Diary Of 4th April 2022

— For the first time in my life, karuta was dear to me.

12/8

for breakfast i made pitas. baked them, cut tomatoes, shaved cucumbers and cut bananas (sprinkled with expired cinnamon!). after they were done i scrambled a plain egg with only ground cinnamon on it. it was tasty but i only ate half cuz my mom wanted to go dimsum shop. (tuition at 11am)

at 9 something we arrived at jiaxuan dimsum or something similar sounding. when waiting, went to 99 speedmart. loved scrutinising the processsed bread section. the mighty white bun variety is actually mesmerizing. the packaging is very attention grabbing. strawberry lychee, butter sugar, milo, chicken floss, black pepper chicken, blueberry flavours etc!!! like wtf so many flalvors!! some other brand was mas producing multiflavoured muffins. 8 for rm5.30 dude what a deal! except i guess eating it may cause serious cardiovascular diseases teehee.

ordered 2 salted egg yolk custard buns (SUPER GOOD DUDE), 2 char siew pau (EH OK BUT GOOD), 6 siew mai (TASTED LIKE MINCED MEAT), fried turnip cake (rlly GOOD!!), fried prawn, scallop and salted egg yolk beancurd thing (love the blandness of it FOR REAL!! cuz i only ate the egg yolk part. it wasnt distributed EVENLY LOL). siew mai fell into my warm water and drenched it in oil. cuz i was grabbing it with chopsticks then my dad asked where a siew mai go and i raised it to show him that i took one.. lol. total bill: RM78 ☠️. at least it was a pleasant experience.

went home and ate oreo cadbury chocolate bar and the other half of my breakfast pita. tuition. shower. went to tapao lunch. mayang oasis food court - malay mixed rice. omg!!! pickled veggies (carrot, cucumber, onion) SO TASTYYYYYY OMGGG IM GONNA CUM, steamed broccoli (SO TENDER!! LOVE LOVE LOVE) and rendang chicken drumstick (fragrANTTT!! not implying that there were many ants at that stall, just felt like making ANT capitalised). dad bought additionally 2 angku kuih and 2 fried glutinous sesame balls. delicious. for lunch also ate chili lala clams and orange. then snacked on angku kuih, pocky, cadbury chocolate and kuih bahulu. i need to control my eating habits!!!

wrote poems, drew posters, revamped dress rental poster, wrote a story…. good night. so full. ugh!

"i have never loved someone"

well you're going to after you see Yap Min Hong

Diary o' 18th April 2022

Chicken floss bread with choc milk for breakfast.

When I was walking along the school hallways, I saw a student getting lectured by our discipline teacher for wearing sport shoes and i probably looked terrified or soemthing because he averted his gaze to me and stared at my shoes, then called me there too...

"Cannot wear these type of shoe ah." "Ok." "Blah blah blah..." "Ok." "Ok u can go now."

MY SECRET TECHNIQUE 😈😈😈😈

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When walking to my class, I saw a morning session teacher probably. He was really fun to talk to.

"Heyy u know where is 2M class?" "Huh why is it your first day?" "No, just my class is currently being used by 4A." "Oh, then I don't know also." Then i see people on the fourth floor waving to who knows what and i point at them and say, "Oh, there?" because i thought it were my classmates lol... "Um no that's form 5 LOL." "Oh.." Then i see my responsible class monitor (U saved me!!) and i shouted her name and waved goodbye to the teacher.

we are using the science lab as a replacement for our class for the first period. i put my bags down and liting asks if i want to go buy the math workbook our teacher wanted us to purchase. while talking to her i looked in my (not so serious anymore) crush's direction and he was looking back at me. i looked away quickly and continued talking to my friend. when we were preparing to leave i looked again to confirm that he was staring and he was. hm. he always does that, looking at me for so long then doesn't look at me for the rest of the day like 🤬🤬🤬.

in recess liting asked me what i ate for breakfast and instead of chicken floss i said dog food... LIKE ON ACCIXENT 😨😨😨😨...

"你吃什么” “狗粮 面包”...

i like math class actually 😍😍💪💪

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in pjpk me and liting sneaked to the toilet when teacher wasn't looking. we took turns in the same stall because the other toilets weren't working. we talked to each other while pissing if that isn't friendship idk what is!

then we also snuck to the equipment room after we finished our business. THERE WAS SO MUCH STUFF IN IT ❤️❤️❤️❤️

There were rugby balls, bow (with no arrows for some reason), BASEBALL MITTS, CATCHER'S HELMET, BASEBALL BAT AND SOFTBALLS, HOCKEY STICKS AND MORE!!!!! I wore the baseball mitt with a softball in my hand for a while and liting was holding the bat until teacher found us out lololol.. she said in PE we could only play with the mainstream sports... 😒😒😒😒☺️

we mostly chilled in pe.

