So I'm on a train rn and I'm really close to crying.
I've started having suicidal thoughts almost ten years ago. Even though I'm doing way better now, sometimes they're still there. One a few years ago I started thinking about the future. But never further than a couple of years?
The past few weeks I've been struggling again and maybe that's the reason why I'm so overwhelmed. I don't know where that thought came from but some part of me decided that I want to go on a end of September trip, in 2040.
Look, there are some people youβre just always going to be a little bit in love with. Your high school sweet heart, your college sweet heart, albert camus, the first significant other you live with. Just accept that itβs normal and move on.
wanna bury my face in a manβs neck and smell his hair and skin while we cuddle up under the covers while it rains outside. basically, iβm gay
mlm & nblm
My name is Mohammed, and I am a husband and father of three amazing children. We live in Gaza, a place that was once filled with the vibrant energy of bustling markets, children playing in the streets, and the comforting presence of family and friends. Our city, with its beautiful coastline and historic charm, was a place where we could dream of a better future. π₯Ί
But today, that Gaza feels like a distant memory. The ongoing war has ravaged our home, leaving it severely damaged and our means of livelihood shattered. What was once a place of joy and community has turned into a zone of fear, with bombings that never cease and the constant struggle to secure basic necessities like food and clean water.
We are weary, and the daily struggle to survive in this war-torn reality has taken a heavy toll on us. The place that once gave us comfort and hope now feels dangerous and uncertain, and I worry about what the future holds for my children.
After much painful reflection, my family and I have made the heart-wrenching decision to leave Gaza in search of safety and a chance to rebuild our lives. We are trying to raise $40,000 to escape the war and cover our living expenses abroad for one year, giving us the time we need to find stability and start anew. ποΈ
Leaving our beloved home, the place where we were born and raised, is not a decision we take lightly. But for the sake of our children and the hope of a safer, brighter future, we must take this step. π
We humbly ask for your support. Any contribution, no matter how small, will bring us closer to our goal and help us begin the journey toward safety and a new life. π
Thank you for your kindness, understanding, and generosity. πΉ
βIβve been too busy missing you to be angry.β
β Karen Tei Yamashita
i wanna make out with him while we watch shitty horror movies π₯Ί
mlm/nblm only post!
"Are you ok?"
This entire fucking planet is run by
It's a hard thing to describe. You can't really explain it to people who don't experience gender dysphoria. And everyone is experiencing dysphoria in a different way. Some people can put in words how they feel, but I'm not sure if I can. Dysphoria is the worst kind of pain I've known. There are some days I don't feel so dysphoric about myself but the most time my dysphoria is really bad. Sometimes I break down because I can't handle the dysphoria attacks. It makes me want to rip my skin off. It makes me stay in bed all day because I just don't have enough energy to get up. It makes me feel like shit and that I never want to talk again because I can't handle my voice. It's the reason why I sometimes can't talk in class because I feel too dysphoric about my voice. It's the reason I sometimes can't wear what I want because I'm scared not to pass so I rather wear a baggy hoodie. On some days it makes me want to kill myself because it doesn't seem worth it. And there are people out there who think it's fun to be Transgender. They think it's all pride parades and adorable. But it's not. Being Trans is the reason why I can't do the things I wanted to do in the future. Being Trans is a pain in the ass and I have to struggle every day. Every day is a fight. And I don't need people to understand how I feel. I just need them to stop making fun of Trans people. Because it's already hard enough to be Trans. And I know I'm not the only one who has to struggle with all of this but sometimes I feel like I'm alone.
Sometimes I have the feeling that no one could ever understand me. I don't even understand myself sometimes.
My head is filled with stuff but at the same time it's empty. I can't focus. Every time I try to write it down I get lost inside my mind. It's like a jungle. I can't really talk about my thoughts, my worries. Sometimes I don't feel like I could truly trust anyone.
As soon as I'm alone it feels like the darkness is eating me. I feel so lost. Sometimes I wish I could stop thinking, just for once
Not sure what I'm actually doing here⦠Queer as hell & Probably ranting about philosophers (please talk to me about Walter Benjamin)
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