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All to Break it again

PT 2 of Her Healed heart MasterList

Okay, this was a request I'm sorry this took so long, between everything and the small writer slump I've been going through... I am happy to finally get something out to you all. HAPPY NEW YEAR BTW... okay and I did a pole on my Tumbler for who gets the girl... ya'll are ruthless... like actually. Mavuikaaa shouts out to them for the request!!!! Cheating, cursing, Abusive relationship, sex... yeah they said sad so...) OOC RAPH! (I think nearly all the boys would be at least decent boyfriends... but for the sake of it all...)

(It takes a few months after they've been dating... and after the Out of the Shadow movie [that wasn't relevant last chap but it is in this one]

Y/n sat quietly on the couch, crocheting a small turtle to match the plush Raph had made for her. She was waiting for him to return, and after an argument with Leo, he left to blow off some steam... she'd be waiting a while.  "Where do you think he's at?" A soft but stern voice called out, increasing in volume as the figure walked out of the Dojo. Y/n glanced up and softly smiled at her best friend. Leo stood in the doorway, sweat dripping down his form and his katakanas snuggling on his back.

"The gym or rooftop," truth was... she had no idea where he was. He had a habit of just getting up and leaving, not telling anyone where he was going or when he'd return. It had worsened in recent weeks, but she simply brushed it off as his usual attitude. Having been with Raph for a little over a couple months, she was still in the honeymoon phase. Rose-colored lens and a mindset that he could do no wrong. The perfect... man. However, Leo could see right through that. He'd seen Raph leave her waiting one too many times. He has seen him walk out of the room while they were making love... leaving Y/n sitting on the bed... Cold... Lonely... Unsatisfied. But yet, she never moved... simply waiting for him to return. He'd watch Raph leave on their date night, checking his phone before making up an excuse to head to the surface... Again leaving Y/n dolled up... in the lair... once again... waiting.

'He's...no,' Leo shook the ideas out of his head... deciding to join Y/n on the couch. Gently sitting on the cochin next to her, watching as her delicate hands gently held the thread and hook, pulling it through and repeating... He watched the way her tongue was stuck out in concentration... 'Oh, if you were my girl... I'd never keep you waiting He chuckled to himself... kicking himself for allowing his brother to take her... especially watching her now.

"Leo..." Her voice was soft... almost fragile. One he wasn't expecting, completely contradicting the smile on her face. "do... do you think... he found someone else?" Her question... unfortunately didn't surprise him, in fact... he and she were both on the same page as usual.

"I..." He silenced himself...hearing the rev of Raph's bike entering the garage of the lair. "later... we can talk later," He sighed, getting up off the couch to move seats, knowing Raph would be pissy if he caught him so close to her.

"I'M HOME!" His voice... was booming, echoing through the lair... but what startled Leo the most... was the way Y/n jumped, not at the volume... no... at the voice itself. His voice.

"HI BABE!" Y/n called, getting up to greet her green boyfriend at the living room entrance. She smiled softly at him, the yarn clenched tightly in her hands, the small turtle suffocating from her grasp.

"Oh, hey Y/n," His voice held no excitement... no acknowledgment... no love. It was just... as if he was talking to a wall or toy. "Could you go make me something, I'm starving!" The way she flinched... the way she moved without question... she had lost the subtle relaxed energy she had moments ago... the moment he walked in.

"R-right... Absolutely!" Setting down the craft, she made quick way to the Kitchen. Leo... hated what he was seeing, she wasn't a housewife... to return after hours of being gone... and to demand food... No hug? No kiss? No Hi, love?

"Leo..." Raph gave a subtle nod to his older brother before following close behind her.

"Raph..." Leo could only stare... watching... waiting... Analyzing his brother... 'why? Why so cold? Why so distant? Why so... human-like?' He sat there for a moment, just listening to them softly talking in the kitchen. Not loud enough for him to hear... but enough for him to know... they were arguing. The muffed sounds of Raph huffing and grunting... responding with sorry or don't question me. He couldn't stop himself from slowly approaching, peaking around the corner, watching as Y/n shuffled around the Kitchen, glass plate in hand, heating up the leftovers from last night's pot roast. Upon closer inspection... it wasn't just any glass plate. Of course not, Raph only ate off his limited-edition Batman cutlery.

