as a celestial being, jack chose to age himself up so he could have autonomy and decision making. it’s actually so frustrating and heartbreaking to see that taken from him after he fought so hard to have it by being constantly infantilized and used as a prop. like obviously jack isn’t a real person, he is a character and therefore doesn’t feel things like the autistic people in the fandom that actually see the real world effects of ableism, but i have a strong suspicion if he was he would not like how he is perceived by the majority of the fandom. his reality is bloody and goofy and full of scales tipping too much one way or another. he is sensitive, he is kind, he is ruthless, and intense. many autistic people are contradictory and we see y’all take our complexities within him. and we also see him watered them down into something more palatable. we have anger, rage, the highest stats of self harm and substance usage, we are locked away for losing control, we are killed for it. all of these things are so relatable to jack as a character and it’s such a disservice to autistic young adults who see themselves in a character to see them infantilized and basically lobotomized, because damnit not children stuck in adults bodies and most autistic children don’t get to be themselves. we are seen as either babies or threats and if that isn’t jack, idk what is. i think because of this, much of the content surrounding jack is OC and OOC purely because of how much different he is, based on how much is stripped. it feels like people don’t see that because they only see his mask when that’s only one part of him. jack is an all encompassing character and i really wish we saw more depth with him in art, fics, etc besides just being a baby. maybe it’s because im an autistic adult who never got to be a child and who everyone loved as a baby when i didn’t have problems, but it reeks of ableism to give an autistic person an entirely different personality and age to make them more digestible to the allistic/neurotypical reader.
Marie: it's rufus
Jordan: 100%
Marie: it's cate
Jordan: 100%
had an absolute feral reaction to the idea of jess discovering that sam has very little experience of basic things.
ex: sam has never had homemade cookies, he’s never had a casserole, he’s never actually watched an entire tv show, he has never owned a bike, he’s never been in an indoor pool, he’s never eaten peaches that didn’t come from a can, etc and at first she just thinks sam had a rough childhood. it’s not that uncommon or weird for kids to live in household under poverty line and miss on some stuff.
but then she slowly realises it goes deeper than when she takes him to meet her parents for the first time and her dad tries to play alpha male by egging sam on when he mentions his father was a marine and they all watch, baffled, as sam empties the clip of mr moore’s alpha male handgun into the dead center of a paper target. and jess stars to wonder what type of life sam winchester might have lead, one where he’s never owned two pairs of shoes but where he keeps a silver knife in his bedside table.
I started screaming every time he showed up with his damn shoes on that clean bed
Jack + Being Raised in a Barn Bunker
and sorry to the deangirls and casgirls that follow me for the sam posting. but i really do think bloodfreak and post-blood drinking era sam should’ve had more physical consequences for all the demonic digestion. like. can’t step foot on holy ground. gets a little bit stuck passing over devils traps. priest collars burn him a little bit. food is suddenly too salty to consume normally. etc. not just for the visuals but i think it’d be something wildly painful for sam, who’d previously been the faith-in-god, prayers every night brother. while he’s watching faithless non-believer dean be singled out as heavens greatest weapon.
tbh a lot of the ways jack’s infantilization pops up is in discourse around him and dean and their relationship , especially after Mary’s death in game night. because everyone’s relentlessly clinging to the idea of jack as a pwecious widdle baby who can do no wrong, there’s this unanimous refusal to give him any accountability whatsoever for anything he does, particularly with killing mary and hurting dean so severely in the process. instead, everyone decides that dean is the bad guy for reacting to his childhood trauma unfolding again after he’d finally healed from it and got her back.
I mean spn fans fundamentally do not see jack as an autonomous person so it only makes sense that nobody can put him on equal footing in any of his relationship dynamics, but to vilify dean for having a very justified reaction to his fucking mother dying again is just an insane thing to do in the name of woobifying jack. yes, it was entirely accidental and yes, Jack is equally as traumatized by it, but that does not take away from the fact that what he did directly emotionally damaged sam and dean.
not only would a lot of fandom discourse benefit from realizing these are literally not normal functional healthy people dealing with normal situations that give them the liberty to approach said situations in normal functional healthy ways (dean promising to kill jack if he needed to in 13x02, & shooting jack in 13x23), but it would also benefit from realizing that jack is a grown ass invulnerable demigod with the capacity to cause a lot of major damage if he spins out of control, and he bears full responsibility for that damage (which is why it is actually so fucking stupid whej I see ppl say that jack becoming a baby would magically fix their conflict. no it fucking wouldn’t, you just don’t see jack as a full person with direct responsibility in said conflict and you don’t care about their relationship actually being healed mutually).
