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BABE WAKE UP NEW IMAGES FROM THE KICKSTARTER DROPPED
GUYS IM GOING FERAL LOOK AT THEM
wdym by tha- OMFG IS THAT LESHY FROM CULT OF THE LAMB?!?! 1?! 1! 1! 1?! 1
morning
Narinder Bishop of Death
Alternative versions below the cut
Also, here is the background available in case anyone wants to use it.
(Info on the au I accidentally created in a future post)
I had seen official art of Leshy playing a flute, and thought to make this,
Milo is my yellow cats name :)
Narinder is helpful
Little idea, haunting my mind all day
Art Blast!! pt2
We continue
Long post notice
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@themilkiemooth I forgot to put a comment on this one! Just I wanted to say… FLUFFY!
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@xmajordumps Two versions because I didn't decide wich one i liked more
@the-one-who-lambs
Man… i can barely feel my hand now hehe
sinko de asada
(wich is like a very funny very haha way of asking for five grilled meat tacos i guess)
((why am i trying to explain the joke this is just spanish shitpost))
sliding scale of posts about Jesus being a carpenter who was nailed to a cross
#LOOK AT MY BOY GO HE'S JUST HAPPY TO BE OUT #LIKE HE DOESN'T NEED TO BE A SCARY GOD ANYMORE JUST SMOOCHES WITH THE LAMB AND SILLY RITUALS
i know the cotl official art is just silly for jokes but one of my favorite things about it is the implication that narinder chills the fuck out immediately after joining the cult. hes not even snarling or bleeding from the eyes or anything
dungeon meshi as my favorite new girl scenes (and i change drawing process halfway through sshhh dont be scared its normal i swear)
TFW ur a tallman or something idk.
The fight between Laios and Shuro ending with Shuro reminiscing/fantasizing about Falin really did a great job of mirroring what happens in the real world with Autistic Men vs Autistic Women. In my mind, both Laios and Falin are autism coded, and Shuro fights with Laios over how much he hates the autistic traits that Laios has and how annoying he finds them, then immediately goes on to explain he thinks Falin is the most unique woman he's ever met and loves how her mind works. Autistic men are so often thought/depicted of as annoying/cringy/etc while Autistic women are often thought of/depicted as the manic pixie dream girl or the 'not like other girls' girl. It was such an interesting thing to have back to back, cause it really went 'whoa society do think like that so often'.
If you didnt believe Laios was autistic before todays episode i hope it clears that up for you
we were first shown his special interest, a very autistic trait to have. We get to see him indulge in his interest, we get to see him happy.
but this episode contains the scene that makes it clear Laios cannot understand social cues, tone of voice, sarcasm, or subtlety. He actively suffers socially with other humans.
Shuro is pissed Laios didnt pick up on the fact that he hated Laios, because he was being passive aggressive (at best, Shuro bottled up a lot of feelings), and said verbally he was Laios' friend. Laios takes things at face value, if someone says "im your friend" that's what he believes is true.
He hates that Laios "gets to be genuine". I hate the way he says that "gets" as if its a privilege for Laios. It's a privilege for Shuro who is nobility and has his behavior and emotions stifled. Laios doesnt understand that others are NOT genuine. he's not from that world.
that's why Laios asks "why didnt you TELL me?" and Shuro says it should have been obvious.
it was NOT obvious to Laios, not at all.
And also, that was who Laios thought was his FIRST friend on the island. he thought he made a friend, something actively difficult for him to do.
it devastated him to learn that he was wrong the entire time.
#me identifique #me ataque #estoy en este post y no me gusta
Represention of Autistic Frustration in Laios Dungeon Meshi
Like many other autistic people, I related strongly to Laios Touden while reading Dungeon Meshi. This post isn't going to spend time disputing whether he displays autistic traits or not—while I could do that, I want to focus on why specifically his portrayal struck a chord with me in a way the writing of most other autistic-coded characters has not.
Disclaimer: as the above suggests, this post is strongly informed by my own experiences as an autistic person, as well as the experiences of my neurodivergent friends with whom I have spoken about this subject. I want to clarify that in no way am I asserting my personal experience to be some Universal Autistic Experience. This post is about why Laios' character feels distinct and significant to me in regard to autistic representation, and while I'm at it, I do feel that I have interesting things to say about autistic representation in media generally. This also got a bit long, so I'm sticking it under a read more. Spoilers for up to the end of chapter 88 below.