Oh, and Leo watched it in slow motion... the way her foot caught the edge of the carpet, something Donnie was supposed to fix ages ago, how she gasped, how her eyes zeroed in on the plate... that was following in front of her. Watched how she reached out to catch it, neglecting her own safety, allowing her jaw to harshly hit the ground while she barely missed the plate... he watched as it shattered... glass flying, digging into her hands and scattering across the tile. He watched as tears gathered in her eyes... staring at the plate... then glancing back at the hulking figure that sat still on the bar stool.

"AH!" Y/n's voice shattered whatever concentration he had, making a quick move to attend to her... but he halted... the look on her face... the way her pupils dilated in fear. How her breath slowed as reality slowly soaked in.

"DAMN IT Y/N!" Raph's voice was... full of rage. Not the way one should speak when their lover had just been hurt. Leo didn't move, he wanted... no he needed to see how this played out. He watched as Raph got up, practically stepping over Y/n reaching down to pick up the pieces of his shattered collectible. "YOU FUCKIN BROKE IT!" He roared, reaching for another piece, holding them, trying to piece them back together.

"Ah! I'm so sorry! I-I'll find you another one!" Using her glass and soaked hands to push herself up off the ground... she again, neglected herself to tend to him, Leo watched as she only slightly winced while doing so... simply shaking her head and standing to peer over Raphs shoulder.

Raph snorted in disbelief, "Oh really? How do you expect to do that huh?" His voice was... deep... rough... angry... "HUH?" Jetting up to full height, his shell made contact with her jaw as he stood. Now towering over the mess and her. "Only a few were ever made... SO HOW!" Y/n groaned softly from the pain... wiping the bit of blood that dripped from her lip due to her biting it.

"M-maybe I can fix it!" Now bouncing up herself, she stared up at him. His looming figure took steps closer to her... causing her to take steps back, one, two, three, four...until she met the counter... pinning her under him. She knew she couldn't fight back... not against him... not enough to protect herself if he had a lash out... again. "R-Raph, You're scaring me... please," Her soft whimper as Raph tightly gripped her upper arm caused Leo to act. Moving quickly and swiftly, he tightly gripped Raphs forearm...a warning glare in his eyes.

"Let... Her... Go!" His voice was stern, venomous... When he felt Raphs grip only tighten... he did something he never thought he'd do... Drawing a kitchen knife from the block... he held it to Raphs bicep. "Now"

"L-Leo," Y/n gasped softly, from both his appearance and his action. She sighed in relief when Raph let go... a bruise already forming. Ducking quickly, using what Leo had taught her ages ago to escape the confines of Raphs hulking figure. Swiftly and smoothly, she found herself safe behind Leo... who still stood... glaring at his brother.

"WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU?"

"SHE BROKE MY PLATE!"

"SO YOU CAN JUST HURT HER?? ARE YOU A FUCKIN ANIMAL?" Raphs response pissed him off... how dare he think that such a motive was good enough to lay a hand on a woman... not just any woman... his own woman... 'No fuck his woman... my woman' Leo gritted his teeth, after seeing that. Raph deserved nothing... nobody like Y/n.

"She... I-" Raph was cut off by Leo... who had lowered the knife and had his arm wrapped around Y/n...who was still hiding behind him.

"Save it... You're her lover... you should be protecting her... not hurting her!"

"I DO PROTECT HER!"

"JUST NOT FROM YOURSELF APPARENTLY!"

"WELL AREN'T YOU JUST MR.PERFECT!" Raph stood chest to chest with Leo... his glare never wavering

"I... I never claimed to be perfect... but at least I don't let my emotions control me and hurt the ones I care for," Oh his calm voice pissed Raph off even more... left his blood boiling.

'Who the fuck are you to get involved?' He grumbled in his head... "I didn't hurt her..."

"The bruise says otherwise!"

"I-" Raph halted... watching as her form shook softly behind Leo... wanting to run... but too scared to leave the wall that was her best friend. Raph only scoffed, rolling his eyes while hitting Leo's shoulder on his way out of the room... Causing both Leo and Y/n to gasp.

(mini time skip)

Y/n had left... telling Leo she was going to search for the plate... and fix what she'd done... no matter how much it cost. Ever insistent, even after Leo told her she shouldn't reward Raph for his lash out... and that accidents happen. She left the lair in high tension... the two brothers refusing to even look the other in the eyes.

"So... You're just that Fucken stupid?" Leo sat, gently holding the crocheted turtle between his fingers, not looking up to meet his brother's glare.