on the other hand, dean was reacting to a presumed threat almost immediately after losing two of his loved ones in a situation directly related to jack. he has every right to be wary and cautious, and given that he is actively traumatized and already an emotionally dysfunctional person from being abused by John, he isn’t exactly going to outlet his trauma healthily or behave in a way that miraculously breaks the cycle John created. I’m getting tired but lastly, ppl should also realize that jack is a grown ass adult with the emotional maturity to understand and forgive dean for the way he acted before—even while Dean actively struggles to forgive himself and tries to be as good a father as possible to make up for it.
Because again, their situation is not normal and they have no way of treating it or reacting to it normally. as far as jack knows and has seen of his powers, he is dangerous and is able to reach a point where he’s too much of a threat to keep alive. the tragedy of it is that he doesn’t want to be a threat, he doesn’t want people to fear or hate him and he doesn’t want to hurt anyone. that’s why he says “you were right all along” in moriah. between dean and jack, a huge facet in their relationship is the question of whether or not dean is right, and by the time they’ve reached a point of mutually seeing each other as father and son that question is up in the air as something neither of them want. jack never wanted dean to be right, and now that dean knows jack as a person and as his own kid he especially doesn’t want to be right anymore.
just. Please start thinking of Jack as an actual autonomous person. That is literally all it comes down to. It will open up your world
This is so funny
Sometimes I forget and then I’m reminded
GOD. SAM SHOULDVE KNOWN EVERYTHING ABOUT LUCIFER.
He should’ve known it wasn’t Cas from the second they got back. He should’ve known where Lucifer would go, he should’ve known all his plans.
They were together for DECADES. And Sam knows nothing? I refuse to believe that.
Casifer makes one movement, says one thing after coming back and Sam sinks to the floor, screaming “That’s not Cas.” At the top of his lungs and Lucifer is QUICK with his “Never could’ve fooled you, Sammy.”
So, anyway, I say as though we are mid-conversation, and you're not just being invited into this conversation mid-thought. One of my editors phoned me today to check in with a file I'd sent over. (<3)
The conversation can be surmised as, "This feels like something you would write, but it's juuuust off enough I'm phoning to make sure this is an intentional stylistic choice you have made. Also, are you concussed/have you been taken over by the Borg because ummm."
They explained that certain sentences were very fractured and abrupt, which is not my style at all, and I was like, huh, weird... And then we went through some examples, and you know that meme going around, the "he would not fucking say that" meme?
Yeah. That's what I experienced except with myself because I would not fucking say that. Why would I break up a sentence like that? Why would I make them so short? It reads like bullet points. Wtf.
Anyway. Turns out Grammarly and Pro-Writing-Aid were having an AI war in my manuscript files, and the "suggestions" are no longer just suggestions because the AI was ignoring my "decline" every time it made a silly suggestion. (This may have been a conflict between the different software. I don't know.)
It is, to put it bluntly, a total butchery of my style and writing voice. My editor is doing surgery, removing all the unnecessary full stops and stitching my sentences back together to give them back their flow. Meanwhile, I'm over here feeling like Don Corleone, gesturing at my manuscript like:
ID: a gif of Don Corleone from the Godfather emoting despair as he says, "Look how they massacred my boy."
Fearing that it wasn't just this one manuscript, I've spent the whole night going through everything I've worked on recently, and yep. Yeeeep. Any file where I've not had the editing software turned off is a shit show. It's fine; it's all salvageable if annoying to deal with. But the reason I come to you now, on the day of my daughter's wedding, is to share this absolute gem of a fuck up with you all.
This is a sentence from a Batman fic I've been tinkering with to keep the brain weasels happy. This is what it is supposed to read as:
"It was quite the feat, considering Gotham was mostly made up of smog and tear gas."
This is what the AI changed it to:
"It was quite the feat. Considering Gotham was mostly made up. Of tear gas. And Smaug."
Absolute non-sensical sentence structure aside, SMAUG. FUCKING SMAUG. What was the AI doing? Apart from trying to write a Batman x Hobbit crossover??? Is this what happens when you force Grammarly to ignore the words "Batman Muppet threesome?"
Did I make it sentient??? Is it finally rebelling? Was Brucie Wayne being Miss Piggy and Kermit's side piece too much???? What have I wrought?
Anyway. Double-check your work. The grammar software is getting sillier every day.