Latest Posts by zylahbee - Page 8
I think that it's really important for people to realize that being disabled is traumatic. genuinely. your body and brain feel like they are breaking down and wrong. you are in constant heavy stress from stuff like chronic pain. most disabled people i know have a somewhat regular emotional break down from the trauma of it all. and we are expected to just smile through it by society, to not be in the way, to not be an issue.
quiet reblog
✨ Things I'm insecure about because of my disabilities ✨
Being unreliable
Having a messy room
Abdominal bloating
Not being 100% on top of my hygiene
Having to excuse myself to the washroom more often
Using my mobility aids
Random bruising
My chicken (weak) legs
Having to explain myself to strangers
Taking the accessible seating on the bus/train
Tripping over myself
My brain fog (I used to have a fantastic memory, I feel like I come off as stupid now)
Being super sweaty
Not being "good representation"
Leaving functions early
Sitting on the floor in public
And so much more. This is a reminder that you're not alone in feeling gross or undesirable, it's also okay to feel that way.
Sometimes you need to feel the feelings before you deal with them.
hot take apparently but just because youre disabled doesnt mean you arent ableist. being disabled doesnt erase your internalized (or externalized) ableism.
if youre paralyzed and you think ambulatory wheelchair users are 'less deserving' of a wheelchair, thats ableism.
if you have adhd and you make fun of autistic people, thats ableism.
if you have dyslexia and think dyscalculia and dyspraxia arent "real problems," thats ableism.
if you have any disability and think ableists should be 'punished' for their ableism by becoming disabled themselves. believe it or not that is in fact ableism, because it perpetuates the idea that disability is something shameful or something that only happens to bad people
comfort items are important. whatever that means for you, do it.
me carrying a stuffed animal around while being disabled is not "infantilizing disability"
I am an actually disabled person who carries a stuffed animal as comfort bc disability is hard
what's "infantilizing disability" is assuming that just bc I carry a stuffed animal I'm not capable of making decisions for myself. or that having a stuffed animal makes me a less serious, adult person than you are.
i LOVE lizzies relationships with her parents she loves them so much.
Fact #29:
Lizzie Hearts has a close relationship with her father.
Source: The Book.
im reading emily wilde’s encyclopaedia of faeries right now and im not sure how i feel about it.
like i like it dont get me wrong. i eat anything up that has fairies of any kind.
but im a very.. emotional person, and so the format of the book being emily’s diary, and her being quite a.. professional and almost stoic? person, doesnt quite engage me as much.
maybe she taps into her emotions later in the story (i’m about a 1/3 of the way through) so idk!! thats just my thoughts so far
The way Marvel resisted having proper queer representation for sooo many years and now their first queer show is not only one of the most popular and successful MCU shows of all time it's also getting nominated for awards which is something very few Marvel projects have achieved..... Marvel/Disney I hope you've learned something from this
Disabled and chronically ill people are allowed to enjoy things and do things they like (if they’re able) while still being sick and disabled. Yes, even if they aren’t employed. Hope this helps.
whens the update that fixes the multiple chronic illnesses bug 😔
I truly think the human body should have some kind of source code that prevents a person from developing more than one chronic illness and/or mental illness
I can handle one (1) at a time but when all of them are flaring up at the same time? That's a great way to push me into a breakdown of despair.
Like my legs and back and neck and shoulders hurt badly today, my narcolepsy has me exhausted and brain-foggy but I'm in too much pain to sleep, and I've got the symptoms I get a few hours before a migraine develops. And I don't have meds for ANY of these things anymore because of many reasons simplified down to: most of my doctors don't listen to me and the ones that do are now a 2 hour drive away.
And I've been on the verge of tears for days which has me suspecting my period is right around the corner and I swear to god if I get my typical endometriosis-excruciating-pain-cramps on top of EVERYTHING ELSE today, I might hurt myself or someone else. I'm at my fucking limit.
And I want to cry to like, "honor my feelings" (can't think of a better way to put it), but crying will make my migraine come on faster and make my muscles hurt worse so I'm just stuck here.
anyway be normal about people with renal or gastrointestinal disabilities and conditions. your personal hang ups about anyone's disability are worthless. leave them far away from disabled people.
Terrarium Life collection~
I painted these way back during the pandemic (hence the hoard of toilet paper and Switch that I wish I had, but they were all sold out) No pandemic now but the chimney smoke from all the neighbors have made the air unbreathable and I'm stuck inside again 😭 cuddling my dog, drinking tea
tending to my fish tank and my plants
please please please allow yourself to try aids and adaptations. it’s not giving up but working with your mind body and being kind to yourself. it isn’t the tragedy that society mistakenly think it is. i’m proud of everyone who tries to find easier ways to exist 💜
nailed it
i also feel like stella helps tecna to let go sometimes, to help her live more freely and step out of her comfort zone. tenca would totally not break so many rules at alfea if not for her friends.
what i love about winx friendships is that, each duo has its own unique dynamic.
let's take stella as an example!
bloom is her bestie whom she's immediately clicked with. even though it was an instant connection, it has never been an intense nor forced type of a bond. they're simply just so alike. bloom is impulsive with her actions, stella is impulsive with her words. they're both incredibly protective of others. and most things done by either of them, have been done out of pure burning passion. welp, they are literally the hottest fairies after all! :3
flora has a personality almost opposite of hers. stella's tongue works faster than her brain. meanwhile, flora is thoughtful. stella doesn't understand other people's emotions much, but flora is extremely empathetic. them being so different from each other causes them to fight so often. but regardless of their disagreements, they still love each other dearly. (also their arguments are quite entertaining ngl)
musa and stella are equally blunt. this causes constant back and forth roasts and brutal honesty. i feel like people who don't know them well could mistake their dynamic as rivalry. but no, they're just both playful, sassy queens who have an amazing sense of humor.
