As Someone Who Has Gone Long Stretches Without Electricity, Let Alone An Internet Connection

Listen. If you think writing fanfiction is cringe please know that I am currently pursuing my Masters degree in Creative Writing for fiction and I want you to know that most of the people in my graduate program either read fanfiction, write fanfiction, or do both. I promise you: cringe is dead. Write whatever you want. Do whatever makes you happy.

“This too shall pass” well can it pass a little faster jeez

hello again (bill clinton limewire voice) my fellow americans

There are a few states that actually have Shield/Refuge laws designed to help trans people fleeing from trans-unsafe states, which also guarantee trans folks access to healthcare. These states are:

California

Colorado

Illinois

Oregon

Vermont

Washington

Minnesota

New Mexico

Maine

Massachusetts

Rhode Island

Connecticut

Washington D.C.

Additionally, some states have "trans sanctuary" executive orders signifying safety for trans folks seeking healthcare. These states are:

Maryland

New Jersey

New York

Living as a resident in these states means you are protected by state's rights and state government to continue or begin receiving trans healthcare. These laws have been codified in their states so everything has been a-ok'd by their state governments.

Stay alive. You got this. I love you.

[𝟒.𝟏𝟎]

today I: did laundry took out the trash discussion post drunk 2 bottles of water took Instagram pictures call grandpa and tell him happy birthday

my daily allotted complaining time:

I got a 75 on my exam, I expected a higher grade. I studied, but not nearly as much as I could have, and I am conflicted on my feelings about it. Last semester I failed the class, and this semester I was determined to do better, and I am, but I still struggle with taking test. I've never been good at taking test, in high school I could skate by with good grades because tests were never worth much and even if they were I could always do retakes, but I've been "learning" how to study, and even if I don't get a A in the class anything would be an improvement since last semester.

moral of the story:

today i wanted nothing more but to rot in bed, but I knew I shouldn't, its so easy to slip into a routine of doing only what is mandatory, but I made myself get up, and getting up was just the first stop. take the day one step/ task at a time, and it was relatively slow-moving to start, and I didn't accomplish nearly as much as I wanted to, but I did certainly more than I would have if I had left myself sit in bed all day and mindlessly scroll

I love that every time I find a marauders fic they'll mention not supporting jkr. Buddy you're writing about "what if sirius's dead brother was trans and wanted to bang harry's dead dad" we know you don't <3

if one more person comments on my "we need to keep payphones/public phones" post with "what we need are free phone charging stations and wifi hotspots, like in new york!" i am going to lose my mind. what do you people not understand about "not everyone has a smartphone" and "phones can break". how are these new concepts.

[05.14]

Its been a weird few days, I finished my first semester, with a bang, got myself off of academic probation and rose my gpa to a 2.55, i was initally proud of myself I kept thinking about how I could have done better. today i found out i have to reapply for my job because of my leave and I am suddenly overwhelmed with the sheer amount of clutter that lives in my life. I've been trying to live more intentionally, live with less, but I chronically horde out of fear that my things, my uniquely acquired and curated things will be taken away by my mother who seems to take a sick pride in making me sad.

I woke up at 7 and took a shower, and lied in my bed with just a towel because I had the house to myself. I didn't dry off completely and tuned the fan on to the highest setting because I wanted to feel cold.

I fear I have been making my to-do list too long and overwhelming, so tomorrow I have planned for less, making the list more smaller and manageable makes me more likely to try.

sorry for being weirdly introspective, it's been a confusing few days

what i did today: ate 2 meals wrote 600 words finished everything i never told (lmk if yall want opinions) started reading that was then, this was now wash dishes unpacked 5 boxes organized sewing area organize bookshelf made jello washed hair organized desk talked to a friend

please feel free to reach out, always looking for mutuals

One of life’s greatest pleasures is taking a shower and lying under a fan butt naked…

'Cause if I just vanished, do you think you'd manage? Or would you disappear right beside me? Do you think you're ready when I go unsteady? Lover, please prepare for my absence

“Though I remembered now. What was in them was promise. They dealt in transformations; they suggested an endless series of possibilities, extending like the reflections in two mirrors set facing one another"

"Sometimes the hardest part of leaving is not the journey ahead but the goodbye we leave behind."

Absence Song by Rio Romeo, Geto and Gojo from JJK, Margaret Atwood, The Handmaid's Tale, All the Young Dudes" by Mott the Hoople

𝐬𝐭𝐮𝐝𝐲𝐛𝐥𝐫. 𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐫𝐨

hi.... I don't know where to start here so I just thought I could give you a little information about me.

I started this blog because I find it hard to motivate myself to study. It's the end of my second semester in college, and it didn't go the way I planned. I read somewhere that romanticizing life doesn't mean push away the ugly parts, but find the beauty in the ugly parts.

I started this blog because I thought it would be a good way to develop aqantiences who are focused on education and hold myself accountable. Besides I thought it would be fun.

𝐚𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐦𝐞:

i have adhd

name: call me cowboy

pronouns: she/her (work in progress)

college: freshman studying animal science with a minor in equine science

sports; IHSA Equestrian

hobbies: reading, writing, horseback riding, art

fun facts

i have a dog named Roseter

i went to a fine arts school

i listened to 2000 minutes of Hoizer in the month of January

i am a certified cinephile ( Ik how obnixous that sounds)

𝐠𝐨𝐚𝐥𝐬

read more

go to the gym ( get physically stronger)

eat better & drink water

keep a journal

Latin

write daily

study daily

dress better

write personal essays

current events/projects

fall reading list 2024

summer reading list