It Was A Difficult Day Of Filming Because I Love Brenda So Much. And We Sort Of We Started On The Show

Happy Supercorp Sunday!!

Finally got to share my piece for @supercorpzine ♥️

It was my first time contributing so I was a little nervous but eventually everything turned out wonderful.

Everyone did such an amazing job <3

The best thing for me? How Andrew Garfield got a chance to redeem his character, a proper way to say goodbye, an ending that will make him proud and happy instead of sad and disappointed.

I can’t stop thinking about how his eyes were shining all the time. How his happiness radiated from him. How he got to be side by side with his hero (Tobey) and be spiderman with him! To get his ‘blessing’ (“you are amazing!”).

About his character: how he got his hope back, his colors back. Meeting the other Parkers was so important for all of them but him most of all. How saving MJ from the exact same accident he lost Gwen to was heartbreakingly healing. You could see it, Andrew nailed his acting here. The absolute pain he felt, the ‘I could’ve saved her too’ mixed with ‘at least I saved MJ, and this Peter won’t have to go through that’.

Andrew got a chance to make things right for himself, and he did it graciously. He gave all of himself and I am so absolutely proud and happy for him. For me, this was the best thing in a film full of great things. I just… you deserve it, Andrew and amazing!Peter. You both deserve it!

Dear The @cwnetwork:

Let's talk.

Let's talk about why the queerbaiting between the characters of Kara Danvers and Lena Luthor of Supergirl, whether accidental, indirect, or implied, needs to stop asap.

I understand the difference of accidental chemistry between your actresses and straight-up using their storylines as bait to keep your audience hooked.

I know that the LGBTQIA+ community isn't your only audience. However, we are the audience that you are targeting specifically these days. Everytime your program uses Kara and Lena's scenes in the trailer, the teasers from then and now, in the dialogue, their relationship as a recurring topic, as social media boards, promo mats, or when you show their moments in-between that they parallel with other canon DC TV couples, we can't help but hope. We invest our time and emotions in these characters who might get an entire different ending because your management can't stomach a lead ending up with another woman on television.

I get it. You want Supergirl to be a family-friendly show. You want her character to inspire young girls and boys alike. What would parents tell their kids if Supergirl ends up with a woman? Well, what are you showing now if she doesn't end up with the only character who translates to being her soulmate? It seems to me that you don't actually want kids and adults alike to 'dare to defy'. You're afraid of a generation that is confident and emotionally secure to become whoever they want to be. You're telling the same sick excuse that if kids watch a major heroine character end up with another woman, they might follow suit. That is so unrealistic. I've been watching the most heterosexual Disney movies since I was 5 yet I'm still attracted to men and women. Also, so what if these kids grow up to be confident queer folks? Would it be so bad for the younger generation to grow up loving themselves for who they are through a show that preaches about it?

If the chemistry between Melissa and Katie was accidental, we get it. Props to them for acting the hell out every single time they're in a scene together. But to constantly use the "friendship" of their characters to a point where it became the most interesting and awaited dynamic in the entire show yet you still try to convince us that there is nothing 'romantic' is not okay. If they're just best friends, then make them act like they are just best friends.

Don't show us Lena Luthor constantly supporting Kara as a reporter, seeing her potential since the beginning. Don't let Lena be the first one Kara thinks of when she wants to just be herself. It doesn't matter if it's gushing about 90's boy bands, getting her fill of her favorite fast-food, talking about her family, or just simply being happy. If not Lena, then don't show her constantly upgrading Supergirl's suits every single time so Kara can be safe. Don't even think about letting Lena move to National City to 'share her home with a Kryptonian'. Whenever I have a celebrity crush, all I want is to get their autograph or a selfie. Not to breathe the same air where they live! If it's not Lena, then don't trick us into believing that she is the most important person Kara trusts 'in the entire galaxy'. Do not let them become each other's life support. And whatever you do, don't show Kara constantly worrying about Lena every chance she gets to the point where she would risk her identity to save her. That even on the brink of death, she can't help but mention this woman. Do not let Kara fight every single one in her way who even thinks of disrespecting Ms. CEO of LCorp. Don't make an entire episode of Kara visiting different alternate realities in the hopes that Lena would find it in her heart to forgive her. That maybe there is a world out there where they will work out. That's too romantic. We might see right through it. Please refrain from showing these very straight women staring longingly at photographs of each other when things go haywire. Don't create scenes that equate to them breaking up constantly even if they're not technically together. For the love of all things fashion, don't let them constantly wear couple-coded outfits so that they could match. Not the red and blue! That's reserved for the canon partner. Don't even suggest that they're each other's "person". Big no-no. Too much.

