Tiktok ALL Readers When The Main Character With Deeply Complex Trauma Gets Triggered By Things 😮😮😮

summer

moments from a little life

your card declines at therapy and they bring jude and willem during the happy years in (you can’t save them)

Your card declines at therapy and they bring out Harold’s “in everything I see, I see him” monologue from Lispenard Street II

Hanya saying that sometimes people endure things from which they cannot recover continues to offend a lot of takes-posting individuals online who are committed to a bad faith analysis of anything they do not personally enjoy.

Her statement is descriptive, rather than prescriptive. It is not an assertion that at X point, it's no longer possible to recover from traumatic experiences. It describes the fact that some people, for whatever reason(s), cannot or do not "get over" traumatic experiences and are affected by them for their whole lives. She didn't make that up. It's not a pleasant reality, but it is true!

And the intensity of people's reactions to A Little Life leads me to wonder: would any depiction of that reality in fiction would be palatable to those readers?

imagine being harold and losing your son in law and knowing EXACTLY like EXACTLY what’s going to happen to your actual son and doing everything you can to keep him alive but just KNOWING that it’s all futile.

october 22, 2023

I just read the first chapter of the “axiom of equality” part of a little life and dude I’m really reconsidering the way I view life as a whole.

x=x, yes Jude, I feel you so fucking much, all my life I felt like I wouldn’t surpass this feeling of being wrong, the wrongdoings of my childhood, my mistakes and mistakes of others done to me haunt me every single moment of my days, maybe If I were funnier, maybe I if worked on my weight a little harder it would disappear, what did I do to deserve so much hate from others as a kid? to experience the heavy bullying? why should it stain my memory like a wine stained carpet? (you get used to it but it’s never really clean, this metaphor worked in my head so please bear with it). and Caleb, man I’ve met so many fucking Calebs in my life, people i trusted at first sight, thought it could work just to be utterly disappointed at the outcome.

“you’re not your past”, easier said than done.

it’s 3:15 a.m where I live as i’m writing this and I doubt i’ll be able to afford a good night of sleep due the mental state i find myself in. I haven’t cried once while reading this book, maybe it’s because I see so much of myself in these characters that I’m just perplexed and angry, at myself, at others who made me feel like a complete piece of shit my whole life, at the JB’s, cause we all have that one friend that, at some point, made fun of our insecurities and left us feeling like garbage.

read “a little life” by Hanya Yanagihara, i promise it’ll change you and the way you interpret life and others (and i haven’t even finished it yet)

thought about jude today, thought about jude yesterday and i will absolutely be thinking about jude tomorrow

my new advanced higher english teachers fav book is a little life. it’s going to be a good year i fear

everything reminds me of him (jude st francis)

jude following brother luke into the greenhouse (and into the truck, and into motel after motel)

“Or he would sleep in the bathtub or in the closet, beetled up as tight as he was able.”

“My poor potato bug.”

Stills from my previous post

bonus per my dear friends request: Jude w/out that fucker behind him