Okay The Uni Stuff Is Going Thru. I Was Honestly Catastrophizing But Uh Still Nervous For The Start.

okay the uni stuff is going thru. i was honestly catastrophizing but uh still nervous for the start. feel better knowing its part time and that all tutorials are recorded

coming here to vent bc i feel really dumb and anxious. ive been working towards going to online university for next month but i just realized i did the student finance wrong. ive been in pain and lowkey sleep walking thru life and im autistic too and like i had no help so im not 100% surprised i messed up and i wont be super shocked if it falls thru but idk i dont want it to. idk ill try to take whatever happens as a sign. if i get in i can try to get my life on track. if i dont then maybe i need to wait til i get this pain figured out first. im just really scared ive blown up my life and im too late and ill just be stuck sitting here doing nothing waiting for a solution for the pain to come from my doctors to get on waiting lists. i legit feel like a ghost yk something bound to a house where they cant escape. but im also scared of dropping out again and that im not ready so im just in this state of being between a rock and a hard place and everything sucks. idfk what im going to do. happy 2025 ig idk

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little tboy ! jackie taylor headcanons !! โคท featuring : he him jackie ๐“ˆ’ toddler re ๐“ˆ’ tmasc cgs ! shauna & nat ๐“ˆ’

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Little Tboy ! Jackie Taylor Headcanons !! โคท Featuring : He Him Jackie ๐“ˆ’ Toddler Re ๐“ˆ’ Tmasc Cgs
Little Tboy ! Jackie Taylor Headcanons !! โคท Featuring : He Him Jackie ๐“ˆ’ Toddler Re ๐“ˆ’ Tmasc Cgs
Little Tboy ! Jackie Taylor Headcanons !! โคท Featuring : He Him Jackie ๐“ˆ’ Toddler Re ๐“ˆ’ Tmasc Cgs

spotted these jorts and was reminded of this jackie outfit and couldn't stop thinking about tmascjackets agere ๐“ˆ’๐“ˆ’๐“ˆ’ this is purely self indulgent i fear ๐“ˆ’ you can find my yellowjackets masterlist here and my upcoming list here ๐“ˆ’

jackie who tearfully comes out first to nat and then to shauna ๐“ˆ’ the weight of his secret is crushing him , each time they call him "she" or girl hitting like a slap to the face ๐“ˆ’ nat who holds him , letting the boy cry , rubbing soothing circles into his back ๐“ˆ’ shauna who shrugs it off as no big deal , casually dropping that in fact he's in a similar position though it had been much easier for shauna , now shaun to accept ๐“ˆ’

jackie (who still wants to be jackie at least for the time being) begins regressing more often in the freedom of nat's cramped room in his trailer , far from the taylor's own sprawling manor ๐“ˆ’ nat , no stranger to jackie's regression is pleased to take on the big brother role , seeing it as euphoric not only for himself but also to be a part of giving jackie his "proper" childhood ๐“ˆ’

with nat and shauna being the only two to know about jackie's being trans , he'll often go to them tearfully when he's feeling dysphoric ๐“ˆ’ dysphoria is one of jackie's biggest triggers to regress , oftentimes leaving nat and shauna with the large task of dealing with a dysphoric toddler ๐“ˆ’

nat is more open to having emotional conversations with jackie regardless of if he's regressed or not ๐“ˆ’ shaun on the other hand isn't great with tears , trying not to cringe and doing his best to coax a more calm jackie out with a toy car or dinosaur ๐“ˆ’

nat calls him "buddy" , "little man" , and "bubba" which always brings a shy smile to jackie's face ๐“ˆ’ shaun has affectionately dubbed him "squirt" and "booger" which he always delivers with a playful toss of jackie's curls ๐“ˆ’

although he's certainly not a baby , jackie's still little enough to sometimes have accidents ๐“ˆ’ he'll be busy roughhousing with shaun who won't stop tickling him and all of a sudden it's too late ๐“ˆ’ his laughter will stop abruptly , tears filling his eyes in embarrassment ๐“ˆ’ as if it's not bad enough to have an accident while playing with your big brother , jackie's quite dysphoric about the situation ๐“ˆ’