The thing that stands out most to me in regard to Laios' characterisation is the open anger he displays when someone points out his inability to read other people. This comes up prominently in his interactions with "Shuro" (Toshiro Nakamoto):
The frustration pictured above (Laios continuing to physically tussle with Toshiro, using crude language toward him) becomes even more notable when you remember that this is Laios, who, outside of these interactions, is not easily fazed and often exists as a lighthearted contrast to the rest of the cast. Then we get to Laios' nightmare.
In Falin's words: "Nightmares love emotional wounds. Wounds you hold in your heart. Things that give you stress, or things that were traumatic for you. They aggravate memories like that and cause the dreamer to have terrible dreams." (chapter 42, page 10.) (damn. i'm properly citing for this post and everything.)
Thus, Laios' nightmare establishes an important fact: even if he is unable to recognise social blunders while he's making them, he's at least subconsciously aware that other people operate on a different wavelength to him, and that he's an outsider in many of his social circles (both past and present). His dream-father's disparaging words stress the impact this has had upon his ability to live up to the expectations set out for him, and we also get a panel of kids who smirk at him (presumably former bullies to some degree). Toshiro's appearance only hammers home how much Laios is still both humiliated and angered by his misunderstanding of their relationship.
I've thought a lot about anger as concomitant to the autistic experience. When autistic representation portrays ostracization, it's generally from an angle of the autistic character being upset at how conforming to neurotypical norms doesn't come easily to them; as a result, they express a desire to 'get better' at meeting neurotypical standards, a desire to become more 'normal' (whether the writing implies this is a good thing or not). In contrast, not once does Laios go, "I need to perform better in my social interactions, and try to care less about monsters, because that's what other people find weird." His frustration is directed outward rather than inward, and as a result, it's the people around him who are framed as nonsensical.
The Winged Lion starts delineating Laios' anger, and Laios' reaction is to think to himself, "It can sense all my thoughts, huh?" (chapter 88, page 16.) This is the scene that really resonated with me. I'm not saying I have never felt the desire to conform to neurotypical norms that is borne from insecurity, but primarily, I know that I don't want to work toward becoming 'normal'—I don't want to change myself for people who follow rules I find nonsensical. It's the difference between, "Oh god, why can't I get it," and, "WHY CAN'T YOU GET IT?" (phrasing here courtesy of my friend Miles @dogwoodbite). And for me personally, Dungeon Meshi is the first time I've seen this frustration and the resultant voluntary isolation from other people portrayed in media so candidly. Laios' anger is not downplayed or written to be easily palatable, either.
The culmination of Laios' frustrations in this scene wherein we learn that Laios has fantasised about "a pack of monsters attacking a village" drives home just how alienated he really feels. I need not go into his wish to become a monster himself, redolent of how many autistic people identify/have identified with non-humans to some degree as a result of a percieved disconnect from society (when I was younger, I wanted to be a robot. I still kind of do.)
Obviously, wishing death upon other people is a weighty thing, but the unfiltered nature of this page is what deeply resonated with me. The Winged Lion is laying Laios' deepest and most transgressive desires bare, and they are desires that are a product of lifelong ostracization by others (whether intentional or unintentional). This is the brand of anger I'm familiar with, and that my neurodivergent friends express being familiar with, but that I haven't seen portrayed in writing so explicitly before—in fact, it surprised me because most well-meaning autistic representation I've experienced veers toward infantilisation in trying make the autistic character's struggles easy for neurotypicals to sympathise with.
Let's also not neglect the symbolism inherent to Laios' daydream. "A pack of monsters attacking a village". Functionally, monsters are Laios' special interest—he percieves everything first and foremost through his passion for monsters. His daydream of monsters attacking—killing—humans, is fundamentally a daydream of the world he understands (monsters) overthrowing the world that is so illogical to him, that has repeatedly shunned him (other people). I joked to my friends that it's an autistic power fantasy, and it actually sort of is. And in it, his identity is aligned with that of the monsters, while his anger manifests in a palpable dissociation from the rest of humanity. This is one manga page. It's brief. It's also very, very raw to me. I think about it often.
