 5th 2025
As I said in my pinned, I'm interested in using the lucid dreaming method to shift, so why not use this blog as a dream journal too! Surprisingly to absolutely no one, here I am sharing a dream that may or may not tie with my symbol of fear dr!
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This dream was actually pretty fucking sad- I woke up somewhat disoriented because I was super tired and then I was extremely sad because what the fuck brain?
It wasn't a lucid dream and maybe it was better that way, I wouldn't have known what to do- I'd have probably panicked and woke up anyway. I was my dr self and I remember being…somewhere with the lov? I have no idea where we were to be honest. Basically we were ambushed by pro heroes. I don't know how this happened, but suddenly we were trapped in a 'metal box'. It was pretty spacious inside, but suddenly there were just four of us: me, Dabi and some other two that I don't recall at all. And quirks didn't seem to work there either.
And you know that thing in dreams when you know things even if you shouldn't? Yeah, so apparently the heroes had the 'brilliant idea' to try and kind of negotiate(?) with us and then help us in some way, which doesn't sound too bad, but the execution was absolute dogshit. They thought that by reconciling with the person/people who hurt us would help us kind of calm down and we'd be more willing to trust and listen to them. Well that went horribly-
They couldn't bring anyone in for me- they probably could have went with All Might, but they didn't. Kotaro was dead (and they didn't know about him anyway) and bringing in All For One would've been the stupidest thing ever (also they just couldn't- like why would he ever side with the heroes and ruin his own plans?). So all I could do, since my quirk didn't work and I was all skin and bones, was watch what the hell was going on.
Not even a minute in and immediately Dabi and Endeavour are at my right, screaming at each other like there's no tomorrow. I didn't do anything at first because, again, quirks didn't work and Endeavour could've destroyed me with one hand, but when I finally decided to step in the scene changed kind of drastically. But before that, let me explain what was going on a little better:
Apparently in that 'room' everyone's quirk didn't work, including the heroes'. In fact, Endeavour didn't have his usual flames surrounding him, which I thought was a little strange but maybe they wanted us to feel like we were equal. Both of their designs weren't 100% perfect, especially Dabi's. He was a mix between a younger and older him, if that makes sense. His hair was grey, the damaged skin looked a little healthier than it was supposed to be and his clothes were a little bit on the lighter side. Their argument was, unsurprisingly, about how Endeavour was the worst possible father (and husband) on the fucking planet. At first it was pretty generic, but then Dabi quickly began talking specifically about what he did to him. I specifically remember hearing something about how he didn't feel and wasn't seen by him at all and how shocked he was that, despite being right in front of him, he still felt that way. Endeavour didn't care about his identity at all, he cared more about his job at that moment. He was also being pretty fucking hostile (verbally), raising his voice and shit.
So when I decided to step in I took a few steps forwards, trying to get closer and maybe set myself between them, but Endeavour literally disappeared into thin air. I remember immediately turning towards Dabi and he had an extremely distressed look on his face. I instinctively opened my arms to offer him a hug and he basically threw himself at me. And oh, he cried so fucking hard- I was hugging him and rubbing his back trying to calm him down while I heard him bawling his eyes out right next to my left ear. It was fucking soul wrecking to be honest (can't wait to shift and, once we meet and get closer, hug him :'D)
Not too long after this Dabi vanished, but Endeavour reappeared. As soon as he came back literally everyone, villains and heroes alike, was looking at him like "WHAT THE FUCK IS YOUR PROBLEM?!"
I also remember yelling something at Endeavour, but I don't remember what it was to be honest.
And then I woke up- this dream didn't have the right to make me feel this shitty, I've been thinking about it all day😭🙏🏻
Ok- I know I published my main wr and dr intro not too long ago, but since I joined Tumblr I've been thinking about changing the way I script, so I could completely change those posts in the near future. I won't be making new ones, I'll just update the ones I already made.
Basically I got tired of making long scripts, so now I'm working on a Google Doc (I'll probably make it in Notion too) where I've only got the essential details about my wrs and drs. It starts with a list with the names of my wrs and drs, but before talking about them I wrote some 'universal lifa app rules' and 'universal safety rules'. It's a list of things about my lifa app and safety rules that are consistent in literally every reality I want to shift to, so I can feel safer whenever I shift to a reality I don't have much information on for x reason.
I decided to do this because sometimes I start overthinking and my smooth, little brain tells me "but what if something bad will happen?"- SO FUCK YOU BRAIN, I'LL BE SAFE WHENEVER I GO!!!
After that I'll just have a bullet list of important details for my wrs and drs. There's also the fact that most (but not all) of my drs are based on already existing media, so I don't really feel the need to write the plot down, if there's a plot that is, because it'd just be extremely similar to the original. So I'll just write down some details and/or changes. And for now I only have two realities that are completely original (my main wr and another pretty personal dr) and they don't really have a plot, so I don't need to script that much.
So…yeah- don't know why I decided to make this post actually LMAO-
My hungry ass eating the snacks Kurogiri gives me after saying I wasn't hungry and skipping dinner (I was just really sad and stressed out, but now I also feel bad for not keeping him company at the dinner table)
At first I wanted to shift to my waiting room before shifting to my drs, but I noticed how I'm starting to connect more with my dr self from my symbol of fear dr. The thought of going to my waiting room first doesn't feel as exciting as the thought of going to my bnha dr feels like. And I figured that it's mainly because of my dr self and the people I'm close to in my bnha dr.
My wr self is basically me but slightly different- and I don't really like myself in the cr, so…yeah- I don't know what I was thinking there. It's not that I don't like who I am in my wr, not at all, but it's a little bit underwhelming.
While in my bnha dr I'm different- but not that much if I really think about it.
So now I'm thinking about making a second waiting room in which I'm identical to my bnha dr self (so Shigaraki) and me and the rest of the LOV are just chilling somewhere. No wild shit happening, just wholesome stuff like…I don't know- playing stupid games all together and laughing like idiots- or playing sardines- I WANT TO PLAY SARDINES SO BAD AND IT'D BE SO INTERESTING AND CHAOTIC WITH QUIRKS-
Yeah- it sounds really, really nice actually!!
(and obviously gonna script Spinner as my s/o because I'm obsessed :D)
Hey silly people!! :D
Do you guys have any shifting subliminal recommendations? I don't know why, but I randomly thought about trying them so…yeah- here I am asking for recommendations!!
I really like music, so any subs with it are welcome!! Also subs with ambience seem really, really cool- one of my dr selves LOVES the rain (me in the cr too to be honest-) so bonus points for those!! And yeah, I'm pretty open to whatever, you can throw at me whatever you want!! :D
Just saw a green gummy croc on the ground on my way to school. Gonna be delusional and take this as a sign from the universe🙏🏻
(I'm not normal about Spinner- I love that lil' guy)