I'm a queer nerd with religous trauma, let's be friends! Icon by @haxxydraws
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Part of Apple's new terms include "do not post incorrect things about religious texts" but even scholars of religious texts often disagree on the actual content or intent behind them. Apple has therefore declared itself the arbiter of the true word of God. 🤔
This image in the latest watchtower is so unhinged. I'm waiting for this to have animated gifs of the words "BUY! BUY! BUY!"
And the fucking 3d modeled Bibles?! It's insane to me for reasons I can't articulate
Its been NINE YEARS and i still dont think anyone knows exactly why teen titans was cancelled
I'm healing my religious trauma one devil horned piccrew at a time
The amount of times I decided religous trauma related breakdowns/nightmares were "a sign from God" is honestly crazy. How can you connect that you are miserable because of the cult but not reach the conclusion "I should leave".
I feel bad for the non-cult friends I have sometimes because they always ask "How are you :) ?" so innocently. They say they genuinely want to know cause I hold back, and it's nice to have that support. Still, it feels bad to always have a new horrible thing happen that's shaken you.
Sure I'm growing so much as a person and I love that, but I'm also dealing with my parents increasingly abusive behavior and struggling to organize my escape plan. All anyone can really do is say "It will get better!" Truely I believe that too, yet I still have to suffer now and I cant make myself ignore it anymore. I'm tired of being miserable no matter what I do. Everything that can be done has been, so now I helplessly flounder.
Even to this blog, it feels bad to not offer any insight or clear hope. I've seen so many people in similar situations who aren't lucky enough to know they should be done with this in less than a year. I just wish it would stop hurting...
TERFS KEEP YOUR FUCKING PIEHOLES SHUT
Family means the knife held against my throat is done out of love
I really do wish people would stop giving me things. It makes me feel very guilty, because I know I’m going to leave them and take some of those things with me. I feel like I’m using them even though I know they’re using me.
Emotions are fun.
Petition to refer to TERFs as FARTs, which stands for Feminist Appropiating Reactionary Tranaphobe
Pre-Pandemic
Now
Had a fellow employee at my internship casually mention his husband and it made me so happy! As I learn more about the world I'm forced to deal with the fact that homophobia exists outside of my control group too; they would say the world was evil because others accepted queer people. So when I see evidence that there is hope for me to live my life as myself, I feel better. I start to beleive that I have a future here.
Also graduations were big because they were the only excuse we had to give more elaborate presents. Plus my family would allow non witness family come to those events, it was nice.
Jehovah Christmas- a funny (and hypocritical) family tradition.
Now, I’d like to stress that no, we do not call this event ‘Jehovah Christmas’. While I think suggesting that name would get my sister to laugh- I doubt any of the devout family would be happy about it. Instead it is boringly called ‘The November Party’ but I want to suggest a different name.
This family tradition came about last year, before we locked down fully for COVID. It’s a two day event- one day for gifts, the next for food. With that in mind, it’s more of a Christmas / Thanksgiving combo than a unique tradition.
On the first day, the third Friday of every November, we each (8 of us total) get each other a gift, nothing extravagant but there is no hard price limit. We keep gift bags labeled with our names on a big table, and we all just put our gifts in the bags after wrapped. We all open them, taking turns taking a single gift out of your bag. The following day, my dad and grandma cook a big Thanksgiving-like spread. And then, for the one time a year we do this- we eat together at the big table.
This tradition was obviously born out of a desire to celebrate holidays without really celebrating them. I can’t remember who’s idea it was, though I can assure you it wasn’t mine. While I see the obvious hypocrisy here, I’m not going to bring that up and dash away the chance for my sister to experience that little bit of the holidays. Plus, I love it and wish they had done it when I was a kid.
Anyways, if you and your families had any fun traditions like that, please share them because I’d love to hear.
Every couple years we would have a little Thanksgiving with witness family or "chill brothers and sisters". They would justify it by saying turkey/ham was on sale and we would have a potluck of Thanksgiving food. It was fun honestly, but I remember brothers would have to occasionally call it out on the stage cause so many would do something similar lol.
Jehovah Christmas- a funny (and hypocritical) family tradition.