shaun will stop teasing him immediately , exchanging a look with nat ๐“ˆ’ jackie's clearly doing his best not to cry , legs crossed and hands covering the crotch of his pants ๐“ˆ’ nat is always able to calm him down though it's a process ๐“ˆ’ "shhh , shhh ๐“ˆ’" he'll soothe ๐“ˆ’ "you're okay , jack ๐“ˆ’ it's just an accident , huh buddy ?" jackie will initially refuse to talk around shaun , worried that he'll bully him ๐“ˆ’ he's a hiccupy mess but after reassurance from shaun that it's okay he'll let nat help him clean up and calm down ๐“ˆ’

nat who saves up his money to buy jackie supplies both for his transition and his regression ๐“ˆ’ he gathers together a box of things for his little brother , giving it to him the next time he's over by himself ๐“ˆ’ nat doesn't have much money and as much as he loves shaun he's worried he'll be jealous or want stuff from him as well ๐“ˆ’ the box is full of items squirreled away by nat : pull ups ( the boys ones ) , nat's old binder , a new package of boxers , a few shirts from goodwill and a mostly new set of army men toys ๐“ˆ’

jackie gets shy at seeing a few of the more intimate items but can't thank nat enough ๐“ˆ’ nat beams at his little brother , tousling his hair and letting him know how proud he is of him ๐“ˆ’

jackie is so fascinated watching nat do his t-shots and shaun expertly put on his trans tape ๐“ˆ’ he's too afraid to try trans tape himself , not wanting his parents or another one of his teammates to find out but he's very curious about it ๐“ˆ’ sometimes he'll get upset hearing nat's deepening voice or just how flat shaun can get his chest to look ๐“ˆ’ he wants to look like a boy too ๐“ˆ’ nat helps him into his old binder , teaching him how to move the tissue of his chest so the binder is more effective ๐“ˆ’ although he can only wear the binder at nat's jackie can't help but sob the first time he feels his flattened chest and sees the effects of the binder in nat's shitty bathroom mirror ๐“ˆ’

jackie's not supposed to wear his binder while regressed yet he often tries to get away with it ๐“ˆ’ shaun doesn't mind as much , just wanting jackie to be comfortable but nat will gently but firmly scold him ๐“ˆ’ when jackie learns that wearing his binder too long can affect him getting top surgery in the future he's really upset ๐“ˆ’ although he's typically well behaved he'll throw tantrums when he's feeling dysphoric not wanting to give up his flat chest even if he's already been wearing his binder for too long ๐“ˆ’

it's not until shaun offers up his most oversized flannel that jackie stops fussing ๐“ˆ’ still he's moody for the rest of the afternoon , hardly wanting to play with his toys or joke around with his brothers ๐“ˆ’

growing up an only child with overprotective parents , jackie was never allowed much freedom as a child , hardly even allowed to play outside ๐“ˆ’ nat and shaun are determined to make up for this , teaching him how to catch frogs and skip rocks ๐“ˆ’ ( nat is a real master at skipping rocks ๐“ˆ’ )


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1 month ago
Started The Legacy Challenge

started the legacy challenge <3 vampire edition

introducing the gen 1 heir: phoenix chambers

he's my trans vampire astronaut. his current aspiration is to be a good vampire. um his traits are genius, geek and loyal.

phoenix hates being a vampire and is trying to assimilate.

vladdy daddy tried to call and he shut that right down.

he refuses to get a coffin.

hes in that weird like book club in get together.

his best friend is some guy named emit who has blue hair and im pretty sure is a time travellor? idk what his deal is but hes cool.