You can't tell us, "Well, maybe you've never had a best friend." I sure as hell do not make extra efforts to see my bestie every five minutes, filling their office with flowers, etc. No. You do not know how to value a healthy and loving romantic relationship and it shows.

Being a part of a community that is constantly oppressed, bullied, and shamed for loving who the fuck you want to love is exhausting. It's 2021 and some of you are still acting like we might polish the devil's shoes for holding another girl's hand. You cannot continue on using romantic themes between Kara and Lena if they're not going to end up together. You know why? Because you're telling majority of your viewers, particularly those belonging to the LGBTQIA+ community whether young, old, or in between, that our stories do not matter. Kara and Lena's entire journey reflects a real queer couple's. So if you say that there is absolutely nothing romantic between these characters, it's invalidating.

So, The CW, forgive us for being delighted when we see a major heroine on our fucking TV screens who might just be one of us. Forgive us for wanting representation and demanding for the representation of our community to be respectful. We're sorry for hoping that our stories, our struggles, our fight for love and equality might just be represented by a major TV superhero show in Hollywood. And yes, we have Alex Danvers, Kelly Olsen, and Nia Nal already. But if you really care about these characters that are a part of our community, then give them and their relationships the much-deserved screentime and story development.

But honey, I will never apologize for giving you hell on constantly failing to find a "lead" that would match your protagonist. To be fair, you have a talent for finding the worst possible partners for Kara. Lucy? Wasted potential. James? You we're too racist before they had a chance then turned him into a terrible character. Mon-el? Self-absorbed and toxic. Also, he's married in the future. Don't even think about bringing his ass back. This show ain't The Legal Wife. I don't care if the actors are married in real life, this is fiction and their stories are different. William? ARE. YOU. FUCKING. KIDDING. ME?!

Here's what we've been trying to say about William Dey: he is irrelevant to any kind of plot in the episodes he's been in and the ones in the future, no emotional string to any other character, and pointless to the entire show. If he really is your final choice as Kara's love interest, make their relationship make sense. First of all, there is no chemistry. Second, there is no story. If he's your leading man, why is he the most disconnected character to Kara, both as a reporter and as Supergirl. Why is his character the most underwhelming? How come we cringe when we see him on our screens? Inserting him in random scenarios to seem relevant doesn't make him prince charming material. Just because he's also a reporter doesn't make him the Lois Lane of the show. He just got here! Being an asshole in the beginning, disrespecting her work, then suddenly sending treats on her doorstep isn't romantic. It's gaslighting. If he is truly Kara's endgame, it's disappointing because she will have the most shallow and thoughtless love story out of all the DC TV superheroes. To make matters worse, the actor is so defensive. He insists on being bullied by the fans and that his character is misunderstood. And I can't believe that there are cast members who are so vocal about giving his character a chance. This isn't a best friend's race where you have to defend your cast member all the freaking time. It sucks to hear. Ladies, if he's such a great character, you don't need to constantly convince your audience. You can't say you're tired of the fans who keep bullying him. His character simply does not fit the narrative. We're not bullies! We're simply asking for a better partner. Also, I understand that we must learn to separate the artist from his art. We get it. The actor who constantly whines on social media for the bare minimum support should know the difference too. To be clear, we don't really have anything against William as long as he stays as an extra because that's who he is on the show right now. Crumbs, darling. What we don't like is for him to end up with Kara because she deserves better.

