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Quando mi brontolerà lo stomaco, saprò di star andando bene. Quando inizierà a girarmi di nuovo la testa quando mi alzo dal letto, saprò che sto avanzando a grandi passi. Quando avrò la nausea e l'acidità di stomaco dopo aver mangiato qualcosa, saprò che ci sono quasi. Quando mi siederò su una sedia con i piedi su di essa e le ginocchia alzate, e non sentirò la mia pancia toccare le cosce, saprò che sono proprio lì lì per avercela fatta. Quando camminerò e non sentirò l'interno delle mie cosce toccarsi, o quando mi stenderò sul fianco e tra le mie cosce ci sarà abbastanza spazio per farci passare la mano senza toccarle, saprò che ce l'ho fatta. Quando l'elastico per capelli non mi stringerà più la parte più larga del braccio, saprò di aver vinto.

Ma, fino a quel momento, continuerò a fissarmi nuovi obbiettivi.

06/09/2023, ore 06:20.

ashton talking about not eating until 2pm everyday is not what i needed to see today

Heyyy guys I’m back!!! I’m gonna try to be more active on here anyways I need to lose 15 kg!! Like asp (I’ll give myself a month or less but anyway ya!

Meanspo In comments pls 🫶🏼🫶🏼

How to stop binge cycle after school

Holiday didn’t help ate like trash anyway I’m starting school again so I hope it’ll help lol

Thank god I started my holiday it’s going to be so much easier to starv3 lol

Literally I recovered for a bit and gained 3kg I’m gonna relapse lol I show lose 5kg by the end of the month yea anyway meanspo in the comments pls

That’s it I’ve made a decision I’ll eat now then I’ll fast for one week if I break it I’ll km$ ughhh I need to lose 10kg I have 2weeks and that’s it I will lose them.

Bro I come back from school and literally eat anything I see then I don’t eat for the rest of the day how do I stop this like I starve at school then when I come back I binge (not that big of a binge) it’s so annoying.

I’ve been eating too much lately!!! I’m pretty Sure I gained 1-2kg. Ugh I’m gonna do this and I’ll update you guys when I finish it (also I made this challenge if you wanna do it do it at your own risk!!) I might as well blog what I eat so I’ll be pressured to eat clean!! Also meanspo in the comments pls!!!

16oz water

I'm already at 830 calories yikes! All because I ate some of my coworkers food. So the plan for today is to FAST untill 12am the following morning.

Rules for fast-

Take vitamins and supplements

Sip plenty of water

Sip plenty of low cal tea 🍵 sweetened with splenda

Diet soda is allowed zero calorie

Take a warm shower to get my mind off food

Take a long nap

Binge watch YouTube

If I can manage this fast I will stay at 830 calories. Still alot but at least I didn't consume more calories. At this point I'll take what I can get

700 calories is my new safe number now. I dont feel safe eating above 700. I know it's not sustainable but I will give everything I got to meet that number. I don't want to be fat anymore it's making me a target for abuse and my weight has kept me trapped in a bad relationship.

Every lb I lose will dig me out of this cage my ex has put me in.

When eating does anyone else feel like throwing up as soon as the food touches your tongue? Especially when it comes to meat?

My brain deciding that solid food is allowed again after restricting me to a liquids-only diet for the last five days for seemingly no reason

Yeah, bc OF COURSE that's how it works 🤡

OF COURSE showing fat characters

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Glorifying obesity 🤡🤡🤡

OF COURSE making plus-sized characters to help people accept themselves (it's totally not that it's literally what MH is about in the first place, about ACCEPTING OUR DIFFERENCES) is the same as brainwashing someone to gain weight and become fat🤡🤡🤡

(she's not even that big in the first place, wtf was that user on when they were writing this)

I feel like if you guys liked my curry recipe, you're gonna like this one as well. I like to call it "ed approved curry noodles"

✨Ingredients✨

👉 200g of konjac noodles (I used fettuccine shaped ones) - 12kcal

👉 1tsp of curry powder - 16kcal

👉 1tsp of garam masala - 9kcal

👉 salt and pepper to taste

👉 30g of white onion - 10kcal

👉 30ml of 3.2% milk - 18kcal

👉 water

~total: 65 calories!!!

✨Instructions✨

Drain your noodles and set them aside. Then, cut up your onion and fry it for about 2 minutes on a dry pan before adding milk and water (Idk how much water I used, maybe about 70-100ml). Stir everything and then add the seasonings before dumping in the noodles. Leave it to cook until most of the water-milk mixture evaporates, making it a thick sauce.

Dump the meal into a bowl and you're done!

(Remember that I do NOT promote ana or any other eating disorders, you deserve to eat, you need to eat to survive, I don't encourage you to get yourself into an ED if you don't have one (don't do it. It's not just a diet, it's dangerous), I'm just sharing some of my low calorie recipes/meal ideas to help you and perhaps encourage you to recover because you do deserve to recover, you deserve to be happy and eat without feeling guilty ❤️)

7.06.2024

I got my period 🥲👍

(Being AFAB sucks)

Anyway I only had coffee in the morning again. I'm starting to get used to skipping breakfast.

At around 12AM I went out and got a haircut (super happy with it)

A little bit later I had some pearl barley with a lot of seasoning (it made it taste super spicy but that's fine, I like my food super seasoned)

Oh, I also finished the bag!

Later that day I went ahead and started making another one in different colors. I can give you guys my Vinted username if anyone is interested in purchasing something like this from me.

Then me and my mom went to the mall. Along with some yarn and food for my rat, I got some drinks and my favorite guilt free bars

(Haven't tried this flavor yet)

As a snack, I had an energy drink and some konjac jelly (peach flavor, my fav)

Around 8PM I had dinner: two boiled eggs with generous amount of salt (cuz I physically cannot eat eggs without salt), some toasted bread and grapes

Calorie-wise it was my biggest meal but it was also super good and filling <33

My total was: 614kcal

(please do not try to repeat what I'm going here, it's very unhealthy, I'm not trying to promote ED to anyone in any way, I'm just showing you guys what I happened to eat today and that's literally it)

Being chubby/overweight is just so unfair, people bash and disrespect you no matter what you do.

No matter what food you eat (if you eat unhealthy, they hate on you saying how "they could never", but if you eat healthy, they think you're lying and eat much more when no one is around)

No matter if you exercise or not (if you don't, they yell at you to go to the gym, but if you do, they either don't believe you or make fun of you for being a fat person in the gym)

If you have an ED, they don't believe you (because society thinks only skinny people struggle with them) and claim you just eat too much.

If you say you like being fat and feel comfortable in your body, you're automatically promoting morbid obesity to everyone around (or have a sick fetish for fat people)

If you say you dislike being fat and plan to go on a diet, barely anyone believes in you. Most people just make bets on how long your little "diet" will last.

Society does all those shitty stuff to you and then say they do it because they "worry about your health" but you know damn well they're lying (because in cases where a skinny girl literally promotes pro-ana behaviors and starvation, no one bats an eye)

It feels wrong every time but I don't want to make her feel bad 😭

People with ADHD be like:

I keep throwing up wtf

any tips on how to make tights smaller/get a tight gap??

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