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I’d like.to have my perfect dream girl but, I’ll settle when I find the one that makes me forget it wasn’t her.

learn from your mistakes.

Im getting old. The more you pay attention to time the more it matters to you. Hindsight is 20/20. maybe it wouldnt have been hind if Id have had my head on right. Though the past it cant be helped like our hearts had surely hoped. the future is a mystery fumbling in the dark with eyes closed. Grasping for the handles on the doors left wide open. Not in hurried disarray but with excitement and discovery. may fear be what I leave behind. Nothing in my pockets and nothing in my way.

In that moment of beauty.

I remember that night. You on your knees, The tile floor. Braced against the toilet. Thin strands of hair across your face. Blood tinged bottom lip. A helpless look in your eyes. And I kissed you. In that very moment, full throws of beauty. I kissed you. I kissed ...

Forever and always AKB

I use to watch you as you slept.

I love your lips. soft… pink… warm…

ever so slightly parted, delicate.

id listen to your breath. every breath.

you were so peacfull.

and the soft contours of your body.

dim morning light through the window.

shades of blue and grey.

chest rising just to fall so smoothly down.

your naked body half coverd by sheets.

sheets that couldnt cover you if they wanted to.

my hands on your throught, you liked that.

That look in your eyes. you knew Id never hurt you.

youd inhale with a gasp a pleasure when I got it right.

Everything was always right. everything… right?

Now I know it will be. I know youll never leave.

a gentle thrust, a warm wet gush.

your life no more than a crimson river.

Down your chest, onto the floor.

everything you ever were is mine.

your lips part. and that look in your eyes.

pure. nothing. hopeless. love and everything.

the same as on the side of the road that drunken night.

cold steel, tender flesh. surrender to nothingness.

Youll always be my first and last.

My one and only. your love was mine.

and my life was yours.

Ill hold you in my arms. love you till your gone.

I never lied.

I can still taste you on my lips.

cold and crimson… our last kiss.

The black

just about ready for take off. I can feel it in my breath.

The way it moves through me. shivers up my spine.

it comes on like love. getting me off like lust.

soon it will leave me. Like you in that beauty.

 its the only place… I can go… that you cannot…  follow

The undead.

I live like a ghost. invisible and stuck to the corners and dim lit ways you never walk. observing without being seen or felt. as life unfolds around me, I burry the burden. this skeleton in my closet.

by ShawnCoss

Someplace unfamiliar

with every step. 

I move further from this earth. 

This being ive become. 

clouds once looming over head,  

now just a haze someplace below. 

That place. 

One I never knew and will never know. 

Could never know. 

With every wish Ive held my breath. 

let down. 

Im running out, t 

urning blue as that very color fades from it. 

Those calming words you spoke to me. 

That calming voice, 

bringing sanity. 

as there once was… 

again nothing will be. 

Prolonging pain. 

Inducing change. 

a short glimpse at clarity. 

The night provides the day. 

fire, the beauty of the flame. 

And the ashes, 

the perfect place, 

a clean slate.