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- we first walked to the upper centre of the field and sat on the ground talking, then walked in a circle once and were motivated to longjump

- we ran and jumped, used a dry leaf as an indicator... she and i jump same length lolol

- then we ran 3 laps from the middle of the field to the slope...

- we are very exhausted, we take off our masks to breathe for a while.. it is certainly nicer without a mask! the breeze~~~

- we walked another lap around the big ass field, resting on a tree near the slope later

- it was time to go home, while walking back to take our bags i saw my (blah) crush mock kissing his best guy friend and i dont know if they really kissed or not they just snickered so loudly after.

DINNER

fried pork fatty sweet and sour flavour???, broccoli and cauliflower, fried chicken (i got the drumstick), po lei shang choi!!!

- i watched major again after dinner, it was so good!!! i like all the characters again!!

BATMAN MOVIE REVIEW

7/10 movie

this movie was great. i guess.

other reviews: https://kaidousecoli.tumblr.com/bookre

diary: https://kaidousecoli.tumblr.com/diary

it starts off extremely heavy. dark colours, red lights. rainy atmosphere, gothic aesthetic, loud OSTs, batman walking around with heavy footsteps hitting bad guys in his stiff armor. there was this feel. so... renaissance! i love it.

but i feel like after the 1.5 hour mark things get more.. normal? maybe i just got used to the spectacular directing, i don't know. i just got less overwhelmed and more like, i knew they would pull this off, not surprised. there were still times where they synced the sound effects of batman slamming this guy's head to a car with the beat of the OST which were really sneaky and cool.

i know it's a heroes movie and there is no good ending without a "lesson on morals" at the end with batman spitting a whole morals thesis but it was so.. hero-like. not my style!

OST - perfectly timed, catchy, mysterious.

STORY - interesting with the riddle thing but when bruce slowly progressed through the riddles it got boring. pattinson makes a good batman though! really love the threatening alpha thing he has going on. xoxo

SONGS - if my memory serves me right they only played one song in this movie. two times. and i liked it! so it's okay...!

AESTHETICS - OMG!!! 10/10.... !!!!! upbeat colours, beautiful settings, graphics.. visuals...

How Genshin Impact Characters Love (as told by tarot)

tags: headcanons, tarot

a/n: (smh i was supposed to do my tokyo revengers version of this today and i come here with genshin because i’m so excited about inazuma releasing lol) here we are with another ‘how genshin characters love’ post, but this time with a tarot-based twist! my tarot event was surprisingly popular, so i thought why not do this again with fandoms i really like and obviously i had to do some genshin characters. if people really like it, i think i’ll do more genshin characters if people have certain characters in mind! let me know what you guys think of the interpretations, i think they’re accurate to the characters!

deck: true black tarot

xiao

the emperor, the moon, page of wands, knight of cups

xiao’s love was a risk he decided to take, a dance of uncertainty he isn’t sure will lead him but he joins it anyway. xiao knows the pain that ultimately always follow when one of the adepti decides to love a human, it is something he was painfully aware of before pursuing a relationship with you and it is something that is always at the back of his mind throughout. but that fear and sorrow wasn’t enough to stop him in the end. xiao’s love is expressed through his actions and spending time with you. his love is sturdy and a love you can depend on because he presents himself as such. if there are only so many days, months, and years he can have with you, xiao doesn’t want you to feel unloved or neglected for even a minute of it. his love is protective, likening himself to your own personal knight like stories of old from nations like mondstadt and fontaine. he dreams of a day his karmic debt is something he no longer has to worry about and he is able to cast away his yaksha mask for the simple pleasures of being with you and experiencing life the way you have. maybe a day like that will come, maybe it won’t, either way xiao plans to be beside you