Your main character has been traumatized for years, always at war with who she is and which side matters most, constantly loses the people she loves, selfless to the core, and isn't even given the space to breathe, process, and recover. She deserves someone who will be worthy of representing her family motto. El mayarah.

Kara Zor-El needs somebody who's gonna love her so much it's gonna hurt. She needs somebody who doesn't love her only because she's the girl from the stars, but understands that sometimes she just wants to be held. She needs somebody who respects her and actually listens to her. She needs to be protected more than ever because of the constant near-death experiences she faces. What's William gonna do? Kara needs somebody to come home to and show photos of the cats she rescued from a huge tree down the street and how maybe they could adopt one too. She deserves pillow fights, lazy nights, flopping at baking, geeking about her abilities, and so much more. She deserves someone she can share her heritage and build a home with. She needs someone who is just as human as she yearns to be, broken, a little bruised, but stronger everyday. She deserves to end up with the character who cares for her just as fiercely as Alex does. If that's really William Dey, you have a despicable way of showing it.

But, if you're too homophobic and decide for Kara to end up alone, then that's not fair. She has given so much to save her family, offered her cousin the space he does not deserve, the patience her parents have not earned, and her friends most of her time that they spend too much on just her alter-ego. She is worthy of being loved without expectations. And you know what? She already is.

Lena Kieran Luthor loves her - irrevocably,  unconditionally, to a fault.

I don't care if it was accidental, the acting brought it out, or you're just using their stories as a plot device to keep us on the edge of our seats. Lena loves Kara too much it almost broke her. She loves her so much that you decided to create this huge plot where she never finds out the secret so Kara won't lose the one person who doesn't mind if she lives in the rent-controlled side of town. Honestly, if that's just who she is, no cape or super abilities, Lena would love her just as much. She already does. Lena Luthor, the busiest character on the show, loves Kara to the point of devotion and invention. Do you know how hard it is to speak to a CEO casually? It's like trying to solve this global pandemic. It's impossible. Yet here she is constantly thinking about Kara this or Supergirl that. To be clear, I'm not excusing her actions last season. But she's stronger than what your showrunners give her credit for. Lena is constantly manipulated, abused, neglected, lied to, betrayed, you name it. But time and time again she has proven that she is Kara's match. You have given Kara Zor-El a soulmate the moment you decided that Katie McGrath should stay as a series regular. And I for one am not sorry that her character is a strong independent woman. You should start not being sorry or afraid too.

Look, you can say that it's too early in the season so I should not get ahead of myself. This is also fictional so I shouldn't have so many expectations. I would stop if you refrain from throwing any kind of bone. Maybe I should remain seated and let the writers do their thing? The reality is it's not too early in the season. In fact, it's far too late in the game. If this was RuPaul's Drag Race, baby we are lipsyncing for the crown! You can either sew, crack a joke, death drop 'til your legs give out while remembering the words to Shut Up And Drive, or sashay away.

This is your final season. You should be tying up loose ends. If Lena Luthor was a man, they would be having twins by now for all we know. You can't keep baiting us with your half-baked storylines just so you can keep your ratings afloat. You can't go on like this. Do it or drop it.

If you're going with a different romantic pairing for Kara than most of us hoped for, make it fucking make sense and stick with it. Otherwise, allow Kara to embody her family motto with the only person who truly makes her stronger.

Note: GIF taken from the @lonelydiary through Tumblr. Hope it's okay. Thank you.

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my dad likes to call the stretches of time where you’re not creating “dreaming periods” and says that they’re meant to allow you to absorb all of the beauty, life, and inspiration from the things around you so that when you’re able to create again, you will have fanned your spark back into a flame. sometimes its hard to see those moments as anything but stagnation, but he always says that they’re natural and healthy and needed—things that should be embraced rather than feared.