Latest Posts by ticking-time-bomb-vent - Page 3

Bleeding into unbroken shoes feels like a crime. Scraping arms against ledges I shouldn't climb. These are things I should have hidden too. Because all they did was get to you.

...I'm sorry.

Lost my breakfast to take my medication.

At least I’ll be able to regulate and hide better

I can hide. I can avoid you. These are things I know I can do.

I’ll do it if you want.

I can do better to stay out of sight. Would that be good?

Even they told me “You are just naturally good at disappearing”

I can do that again. I can disappear.

I want to give you space.

What do I do if I see you in that stairwell?

I don’t know what to do.

I will fix myself this time. This is the last chance I'll give myself. I promise you won't be disappointed. The last thing I'd want would be to let you down now.

I finally finished cutting off everyone who made me worse. All of them. Including D.

My growth and progress will only be stronger now. I can prove it

Ignoring the false angel's sugarcoated words. She's worse then me and she tries making me worse. I don't need that. Goodbye D

I can promise you that I'll do literally anything to prove I've made improvement.

I'll rephrase it. Don't keep me around if it won't genuinely make you happy

Don't keep me around because of guilt.

Do what’s best for you, please.

Despite everything, I still care.

Despite everything, I'm still me.

Despite everything, I'm learning

I'm working to make myself better.

But that doesn't mean you need to make a bad decision.

Make the decision you truly want.

Don't ever tell someone yes just to please them or to save them.

Trust me.

That's why this happened in the first place.

I don't blame you for saying no.

I understand.

the person I was wouldn't have been good for you

I'm sorry for all of that.

It's okay to crash out though.

You deserve to let the feelings out.

I would never have done this again.

I despise the person I was and the way i treated you.

I regret every second of it and I would never treat anyone like that again.

I've learned from my mistake, I promise I have.

You don't have to believe me.

I'll keep posting. It's the only way we're able to face eachother right now.

I'm sorry.

Please god take away this false angel she’s rotting my brain and trying to control just like they all used to.

Except this time she’s up front about it.

This isn’t about anyone who’ll see this.

Someone save me from this false angel, swooping down and preying on me in my darkest hour.

I only know she’s fake because I’ve seen the work of a real one.

Please someone rescue me.

I just want everything to be okay, I’d be happy with just being friends.

I cried today.

I cried in that very same spot.

You wouldn’t have been able to tell though.

Cried with my head in my hands.

God I’m pathetic. You were right there in front of me and I cowered away. Even now when I know how you truly feel I’m afraid to even be seen

I saw you in that stairwell of x’s.

I couldn’t tell if you wanted me there or if you wanted me gone.

I’d be happy if we could just talk again.

“I want to strangle them all. I dont want you to ever feel that pain again. This world is so evil to the sweetest of souls.”

What

What

WHAT

She’s obsessive

I’m so conflicted

She wants a date.

She wants to share rent.

WHY RIGHT NOW D WHY RIGHT NOW

WHY DO YOU DECIDE TO BECOME MY GUARDIAN ANGEL RIGHT NOW

I APPRECIATE IT BUT THE CONFESSION IS REALLY BADLY TIMED

I’m not using guardian angel as an insult, this isn’t about you right now.

WHY NOW OF ALL TIMES IT COULD HAVE BEEN EARLIER OR IT COULD HAVE WAITED ANYTIME BUT NOW PLEASE

“if i could i’d take it all away and have you be the happiest person to walk the earth because thats truly what you deserve. i know you’ve only ever wanted the best for everyone and im so so sorry that keeps backfiring on you hun.”

WHY NOW???

NONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONO WHY NOW WHY ARE YOU TELLING ME NOW "I love you, and Im so sorry these horrible things keep happening to you."

WHY D WHY