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Little Lucifer Info:
Age Range: 0-3 Years old
Caregiver: Alastor (Calls him Lu when verbal, which sounds like: "Wu!")
Babysitter: Charlie
Autistic: Mostly nonverbal when regressed, gets easily overwhelmed by his surroundings, and has a hard time letting his caregiver know when he needs or wants something
Hyperfixated on anything to do with ducks!
Milk extremely upsets his tummy and can cause severe meltdowns if the pain persists longer than a few minutes
Now he usually gets watered down apple juice(Happy hands or wiggles are to be expected whenever this happens)
Stranger Danger x1,000(Very clingy baby, but only to Alastor and on very rare occasions Charlie)
Dislikes loud or overly bright toys
Toys he can pull behind himself are his favorite
Likes to chew on his duck shaped crinkle fabric plush
Night terrors are the one thing that can cause him to immediately drop into a baby headspace for an unknown amount of time
Has a tiny bladder, but is too anxious to let his caregiver know he needs a change. (Unfortunately resulting in several painful rashes and the occasional UTI)
you ever go nonverbal but like... online? too fatigued to reblog anything with tags or interact with people
Just had two crying meltdowns and three nonverbal episodes in one day :D. Autism is lovely, school is clearly wonderful for my mental health, and the only things mentally holding me together on a day-to-day basis are the promise that my friends will still be there in the morning, and also my weighted blanket. Life is wonderful and I am doing great! Promise!
I feel like half my body needs to be soaked in ice while the other half covered in heating pads…just the issues of chronic pain ⋋_⋌
Sometimes I start to wonder if I really am chronically ill. Do I really wake up every day with pain or am I just faking it all the time? I know other people actually have these issues and they are very much real, but to me, I don't know what is real for myself anymore. I try so hard to be normal, yet the pain comes back. It always will come back. I wake in the mornings with a killing pain surging through my jaw. I know that last night I must have been fighting monsters, swinging swords that allow me to defeat these dragons lingering in the mountains. Yet, today as I wake up the pain isn't from a dragon or those monsters I fought, it's from my trying to dislocate once more. The throbbing pain in my head isn't from being flung against the wall of a dragon's den, that pain is from my chronic migraines that linger in me causing it almost impossible to eat and hold my food down. That surging sensation that spirals in my belly, drifting up towards my heart and seeping through my veins isn't the poison of my enemy trying to defeat me at last, this is the anxiety that causes me to isolate myself until everything is fine again. The anxiety that holds me back from chasing these wild imaginations because I'm not okay. I don't think I ever will be okay, but am I really ill?
I actually used my AAC in public today for the first time. I know this might not sound like much to some people, but when I have speaking issues and end up nonverbal or having a verbal communication issue (I don’t know what to call it without people getting mad at me) I normally just stop talking all together and isolate myself. This AAC really helped me so much today and I don’t feel so drained physically and mentally from work. I’m really happy so now I don’t have to go home and sleep the rest of my afternoon away, I can play a game or read!!
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Also, I don’t know what you’d call it that I have. I was nonverbal for well over 7 years and have on and off verbal issues where I can talk some days but most days I’m completely silent. Recently I’m having an episode that’s seeming to last about 4 days.
Ah, the few people I've had to block for telling me it's not ableist to use the term "non-verbal" and that I'm alienating allies.
Do some not mind? I'm sure! But this is a majority thing.
That is greater than any preference. And if you block me or are alienated by me for pushing the voices and wants of a part of the community that is generally ignored?
Then you're just giving me the reason to push their voices louder.
Hi, I'm sorry if you aren't the best person to ask but i cant find anyone else but is it ablest of me to avoid verbally communicating even if I have the ability?
Like I can talk, and it's not particularly hard for me usually, but I feel more comfortable not doing it usually, especially during the times it does hurt. I'm autistic but I don't know if that's the reason why, and I worry it's inconsiderate to not do it by choice since some people don't have one.
Sorry again
It isn't ableist. I've said it before and I will say it again, everyone deserves a comfortable way to communicate. And for you, if using a way other than oral speech is more comfortable, do that!
You deserve to be comfortable, and if that means using AAC, sign, etc. to communicate even though you are speaking. Do it. Somebody who reblogged one of my posts said this, and I think it applies:
"Its called an aid for a reason. You don't NEED a jacket, but winter will be a lot easier if you have one.".
Also, the more people who use AAC the more normalized and available it'll become!