tecna, even though she's capable of analyzing anything that exists...she can't find logic in stella's behavior whatsoever. why does she get more and more silly as the issues are continuously piling up? why can't she just be serious for once? tecna remains serious and focused in those situations, because what is there to joke about? but even though stella's behavior is irritating to tecna at times, i'm sure she helps her loosen up a lil with her laid back attitude.
also, keep in mind these are my impressions based on watching only first season!! i will yap more about their friendships as i continue watching the show! ✨
Has anyone said this yet
I really like Bloom's new looks. The wings might of been a pain to figure out, but damn are they pretty.
While I get why people don't like the reboot take on Magix Winx, (they go so hard in a different direction then the original) I also think the fandom has been unfairly harsh to the new designs.
They're all really fun and bursting with personality, something we haven't really had in Winx fairy forms for like... a decade. While they don't beat the originals, I respect these designs for going for their own thing with inspiration from the og as oppose to trying to replicate them unlike the Trix
Doctors when they hear about my chronic illness but don't want to be responsible for treatment
its really confusing when youve had a traumatic childhood, but your adult life has been really traumatic too.
because on the one hand i have so much nostalgia for my childhood and i long for it, but on the other hand it really wasnt that great.. i just had less responsibility for my health.
i feel like im constantly searching for when i felt safe, but im not even sure if there was really a time where i truely felt safe.
i think thats why i love engaging with media from my childhood so much, its what helped me escape as a kid and im still running after that feeling.
i hate how my illnesses can change how im seen as a person - like because im sick i cant do a lot of things and it makes me seem flaky but i want to be there i just cant
What if Bloom was a playable character in HSR?
• vidyadhara
• probably grew up on Belobog (or just another planet)
• i think Daphne could be one of her prior incarnations
• fire hunt🏹🔥 + inflicts Burn
• FuA (I think Kiko would be a summon)
Share your headcanons in the comments as well🙏🏻
This sketch is so messy omg I'll probably make a redraw and add more detail to her top when I have time
Winx Pixix
helps pixies and fairies unite through their powers
just rewatched the season 1 of winx and HOLY FUCK. that was intense.
last time i watched it, i was probably like 7 years old and i couldn't comprehend the dark and serious parts of the story. i was mostly focused on sparkly magic and outfits.
genuinely, this show feels way more enjoyable now that i'm adult. and it actually makes me sad how much everything went downhill.
season 4 wasn't as good as first 3 seasons. but season 5 and so on...even at the age of 10 i knew the quality has drastically dropped.
it sucks...the amount of potential this story had.
ughhh this is so goooood
Ive been noodling around with the idea of icy being bloom’s mirror since with her backstory in season 8 it sure looks that way. But instead. I shall do smth else.
Icy’s mirror is not bloom. Bloom n icy are not mirrors of each other.
Icy’s mirror is Daphne.
Both older sisters, both heirs to their kingdoms. Both kingdoms cursed, both wanted to save their little sister. Icy is what Daphne could have become if she was too late to save Bloom. Daphne is what Icy could have been if she succeeded in saving her sister n sacrificed herself in the process.
At first icy hates bloom for inexplicable reasons. Run of the mill reasons. But when she realises what bloom’s story is and relates it to herself, every time they face off, icy is faced with the fact that this could have been her sister. And when she sees daphne (in season 5 when they trap her to steal sirenix), that is her mirror. She is faced with the fact that that is what she could have been (at least similar) if she had succeeded. She could have seen her sister grow up. I think what’s the most heartbreaking part is when bloom wishes her sister’s corporeal form back.
Coz icy is clearly being thrown in jail/has to flee again, But bloom and daphne has their entire family back. Mom and dad and all. And i think resentment only builds from there WHICH i wld say is the motive for her to always go after the winx. Even after season 5.
feeling so utterly sick of life, i dont know how to keep myself aflame when it feels like everything wants to put me out.
i hate how people don’t understand the difference between having no motivation, and having the motivation but being physically UNABLE to do it.
trust me when i say i wish i was not ill and could just “go get a job.”
anyone else ever think about where they would be if they werent sick?
couldve graduated high school, couldve gone to university, couldve had a job, travelled, practiced my skills regularly, chased my passions..
I feel like most able bodied people see wheelchairs as the worst thing that could happen to a person. When I discuss my want to have a wheelchair for various reasons, most peoples first reaction is to be surprised that I could voluntarily consider that.
But what they fail to consider is that, unlike them, I very much hate walking. It causes me pain and fatigue, it is a miserable experience.
So to any able bodied person reading this, yes some wheelchair users like walking, some want to gain that ability back, but that does not invalidate the feelings of wheelchair users who absolutely hate walking.
reaching out for help feels like this:
“hi, i know i need help and i am not coping.. and i dont know what to do that will help me”
“well what do you need from us exactly? what do you want me to do?”
“i dont know…?”
“well i cant do what you dont ask for”
“great.”
how do other chronically ill/disabled people answer the “what do you do for a living/are you at university/do you travel” type of questions when you cant do any of those at the moment 😭
i feel so pathetic and stupid being like.. ermm i do none..! i just.. yk.. try to keep myself alive