Latest Posts by thebluestberries - Page 5

i think its very sexy of me to have glow-in-the-dark stars as part of my Epic Gamer setup

homosexual activities are now occuring ehehehehehe

rocking a new record of SIX mental health issues teaming up against me at once. everyone welcome the new contestants: mild hallucinations and heavy superstition!

we'll see how this works out when i finally sleep and if i get a nightmare or not! :D

idk whats with the fanfics tonight but this shits hurting man

hello tumblr, i am once again debating my career choice and if i even picked my career and future for myself or if i just picked it to have something to my family's name :D

just to add: the same dog tried to run away yesterday as well when we were taking in groceries so obviously shes on a rebellious streak but noooo its my fault for being upset about being right

me: if you let the dogs go in without their leashes, they're gonna run away

my mom: no they won't

a dog: *tries to run away*

my mom: i cant believe this happened

me: if you let the dogs go in without their leashes, they're gonna run away

my mom: no they won't

a dog: *tries to run away*

my mom: i cant believe this happened

this is the first year that my parents have actually looked at my grades during finals and its so funny seeing them freak out over the low test scores that ive been getting for years by now

i read somewhere that moles are marks from kisses from a lover in your past life and ithink its really cute how i have a mole on my ring finger :)

okay so i bombed the algebra test(s) and probably failed the class but Spanish went well :D

i have two tests that i am undoubtedly going to bomb tomorrow and i had to plan my outfit around not having to say a color in Spanish and so that it's less visible when i'm sobbing over my math test :)

i have two tests that i am undoubtedly going to bomb tomorrow and i had to plan my outfit around not having to say a color in Spanish and so that it's less visible when i'm sobbing over my math test :)

nvm my cookies are fucking fire and also the size of my palm. i will now be sleeping for four hours so i can get coffee when i wake up, farewell to thee

ive literally not baked a single thing correctly tonight and im gonna scream

ive literally not baked a single thing correctly tonight and im gonna scream

i made a new character and some devious little part of my brain went "you know what would be fun? killing one of her sons :)" and im not gonna lie its really tempting

me: aw yeah look at me i learned how to use chopsticks in under three minutes im so smart :)

me four minutes earlier: ooooo look, two day old sushi leftovers!!

it sucks that i have dyscalculia and RSD because i can go from doing math with a little bit of issue to full on breakdown in a second only to realize ive been reading a 2 as a 5 the entire time a few minutes later after already crying all over my homework

at least we have to wear masks for testing because that can catch the inevitable tears, i just gotta remember not to wear makeup :)

disani water is a crime against humanity

i had a dream that i went to dinner with my girlfriend and her family and they didn't like me but i also vividly remember not understanding their social queues whatsoever so i couldn't tell that they didn't like me until they started talking shit about me to my face

also this one guy that's kinda just been following me around in my dreams was there and offered me a seat at his table

me, pouring three day old mountain dew baja blast down my sink: oh that definitely isn't supposed to go into my body

also me not even five minutes later: shit i should have just put ice in that and finished it

working on something you don't understand without direct help is like playing chess without knowing how to play chess but you know how to play checkers so you're just kinda rolling with that and the person across the table isn't correcting you and you think you're about to win then your opponent takes your queen and now you're back at square one and down a point and still no one is telling you how to play but you just have to keep playing because maybe it'll click eventually

so apparently its not normal to feel horribly sick and nauseous at the idea of doing work and to feel gross waves of guilt and panic at the idea of emailing someone

i remember in my 7th grade English class we were doing poetry about a personal experience and i took the trauma route and wrote about how i felt when my father was stationed but from my mother's perspective and used they/them to convey how i felt like i didn't know him until he finally came home and my English teacher gave me a full lecture about being clear about my character's appearances and attributes and i gave me a 95 when i changed all the they/them pronouns to he/him

anyway im nonbinary now

lmao when you want to join a discord call with people you've known for well over a year but your anxiety is so pissy that you can't even text one of them for permission to join when you don't even need permission

me: i don't have a phobia of bugs, that'd be stupid haha

also me: literally cries when a moth touches me and then proceeds to hallucinate visual bugs and the feeling of bugs both in and out of my body for the next hour

i failed my math final because i:

1. didn't understand half the material in the class and none of the material on the test (i have asked for help in the past but the teacher didn't offer anything that ended up working)

2. lost track of time and started panicking about how much time i had left

3. none of the words or equations were processing correctly and i kept mixing up formulas and problems

ranting about my toxic ex is basically a hobby at this point

my e key on my laptop stopped working for a little bit last night while i was writing and i took it as a sign from god that i should stop

sometimes i can't tell if it's a manic episode of if i'm just not sad for once

the gifted kid aspect of the american school system has ruined me because now i hold all my self worth to my grades and when i don't understand something in a class the missing assignments pile up because it's so much easier to take a zero from missing assignments than it is to take a zero for not understanding when your whole life and self worth is built on you understanding everything