I shouldn't be so wrapped up in this, I'm aware.
In about a month, I'm quitting the studio and packing up my bag for Canada. The Air Force awaits....
I should be proud to have ties to RCAF. I should be ecstatic about following my Dad's footsteps, and his Dad's footsteps....and his Dad's footsteps...wait does that even make sense? Whatever, pretty sure it does.
I was once an Air Cadet. What the hell did I expect? Never go to the Air Force? Yeah, right.
I should be proud. Brave. And......Oh to hell with this!!
Why won't he be proud of me? What do I have to do? Lead a bunch of P-51 mustangs and P-40 Kittyhawks into battle? Like heck I would!
I just......
I just want him to be proud of me.
I joined Boy scouts to impress him. I joined Air Cadets to impress him. I made ties here in New York by myself. I......
Am I......
Good enough?
If I go to war and die like a hero......
Would he finally love me?
Proud to call me his son?
Human.
No.
No?
That's not what I'm seeing in the mirror right now.
...
What do you see?
What do you see?
Please stop. Let's be better.
Aren't we in too deep for that? Too blurry?
No, wait, please, let's think about this. We didn't mean to do that, we'll be okay. We'll be fine. We are Okay.
...
Where are my eyes?
...
Where is my throat?
...
Where is me?
...
Shut up.
We are happy, we are fine.
We have eyes, throat, flesh, blood, we are complete.
So where is me?
Hudson raised his shaking hand as he somehow ended up on the floor. His knees weak and his brown eyes looking traumatised.
"I'm here," he rasped, his voice cracking a little. "Just give me a minute."
With that said, he fell back and laid on the ground, staring up at the ceiling. His whole body feeling ill and shaken, not even worried about Stella and the prank anymore.
@ask-thelyricist
*you and Sammy were in Sammy's office arguing or some shit idfk*
Stella walked into the room and flicked off the light, drawing y'all's attention. she lingered in the doorway, gripping a knife tightly and partially covered in a substance that looked suspiciously like blood...
"Sammy..." she muttered. she acknowledged Hudson with a nod in his direction before throwing her head back and cackling like a maniac. :]
- @art-by-stella
Hudson stared at in suspicion, already turning away from Sammy, whom he was already so done with.
He raised a brow, his gaze unwavering as he folded his arms against his chest. The dark rings under his eyes and his pale skin proved he wasn't in good health. Though he stubbornly refused to admit it.
"Can I help you or are you just going to giggle like a creepy doll all day?" He asked, his tone unconcerned and tired.
(Stella wtf??)
And since I know I promised you guys a Jack:
Please like this or reblog! (Who knows maybe I'll make more comics :O)
I worked really hard on it ^ ^u
okay...
is the lil guy you doodled in your intro post Untitled..?
cause for some reason I thought that was like, a prototype version of ghost Hudson...
my friend told me he was Untitled tho...
Untilted is my persona, he's not Hudson.
So yeah, the guy in my intro is Untilted!
Sorry for the confusion
Hudson :3
Aww thank you! He looks fantastic!! And oddly Innocent despite his faults XD
Featuring Grant Cohen (with a chainsaw cause why not)!
I really like how Grant's ink form has a lot of detail and shows his guts hanging out. :3
Poor accountant doesn't get paid enough for this.
Drawing one of my favourite films: Jojo Rabbit!
This looks nothing like Jojo due to my art style, but I tried guys ...
Why the heck does he look a little bit like TinTin...
Having to use your Chromebook's camera is something that pisses me off so much.
No, I will not use my phone.
It's a bootlegged flipphone and it is equally SHITTY.
Anyways, I'm really sorry I haven't been posting much art. It's been a rough couple of days in the real world and I also have my play production tomorrow. I'll take drawing requests and asks for my au or just for Hudson!!
So sorry to my moots as well! If you ever want to rp or do random improv, I'm here when I can be! Hopefully this slump will go away...
Amazing doodle and Hudson looking dead inside is now cannon <3
Ce genuinely just reminded me that I have this by posting art of Hudson, omg I’ve been gatekeeping it, I apologize—
@unnoticedunawarestillhere’s Hudson lmao <3
He/him. Name: Untilted or Hudson. Welcome to the Writing Department, watch your step. Employees Notice: Elevator is currently unavailable.
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