Soooo these busy days I mentioned are over and I have in fact reached my lowest weight since summer! It's probably not that impressive but I am incredibly happy still. (And yes, I am in fact absolutely drained but I did have fun, I'm just so tired now 🥲)
Now I have this Sunday to get through, then a week of school when restricting will be easy of course, but then I'll have two weeks off due to Eastern....
I guess I'll really have to bury myself in work and exercise then and not give myself the chance to eat anything besides the meals I'll have to eat with my family.
Breakfast I should always be able to skip, dinner too I could say I take to my room to eat there because of school work or something, and then lunch I'll just have to always help preparing so I know exactly what we'll eat and so I can make at least my serving lower in calories.
Maybe I'll also have to resort to the sad Pinterest ana meals with half a cucumber and egg whites, because my parents don't seem to know an awful lot about nutrition, and as long as I eat anything they tend to not raise an eyebrow.
(No hate on these kind of meals, they're really a game changer, but since I tend to do OMAD and a small snack, I just really like to make my meals more colorful and more interesting)
I'll also have more time to exercise, then I know of two days on which I can fast, because we'll be travelling to my Grandma, and for a couple of days only my Dad and I will be home, and I have a feeling that will make not eating/eating low-cal meals even easier.
(Partly because the chance someone is going to be in the kitchen when I want to measure out my food will be lower lol)
It's a dangerous game always asking my parents to buy me protein bars and coke zero, but that way they'll pay for it, which is good because I really need to save atm
So the only safe food I'm buying for myself are energy drinks because my parents don't allow them
Please, I need to wooork, I'm just scrolling through my documents looking at what I already have and time is running from me I need to finish that paper shiiiiit
big plans this easter (getting drunk‼️)
It's ok to eat if:
You're feeling faint
You need to keep people from worrying
It's a birthday (yours or someone else's)
It's a holiday or tradition
You're feeling down and want to treat yourself
You're offered your favourite food
You're hanging out with friends
You're watching a movie
You're at a funeral or wake
You need the energy for school/work
You're just generally hungry
You won't be any less valid if you eat, and sometimes it's necessary. Don't beat yourself up, you'll be ok <3
I'm fat why am I still fat
Oh it's cuz I eat food like the fucking fat ass I am I fucking hate food and I need to be skinnyyyyyyyy
getting used to the hunger once again (it's literally the best feeling)
parents brought home huge apples today
And they're really fucking red and have I mentioned just how large they are?
Goodness