To conclude, I love Laios Dungeon Meshi. This portrayal of open frustration in an autistic character meant a lot to me, and I hope I've sufficiently outlined why. Also, feel free to recommend media with autistic representation in the notes if you've read this far—I would really like to see if there is more of this nature. Thank you for reading. I'm very tired and should probably sleep now.
El Bentley es la original hija de un matrimonio divorciado
The best little fanon thing they confirmed for me was making the Bentley a little pet. Cause in the book it’s just a one off joke about how the CDs turn into queen if you leave them in A car long enough but it’s like no…the Bentley loves aziraphale and gives him sweets and plays whatever he wants and turns yellow for him and parks where he tell it to and plays “a nightingale sang in Berkeley square” when crowley is heartbroken and plays “good old fashioned lover boy” when crowley is racing back to help aziraphale. And crowley coos to it like it’s a puppy. Love that car
The Nimona movie does what like a hundred movies and shows have done before, including Paranorman, Turning Red, ATLA, Buffy, Tekkon Kinkreet and genuinely like almost every story where there’s a form of supernatural or supernatural-ish power. A character loses control of their emotions and therefore loses control of their power and goes on a monstrous rampage, but then someone reaches out a hand, or hugs them, or stands unarmed and vulnerable in front of them, shows them the power of love and understanding and acceptance, diffusing the emotional crisis and turning the monster back into a nice normal person. And that’s a good story, there’s a good reason why people keep telling it and telling it.
But the Nimona comic did something rarer, something I liked much better. Nimona is an overall quite optimistic and lighthearted story that still managed to say - fuck you, your love can’t fix me, my anger is real, my fear is real, the monster is real, who the fuck are you to say it isn’t. The parts of me that are dangerous and scary as shit are just as real as the parts you love.
OH DIOS MÍO TODO MI TUMBLR ES CAMP CAMP DE NUEVO, COMO EN 2019
Harrison eres una joya incomprendida y odio que solo tengas un episodio centrado enteramente en ti, te amo chiquito
A week later and I am still very normal about this
Everyone is getting Camp Camp Season 2 finale wrong
It seems that everyone has agreed that the season 2 finale is of David choosing Max over Camp Cambell.
But everyone forgets what happened just before the gif.
David Isn’t looking at the camp and all his other happy campers.
He is looking at Cameron Cambell.
He chose the camp over Cameron.
Let me explain further.
In the first season we see that David absolutely adores Cameron. He loves him like a father. He worships Cameron. He used a child as a human shield against the FBI and David didn’t hate him on the spot.
But as Max gets to him, shows him things aren’t always happy and good, David starts to admit some truths to himself.
What he loves so much isn’t as important to Cameron.
In season two, David is forced to confront how Cameron uses both him and the campers for his own personal gains as you see in the egg episode and how he is using the camp as a cover that he wasn’t in Russia.
But parents day changed that.
David watched as Cameron lied and tried to pretend he cared and knew what he was doing.
“Wether it’s nerd camp for… Neeeil?”
“Or Adventure camp for… Girl Neil!”
Everything was about not going to jail, not making sure the campers were actually happy and having fun.
And look at how David was treated behind the stage.
David looks surprised that Cameron is talking so seriously to him. It starts off gentle. “David I know you never let me down before,”
“And I know you never will.”
Cameron aims his anger about what is happening on David because he knows time and again that David would just take it. He won’t fight for himself.
Cameron doesn’t care about anything David does. When the whole camp is in jeopardy, what does Cameron focus on?
“Or I’m going to super Guantanamo.”
He doesn’t want to face the consequences of his lies, crime and scams. And David finally saw that. It wasn’t until he sees the activity form that he realizes parents, birth or parental figures, can fail you.
David finally understands where Max is coming from, and in that light sees that he has two choices to chose from.
1) Keep following Cameron and ignore the needs of his beloved campers
Or
2) Turn his back on Cameron Cambell and focus on the needs of Camp Cambell.
David had a choice in this scene. And he chose Camp Cambell, he chose his campers over the man he saw as a father.
David would never chose something other than Camp Cambell. That is his whole life. But he would chose the campers, and focus on the one camper who isn’t having fun, and give him the individual attention he deserves.
:3
