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OK I THINK I HAVE ONE EXCEPTION FOR THIS
I'll only let some older man, who doesn't want to do it, bc he doesn't want to hurt me, but does it anyway because he feels bad, but he's flustered and hesitant the whole time, and when he does it, it barely even cuts the skin, but the second time he gets to confident in himself and ends up cutting to baby beans
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(And then he cleans it franticaly and cuddles me and kisses the cuts after)
Idk if it's just me but the thought of having someone cutting me for me sounds so gross.
Like for starters, what if they get there greasy finger oils on it and my blade rustsπ
And what do I do, just...sit there and watch them do it ? Or do I strike up conversation ?!?!? π§ββοΈ
I js like doing it alone, cause I know exactly how I want it, and I get to be proud of myself for going deeper and getting more blood >:3
PLAYING IRL FNAF RN !!! π₯π₯π₯
(cvtting myself when everyone's still awake)
I actually have no clue why i decided to do these all right now, i js suddenly really fucking needed to, and then i wasnt even thinking about how i did it and now my thigh is rlly itchy and stings π
I ALSO GOT SOME BL00D ON MY PANTS (kk I changed them :P)
TW FOR REALISTIC MAKEUP AND SFX: BL00D ABD CVTS
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The blad3s actually might be ok :P I did it harder soo uhm yeah :3
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Yum yum bl00d π€€π
Also to clean up I've been using the same tissue for like 2 months
This thing is actually nasty as hellππ (I'm not sure why part of its blurring :[)
AND THIS CVT WOULDNT STOP BL33DDDINNGGG, LIKE I WAS TRYNNA RUSH BUT IT DIDNT WANNA STOPπ
Not to obvious but still :( reminder to never cut in ur favourite pair of pantsπ
Idk if it's just me but the thought of having someone cutting me for me sounds so gross.
Like for starters, what if they get there greasy finger oils on it and my blade rustsπ
And what do I do, just...sit there and watch them do it ? Or do I strike up conversation ?!?!? π§ββοΈ
I js like doing it alone, cause I know exactly how I want it, and I get to be proud of myself for going deeper and getting more blood >:3
Im very happy rnπ€€
Tw: bl4d3s (sharpeners)
I ALSO HAD THE PINK MONSTER IT WAS SO GOOD OMFGGG <3333 me n my vro only got one so we shared itπ€π€€
my cvts are so pretty, but I don't wanna get t-worded for posting them to much >.<
Which is a shameee, cause the new blad3s are giving me some damn good bl00d
It hurt a little more than usual but I think it was js cause I was going over the other cvts I'm not really giving a chance for the others to heal up properlyπ
I don't really know what to do cause now I have bl00dy tissues but no bin in my room (my mother took it away :< I wasn't trusted with it) sooo I might js hide them in my school bag and hope it doesn't attract the ants in my room + nobody sees them at school XD
FINALLY SOME GOOD...sfx...makeup...totally not real blood
I FEEL SO HAPPY AND JITTERY EHEHEHEHEHHEHEHEH YAYAYAYAYAYAYYAYAYAYA
Tw forrrrrrrrr cvtssss (n blood)
Block don't report please this is a coping mechanism :( I'm safe trust, my therapist looks at them often to see if there clean ^^
Cat scratchessss >.<
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Finally got some good bl00d
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:3
I thought I got more pics wthππ
Just as i did it
And this was my attempt to cleanππ
(I did some bandaids cause it wouldn't stop bleeding and I'm not sure when my family's gonna get back :P)
If and when I get some new blades, I wanna add my dearests name and then I want to try some patterns :D
I've seen people do hearts and stars AND a hello kitty thing. I LOVVE HELLO KITTTYYY !!! But I don't think I have that much control (or patience) to carve a whole Hello Kitty face (and Cinamarolls my favorite, so I'd prefer to do him tbh :P)
Sooo ya !!!! When I get some blades, I might do some hearts and show them o(γοΌΎβ½οΌΎγ)o
(ill sob if I don't get some blades soon istg)
born to be a wrist cutter, forced to be a thigh cutter π
Yes looking at pictures of peoples self h4rm makes me feel better
Yes it also makes me feel like shit because I know I don't have enough courage or supplies to actually cut as deep as them
Being so depressed you canβt even cut yourself <<<
When scars and marks start to form >>>>>
Me when my blades are dull so to keep myself sane I have to look at shblr until I can get some new ones ππ
"No M, you can't carve the name of all your mutuals and friends onto your body !"
God forbid a boy has hobbies π
-> β Name: M (or anything, give me a name and I'll use it :3)
-> β Age: In between 14-17
-> β Pronouns, sexuality: He/him/ + neopronouns that I'm too scared to share >.<). Bisexual, possibly demi-romantic
-> β Likes: Bungo Stray Dogs, Needy Streamer Overload, Suicide Boy, Sanrio, Sonic, Death Note, Flowers, The rain, cutting
-> β Dislikes: Most people, yelling, animals, eating, when my blades are dull
DNI: I don't think I mind to much who interacts, as long as people don't dm me :P I'm very paranoid about getting weird stuff οΌοΈΏοΌ I think anyone under 12 shouldn't be on Tumblr or social media. So, no DNI, I'll just block if I want :P
I'll post things about self h4rm, 3ating disorders, su!cide, or just any of my depressing thoughts or opinions. I'm also a Jirai >:3 So if I act different sometimes, I should be back to normal soon enough :]
I haven't been diagnosed with anything, but I'm semi in the process of getting diagnosed with Autism and SAD (social anxiety disorder). I have asked my therapist if I could have BPD, and he said my symptoms can eventually evolve into BPD :P Trynna get help for it, but idk if its working :/
ANYWAY
Enjoy this blog ^^
Tw: blood, SH, Bad coping mechanism, escapism, hallucinations, a tad bit suggestive
I really like them they work as a cashier, they have masochistic tendencies and are an asshole/jerk (thought it's mostly because of trauma and because they're trying to overcompensate for their low self steem so yeah)