There Are Multiple Reasons Why Your Skinny Friend Stays Skinny. So Stop Blaming Your Genetics!

Maybe ill be perfect after eating cold bones?

Worth a try i guess 😂

Me irl

My parents act (especially fight) as if they were 5 years old

Yk, their behaviour is so dumb and immature like ....wtf?

I wish i was dead lol

Sooo

At the moment, i am almost back at my highest weight. I used to feel horrible about that and somehow, i still do.

On friday, i binged and felt totally unmotivated, i thought that i just fucked up another day

However, on Friday evening, i decided to save the day. i ran a half marathon even though nobody believed that i could Do it (well, i believed in myself at some point, but neither my family nor my friends, except for one, thought that i could do it).

I am amazed by what my body is able to do if i fuel it properly.

This is why i will now try to stop obsessing over my enormous thighs and start training, challenging and improving my body rather than wanting a lower number on the scale

Idk if this makes any sense, just wanted to vent lol

80kg - 45kg

Jul 2017 - Nov 2018

Lol my family is so fucked up

My dad just yelled at me for loading the pen for my tablet. Not even 30mins later He asks me to proof- read his Email.

My brother forbid me to enter his room when he was watching a yt Video. An hour later, he asks me to help him with his homework.

My mum shames me for snacking and eating too much at a time. The Same day, she worries about me skipping meals and exercising obsessively

Once i am skinny, they will regret treating me like a back-up Plan, a second choice and a useless object. Once i am skinny, i'll male Sure they die of regret

My mum just yelled at me bc i am low in iron like wtf? This is not my fault?

Gosh, i hate it here

TW venting, suicide

I hate my life so much rn, everything is falling apart. My parents wont stop fighting, my siblings treat me like a second choice, i have terrible anxiety about university and my whole body hurts. Like literally. My joints hurt so bad and it got steadily worse over the last 7 fucking years and nothing helps. Like not at all. Something is hurting 24/7 and it never gets better and i dont know what to do. I lie down and something hurts. I sit up and something hurts. I stand up and something hurts. I walk, jog or run and something hurts.

If there wont be a miracle anytime soon, ill either kill myself directly or start therapeuutic fasting and only stop once im dead lmao

I really cant stand this any longer, im so done with all of it

I just wanna end it all

Bikini themed thinspo

i wanted to join in <3

Guess what

I binged today

The funniest thing is that i binged because im afraid that i won't do good on my finals

So i binged instead of revising

Applause for 2000 disgusting calories