albedo

seven of wands, anant, five of swords, the sun

there’s a selfishness to albedo’s love that he isn’t able to figure out. he wants to devote all his time to alchemy, yet he also wants to spend the exact same amount of time with you. he wishes to discover the secrets of life that this universe holds, but he also finds himself wishing to discover things about you that you haven’t revealed or that even you yourself aren’t privy to (although there are times he does figure something out about you only for you to do something else completely contradictory, it’s an endless cycle that only goes to show how complicated human nature is). the selfish desires running rampant in him are all at conflict with each other and a practical solution for it all is hard even for the chief alchemist of mondstadt, and one of the brightest minds in mondstadt, to come up with. but despite his troubling, for lack of a better word, inner conflicts, albedo love is warm and joyous. he enjoys having you in his life and cares for you greatly. the sunflower is a symbol of longevity, adoration, and loyalty, all of which he feels towards you. he may not be one for dancing, but the way you make him feel is a feeling mighty close. perhaps he can recreate the imagery with alchemy, you certainly make his feelings feel like they are sprouting up like sunflowers

eula

the fool, eight of swords, strength, the emperor

for the spindrift knight, love would be a new, less traveled road she’s never embarked upon until you came into her life. love was something eula’s had yet to receive from even her own family, so romantic love was especially unfamiliar for her. those were feelings she’s never thought of having for anyone, definitely unplanned. but isn’t love generally that way to begin with? still, eula likely held herself from back from her feelings, though it shows on her face plenty despite trying to present herself as apathetic and uncaring. when she let’s go of those self imposed chains and learns what love is supposed to be like, eula’s love is secure and steady. she might not always express it the way she’d like, but her actions speak far louder than her words ever could through caring and compassionate actions. you don’t care about her status as the depraved descendant of mondstadt’s fallen clan. you only see her as eula, your eula, and that for her gives her the courage to walk with you on a path together and see where it leads you even if she feels as blind as a newborn with every step she takes

yanfei

page of swords, eight of swords, knight of cups, the hierophant

yanfei’s love is straightforward and clear. just as her contract to her parents dictated, yanfei lives freely and only makes choices that serve to make her happy. as such, when she comes to love someone, yanfei doesn’t hold back and she presents herself in earnest to be in a relationship with you. she assures you through her words that she loves you and loves being with you and whenever her busy work as a legal advisor gives her some free time, yanfei is more than happy to spend it with you (though she may chatter most of the day away). despite her cheery and lackadaisical disposition, however, it hasn’t slipped her mind that being half-adeptus your lifespans are severely different. she often worries about when the time will arise that this detrimental difference begins to show on your body that will age much faster than her own. but yanfei knows this is the price all of adeptus blood must pay if they wish to partake in relationships with the humans

childe

knight of pentacles, queen of pentacles, the tower, four of cups

childe’s love is as dedicated as love comes despite his playful and shrewd nature he shows to others who don’t have the luxury of knowing him the way you or his family does. but when childe loves, he is no longer childe the eleventh harbinger of the fatui or tartaglia the thrill-seeking warrior. no, when childe loves – truly comes to fall in love – he is ajax of snezhnaya who loves his family above all else. the people he becomes with his various aliases aren’t associated with the relationship he has with you, like a shield of love and luxury that exists only for the both of you. he can be himself and pretend his troubles and duties don’t burden him when he’s with you and relax solely on you. but ajax isn’t foolish, he knows there’s only so long he can keep you separated from the fatui and what carrying the titles childe and tartaglia brings. something has to give, either your relationship or his duties as a harbinger. it is something he thinks about constantly but perhaps there is a flower hidden in the branches of the weeping willow tree that alludes to a positive outcome after the end of his contemplative period

i want scaramouche to humiliate me at the top wangshu inn like pleasee dial my number 😍😍

This could’ve been better but I’m dep*essed 🤪✌🏼

pairing: ??? scara’s ur captain and ur a soldier

tw: language, he’s ovbs humiliating u

wc: 382 yikes

You could feel the burn in your thighs the higher the stairs went. Looking over to the side at your friend, you kind of grimace as he seemed as cool as ever. “I hate when we get stationed here!” You whisper. Your friend shrugs as everyone keeps on. “Lord Scaramouche never lets us take the elevator like he does! Why do we have to take the stairs?”

It seemed like the stairs would never end. Your legs grew heavier and heavier with each step, your thighs trembling underneath you. But finally the peak of the stairs came into view. As expected, your captain did not wait for all of you there. “Of course he isn’t here,” you continue to complain to your friend as you reach the top. “He’s just like Captain Tartaglia. I bet you he’s up there flirting with the staff—”

“Excuse me?”

Your squad halted. You look back up at the stairs where your captain stood with his arms crossed and a deathly glare in his eyes. “S-Sir, I—”

“You dare compare me to some half-wit, inexperienced twenty-something baby who couldn’t handle being swallowed up by the abyss, ass-chasing rookie?” Scaramouche took a step down and halved your squadron to meet you face to face. “Tartaglia would’ve killed you right on the spot, soldier. You’re lucky that I choose to punish you outside of the public eye.”