Now, I’d like to stress that no, we do not call this event ‘Jehovah Christmas’. While I think suggesting that name would get my sister to laugh- I doubt any of the devout family would be happy about it. Instead it is boringly called ‘The November Party’ but I want to suggest a different name.
This family tradition came about last year, before we locked down fully for COVID. It’s a two day event- one day for gifts, the next for food. With that in mind, it’s more of a Christmas / Thanksgiving combo than a unique tradition.
On the first day, the third Friday of every November, we each (8 of us total) get each other a gift, nothing extravagant but there is no hard price limit. We keep gift bags labeled with our names on a big table, and we all just put our gifts in the bags after wrapped. We all open them, taking turns taking a single gift out of your bag. The following day, my dad and grandma cook a big Thanksgiving-like spread. And then, for the one time a year we do this- we eat together at the big table.
This tradition was obviously born out of a desire to celebrate holidays without really celebrating them. I can’t remember who’s idea it was, though I can assure you it wasn’t mine. While I see the obvious hypocrisy here, I’m not going to bring that up and dash away the chance for my sister to experience that little bit of the holidays. Plus, I love it and wish they had done it when I was a kid.
Anyways, if you and your families had any fun traditions like that, please share them because I’d love to hear.
Help a trans girl not end up homeless!
Hey people, I’ve been away for some time now due to… a lot of things to be honest. I was staying at my friend’s family’s place for a while but they had their own struggles and I had to move away. Fortunately I had a job at this point so I’ve been able to stay off the street, but I got fired last month and almost got evicted. I’m still at the same place, but I HAVE to pay up last month’s and this month’s rent by dec 5th if I wanna stay here. I got a new job but my probation week is starting in 2 weeks, and I won’t be payed until that’s over (which won’t be enough anyways), and then if I get the “permanent” position, the payment again won’t arrive until next year. I’m in deep shit and my mental health issues as well as dysphoria are making it all so much worse, so if anyone could help me out in any way at all, like boosting this or asking others to boost, or even donating, I’d be SO grateful to you. I literally don’t know what else to do. I have no one at all to turn to.
This is my kofi: https://ko-fi.com/mapleee, you don’t need an account to donate. You can see my goal there and how much has been fulfilled as well. Again, thank you so very much!
The Rage of the Burnish
I can't do anything cool for Halloween as a pimo, so behold!
It's my cute jack o lantern self! Here's the link if you want to make one too!
I find it increasingly difficult to put effort into convincing people I'm still a believer.
It used to be a normal and subconscious process for me. You just say what you know you're supposed to and that's the way you will always be. It was casual survival. Now, I'm outgrowing this persona. I feel more and more like an individual who can actively have their own thoughts without guilt, and then having to turn around and restrict that hurts. I spend so much of my time having to listen to their drivel and act like I agree, despite the now obvious logical fallacies and bigotry.
I don't know how much longer I can even let the mask i show my family "be molded by Jehovah".
i am a simple apostate. i see a system or institution that discourages thinking and making decisions for yourself, ostracizes people, tells you to never question their authority, tells you it knows you better than you know yourself and thinks something is inherently wrong with people that only they can “fix” and i want to destroy it and burn it to the fucking ground with my bare hands
Anyone else totally desensitized to the delta variant with a side of futility or is it just me. Im wearing my mask and stuff but the scale of the horror of it is just lost on me now
I got to marry my wife, and our pupper was our flower girl. 2.5 years ago this wasn’t possible, as it wasn’t legal in Australia. It rained our whole wedding day, but was so worth it in the end with our phenomenal photographer.
I'm into pokemon cards now. I drive around looking for places that have them, covet their beauty, and then use them to destroy my enemies in combat. Add in the gambler's high and you've got an amazing pastime.
No gender only lesbian
questioning your gender for the longest time only to realize that it's something that most people sort of "have" and that your ideas of what your gender might be/might've been were just gender expressions; THEN questioning whether those expressions ARE your gender or not because some people are GNC but not everyone is and for some people, expression and identity ARE linked, so you wonder if yours is/are, too, only to finally conclude. Nope. No gender. 0%. Cart empty.
I GOT MY DRIVER'S LICENSE!