Deep Meaning - Blog Posts

True!

But you have to remember you can’t dwell on what you lost! You have to keep moving forward!

Sides when your a adult you can watch whatever you want! Even if it’s for kids your a adult! If you want a happy meal go right ahead it’s your money! If you want to fucking thrown a snowball at someone, RUN GO HIDE-

Though it’s cheesy you have to stay positive and keep on living!

When you’re a child, you just want to be an adult and when you’re finally an adult, you just want to be a child.

✨OLD TECHNOLOGICAL GROWTH✨

Like I mean if you think about, someone was able to make a WORKING CLOCK ON YOUR WRIST!

Now we not only have a working clock but aLSO A LITERAL PHONE ON OUR WRIST!

Come on people! Our technology is cool in ALL LEVELS AND IN ALL THE TIMES!!

Kids in the future will probably be impressed that some watches don’t need to be charged.

While everyone is probably one upping one another I thought I would share this!

Sure I do overthink while I drift off to sleep but then I at least think of one silly thing or one happy thing that brings me a smile!

It can be a cute dog! Me petting and adopting said dog, playing with that dog or something like being surprised with a cat that was sitting on my doorstep! What would I do with that said cat?

Or I think of things I’m in love with! Like Video Games, Writing, Art! Things that bring me a smile...or I think of something dumb like-

THEN I WOULD BE LAUGHING MYSELF SLEEP-

All I’m saying is think of one thing that makes you smile!

Overthinking yourself to sleep is the adult version of bedtime story

I did not make dis creature I am only relaying it’s message.

Talking ⭐️ Stars

I like looking at the stars.

It ain’t a unique hobby but to me it’s a very special kinda hobby.

When I was younger I grew up in a city. The street lights were my stars and as a kid the sirens of police cars or an ambulance sirens would lul me to sleep...they still do sometimes!

I was a independent child. Two hardworking parents who never had that much time for me. Still they loved me...I think.

One time my mom came into my room one night and hugged me until I fell asleep, around that time it was when my parents marriage had some cracks and they wanted to fill them.

She hugged me, she told me how much she loved me...and that she was sorry. I was 14 when she did that. She said sorry that she was around, like she was around but not you know AROUND.

She says that she regrets not spending that much time with me when I was younger. Instead having our service dog do all that. I had a service dog as a kid...why? Eh, I don’t really like talking about it.

But when I was a tween and a teen it was hard to get out of bed...hard to eat, hard to take care of myself. I wanted to disappear. A couple of times I almost did.

But Pico helped me. He was a very polite doggo. He always wanted cuddles and always wanted to help me out....especially after a anxiety attack.

I’m still recovering. I’m still trying to believe my mothers words, that I matter and that I’m loved by her and my dad.

My dad..He died when I was 18 years old. It was a car accident. It was before my birthday and he said that he wanted to make up for not being there for me when I was a kid and says that not that I’m a adult that we should try rekindle our Father/Child relationship.

He was gonna give me a surprise gift...he wanted to take me to Japan. He and Mom soMeHOw knew I loved anime and always wanted to move to Japan. He was gonna take me there.

Before he died.

It was hard. My entire life has been pretty hard.

Coming out as non-binary to my parents made it less hard. They knew I was not their son nor daughter, I was their child. They loved me for who I am.

My friends didn’t have a positive reaction. Still addressing me as “Corbin” then “Jay”. I had it and just cut them off. I realized on how toxic they became. They all gossiped and just said terrible things I dare not repeat.

But now...I’m passed that. I’m Jay Garcia. I’m 23 years old and I’m a artist who loves anime and painting. I love the stars.

Someday...I’m going to be there.

Her delicate hand touched my cheek.

I flinch and move away to the corner.

I look up at this goddess, wondering what the hell she wanted.

As I flinched her hand coiled to her chest, her flowing orange hair and her glistening blue eyes face me.

She looked disappointed at my reaction.

I try give her my fiercest gaze and turn my eyes away from her, can she just leave me alone already?

I heard her soft footsteps come closer towards my direction but then they stop.

She’s hesitant.

I look back up at her, ignoring her elegant dressing and what she had in her other hand to her blue eyes.

It was a mixed of “should I?” And doubt. I seen those eyes before so many times, in my friends eyes, my mothers eyes...and my dads eyes.

They all were hesitant. To me. The runt, the fowl creature. The dirty dog.

I was better off alone. So no one could ever hurt me.

No one can give me that disappointed gaze.

When I looked up at her again, I noticed now...that she was gone.

Leaving behind a basket.

I sigh, like everyone else she left.

At least she gave me a basket...or goodies I hope?

Then again she looked like high nobility or something maybe there was gold or-

What in the world?

What is this? A trick?

...May this continue soon.

I wish I can hug you.

I wish to hold your hand.

I wish a lot of things when your not here.

Even though it’s only for a couple of hours..it’s a bit hard for me at least.

You might not feel the same way but when I’m with you my anxiety flutters away.

You make me feel whole....but is that right?

I mean it’s romantic but is it healthy? Am I overthinking again? I’m sorry...

I just...I guess I will stick with one thing right now and not overthink it’s meaning.

I love you.

I know deep down if I can try I can do things without you but their just a lot more funnier with you by my side!

Yeah...you don’t complete me, I don’t NEED you but...I want you to be here with me.

I want you and me to grow old together, maybe have a kid I don’t know lol...

But I want to experience things with you...so yeah :D

...I was just gonna go to the market for a bit but now you made me cry you lovable bean.

Noooooo! I’m sorry I didn’t want to make you cry!

WELL YOU DID! NOW COME HERE! Imma hug you forever!

AHHH! nO! thE hUgs ArE tOo sTrONg!

They then hugged and cuddled each other for hours! The End.

Song that inspired this “wish u were here” by Wish oh the Beat! Check out the song it’s real good for vibes...have a great day! :D

What a gorgeous day!

The sun shining ever so brightly! The birds chirping their sweet songs! The trees ever so delicately sway with the wind!

How the wind blows hard making the sea wave to unexpected victims. How the waves force the victims to stay with them. Dragging them down into the dept of the sea.

How their bodies go limp as the waters of the salty sea invade their systems, making it hard for them to cry out for help.

How their bodies touch the soft sands of the ocean shore. Hearing ever so faintly the screams of their loved ones.

How their lives never lived up to their expectations, how long they wanted to live. How many dreams and ideas they could’ve made. Wasted.

Wasted potential. “A tragedy” their loved ones would say as they look upon a dead corpse that once laid life. Wonderful life..

All because they wanted to enjoy the warm sands, the crystal waves and the sun as it sets.

What a gorgeous day.

Garden

Written by: NamelessKnight

I look at my once beautiful garden. All the flower beds, every pot and every living breathing thing here is either in great pain or in...not so nice positions.

Positions that would be hard for a plant to grow that is.

After the hectic storm that plagued me all night and day it finally went away...but at what cost?

There’s a lot of work to be done to make my garden awake and stable once again.

So what do I do? I walk towards a large oaky tree that is in the middle of my shambled like garden, sit down on the wet soggy grass and close my eyes and...sleep.

Though my mind is tired I must check the body. The Machine. It’s heavier then usual and hard to move around when I’m in this state of mind, but for now I must do what I can with what I have.

When I get home I’m definitely gonna take a nap...and fix my wonderful garden.