You swallow a lump in your throat. His eyes were sharp and menacing. You felt sweat rolling down your skin underneath your uniform every time his eyes twitched. “I-I’m sorry sir!!”

“You wanna take the elevator so fucking bad? Then take the fucking elevator!”

You chewed on the inside of your cheek as he yelled at you. But was he being serious? “I can…take the elevator?”

Your captain smiled, almost innocently. But you knew that there was nothing sweet about his grin. “Yes, private. You can take the elevator down and walk back up the stairs once more. We will be waiting.” Scaramouche turned then to walk back up the stairs.

“B-But—”

Your captain stopped where he was on the stairs and looked at you over his shoulder. “Shut the fuck up and do as I say, you incompetent piece of shit!”

You let out a heavy sigh and grimace. “Y-Yes sir…”

yeah nobody is..🤨🤨😣👍

Nobody is gonna talk about how Hazel had Leo and Frank fighting over her at age 13 🥲🥲

shopping for bikinis.

segsy prompt i found on google. it's the top result but i have never read a fanfic with this prompt so i'm going to use it. (bulleted point form)

includes: itto, albedo, diluc, ayaka

itto

takes pictures of every one he finds pretty and shows them to you later.

plays music when you're changing (and sings along...)

when he sees one he doesn't like his eyes will glow up, he'll do the shocked emoji and say "no." monotonously.

secretly wants to come in the fitting room with you.

will accidentally say what he actually thinks out loud.

hard to shop with him because he doesn't like anything

brings someone from his gang with better fashion sense to pick one when he's not sure

albedo

is respectful. very.

gentleman. compliments you a lot. when faced with clothing he doesn't really like, he tells you politely. if you really like it, he lets you buy it anyways. he's only giving you his opinion, not telling you what to do.

brings klee along so you have to change fast or else her impatient arse will be in another isle lawwlll

if you buy a plain white one he'll paint on it!! it's pretty so you won't mind

albedo bikini top.

diluc

"as long as you like it."

helps you carry the clothes you want to try out if there's not enough hangers.

is selfless, let's you test out the clothing for as long as you want. doesn't urge you to hurry up.

pays for it

idk i hate diluc

ayaka

gives you her honest opinion but sugarcoats it a bit

thats ugly. "it's plainly hideous, traveler! but do what you want i guess."

if she is also shopping for one she'll change with you

likes floral patterned ones

blushes and says "it uh.. makes your boobs look bigger.. if that's a good thing."

would rather wear shorts than a bikini bottom

DIARY:

14th of March 2022

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i woke up from a dream that i was in kinokuniya and checking out an official sketch of asuka from the animators of evangelion for rm169 after looking at a really thick art book. IT WAS HEAVEN!! i recall not wanting to wake up bc of how heavenly jt was and because i thought about waking up, i actually woke up. DANG!!"#!#!

i sat in the living room for so long and only went out to eat at 12. i got jean first thing in the morning (12am), on her birthday!!!! i "broke down" because i didn't know whether to eat at my favourite western restaurant or at mcdonalds. we were going to stop by my M grandmother's house for lunch again so i can't order anything too lavish but i also wanted to eat in the restaurant!!! i can't eat anything non luxurious in there... my parents made the decision for me.😇

set meal: garlic bread and mushroom soup, fillet o fish in sour oil (for me), two scoops of ice cream (vanilla n chocolate chip).

oh my dar. was my grandmother's dishes tasty! garlic prawn (it was so good the flesh tasted salty and springy even without its shell), yaumak, broccoli and carrots, fried chicken, sweet and sour chicken...

we sat in her house for so long because it was raining dog and cat😒😒😒. i wanted to go back so bad but i couldn't. i mostly read and surfed the internet there. (and watched two episodes of sasaki and miyano...)

when i came back to my P grandparents' house i immediately dashed toward my laptop bc i downloaded valorant this afternoon. i waited for my dad and mom to finish showering while playing a practice match. i suck at this game, never playing again.

dinner was ok i really liked the potatos and rice! while it was raining the mama cat was letting her kitten snug into her tummy for a few hours. its so darn cute!!

after dinner i spent all my time relentlessly scrolling through shopee in hopes of finding good sanrio gifts for my friend whose birthday passed two days ago. until now. its 23:04!!! and i think I've found it.