lilith vatore came over to train him and he was thristing so bad he forgot how bad he hates being a vampire they became woohoo partners. the fucking burgular TOOK my umbrella and he got carried away and bit him (the only time hes drunk from a person) immediately got the guilty drinker. he was really super tense so lilith took him to hers and they woohoo'd

the next day was love day so obviously they kept hanging out. caleb came in right after they woohoo'd which was awkward :/

lilith asked phoenix on a date!! this is when i trans'd lilith bc i need the next gen and the t4t thing cute asf <3 they tried for a baby in a bush (it didnt take sigh)

Started The Legacy Challenge

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1 month ago

i'm not invested in "harry potter was never good" conversations because it doesn't matter if it's good or not. quality does not positively correlate with socio-political praxis. it could be a really good piece of art, but if it's still supporting a vocal proponent of transmisogyny and transphobia, i don't give a shit. harry potter good or bad, who cares, its success is unambiguiously providing financial and social capital for a morally despicable person.


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2 months ago
CHAPPELL ROAN Accepts The Best New Artist Award Onstage During The 67th Annual GRAMMY Awards (Feb 2,
CHAPPELL ROAN Accepts The Best New Artist Award Onstage During The 67th Annual GRAMMY Awards (Feb 2,
CHAPPELL ROAN Accepts The Best New Artist Award Onstage During The 67th Annual GRAMMY Awards (Feb 2,
CHAPPELL ROAN Accepts The Best New Artist Award Onstage During The 67th Annual GRAMMY Awards (Feb 2,
CHAPPELL ROAN Accepts The Best New Artist Award Onstage During The 67th Annual GRAMMY Awards (Feb 2,

CHAPPELL ROAN accepts the Best New Artist award onstage during the 67th Annual GRAMMY Awards (Feb 2, 2025)

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1 month ago
Personal Agere Moodboard :3 (10-12)

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2 months ago

Shout out to trans men/mascs with uterine or menstrual health issues, disabilities, diseases, or any other issues of the sort

Shout out to trans men/mascs who still get misgendered or have their issues dismissed at the doctor

Shout out to trans men/mascs who get denied uterine and reproductive healthcare

Shout out to trans men/mascs who have to deal with "women's health" issues and get told to "get over it"

Shout out to trans men/mascs who feel painful dysphoria when going to the doctor

Shout out to trans men/mascs who have excruciating periods and constantly get told dismissive things or to just get over it

You are strong. You deserve to be visible. You should always get the medical help you deserve.

7 months ago
EMBODIMENT: A PORTRAIT OF QUEER LIFE IN AMERICA
EMBODIMENT: A PORTRAIT OF QUEER LIFE IN AMERICA
EMBODIMENT: A PORTRAIT OF QUEER LIFE IN AMERICA
EMBODIMENT: A PORTRAIT OF QUEER LIFE IN AMERICA
EMBODIMENT: A PORTRAIT OF QUEER LIFE IN AMERICA
EMBODIMENT: A PORTRAIT OF QUEER LIFE IN AMERICA
EMBODIMENT: A PORTRAIT OF QUEER LIFE IN AMERICA
EMBODIMENT: A PORTRAIT OF QUEER LIFE IN AMERICA
EMBODIMENT: A PORTRAIT OF QUEER LIFE IN AMERICA
EMBODIMENT: A PORTRAIT OF QUEER LIFE IN AMERICA

EMBODIMENT: A PORTRAIT OF QUEER LIFE IN AMERICA

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7 months ago

lounging around in my boxers with my homemade amateur sock packer feeling very gender rn. still a lil scary but come a long way got a gf and everything.


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1 month ago

wow this was really educational i learnt quite a bit abt marx in sociology and connected to his ideas abt classism but i had no clue abt his teachings on the "Lumpenproletariat".

You don't have to like weed but I find people who are vehemently anti-weed but claim to be left leaning infuriating. If you go into a rage because you smelled someone smoking pot, how the fuck do you expect to form community with people addicted to meth? It's easier to say you hate smokers than to say you hate all drug users in leftist spaces because one makes you sound a bit like a square while the other is the writing on the wall. You aren't anti-weed, you're anti-drug user and anyone who uses substances is not safe around you.

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