"No one asked you to get involved..." Leo didn't care... This was Y/n they were talking about, the girl he GAVE... He gave to his brother... to hold, cherish, love... not whatever was going on now...

"I don't give a damn... You hurt her... and not only emotionally with you leaving all the damn time but physically... PHYSICALLY!!" He roared, moving to stand... Raphs brush-off attitude pissing him off.

"I KNOW! Alright, I messed up... but what do you want me to do? Can't fucken turn back the clock and undo it!"

"I gave YOU!" Leo was furious... breathing heavily, his eyes pinned to Raph... and his fists clenched tightly at his sides... a poor excuse of a way to try and hold himself back. With a deep breath, he thought his words over carefully before continuing. "I gave you... the greatest girl of all Times," Now standing over Raph, turtle set aside safely... "I helped you get her... I played wingman... and yet," He couldn't stop them... not the tears of rage that threatened to fall... From the sheer... Embarrassment, rage, longing? He didn't know, but he knew they were for her. "I thought she'd be happier with you... but she's terrified of you... How can you sit there and just... be okay with that?" He was breathless, truly trying to fathom how Raph could do such a thing.

"There's someone else..." It was hesitant... nothing but a mere whisper, but to the leader... it was like Raph had just screamed in his face...

"What..." He watched as Raph panicked, having heard the words spoken for the first time. The soft gasp that left his lips after admitting such a thing... "Hehe... hahah! ARE YOU KIDDING ME?!" Now grabbing him by the front of his plastron, Leo forced him to stand... "YOU'RE GIVEN THE CHANCE OF A LIFETIME TO BE WITH A GIRL THAT TRULY WANTS YOU..." He took a deep breath... but his screaming continued... "AND YOU GO SLEEP WITH SOMEONE ELSE!?"

"I DON'T KNOW OKAY... She was... just there and... I couldn't contain myself," He didn't try to argue back... he had no right to. Now after... Knowing,  knowing that he was literally cheating on his older brother's dream girl.

"I really... Really feel like killing you..." Leo's voice was dark... and venomous... "but... At least she knows," The smirk that took over Leo's face was... devilish, like he had caught an angle in his sinful trap. With a slight shift of weight from one foot to the other... Leo revealed what was behind his large shell.

"what do you... Y/n..." Raphs eyes widened... There she was... in all her beautiful glory... but it was tainted. Her tear-stained face, the way her eyebrows furred in rage, and how her eyes were dark... oh so dark.

"Thank you, Leo... I should've known..." She sighed, bringing her sleeve up to wipe her face. "I... I'd like to go home now," Her voice was even... as if she wasn't heartbroken... like who she thought was the love of her life, didn't just admit to cheating on her.

"I... Wait!" He went to shove Leo out of his way, but the hero in blue refused to move...

"You've done enough..."

"YOU SET ME UP!! WHY? Y/N!" Raph screamed, "PLEASE... let me explain!" Still struggling against Leo, Raph reached out for her, watching as she only stared at him...

"Why? You... admitted yourself," All this time, "The number of times... you left me...were they all for her?" He could see the pieces all falling into place... "Left me in bed... Date nights..." She chuckled, it was humorless but still...  "All for her?"

"I... Okay, fine but scream at me, hit me... Something!" He wanted a reaction from her... fear, rage, sadness... anything to show she cared, anything... that would give him some type of amo to make her stay.

"No... I," She sighed softly, refusing to look away from him... staring at his distressed eyes over Leo's shoulder... She knew she had to face him now... or else she'd fall for his trap all over again. "I am done... wasting tears on you..." With a shove, he fell back onto the couch, his weight causing it to strain under him. He moved to get up but stopped...watching as Leo moved, leading Y/n to his bedroom, arm around her shoulder... holding her close to his chest.

"Don't... bother us Raph," Oh he didn't miss the way Leo smirked. The way his arm tightened ever so slightly or how it moved from her shoulder to her waist.

 Raph sat down... he deserved this. He got too greedy and now... he was left with a girl who didn't take the time to remember how he liked his sandwiches... how he hated sweaty bandanas, or that he loved the simple act of just... existing together. Raph knew Leo was the one that healed her heart... "All for me to break it again.." He scoffed... knowing no matter what, he lost, he lost the girl, the gracious chance of a love life... to his brother... the guy that should've had her first... Accepting his sadness... he sat on the couch... allowing the tears to flow and the soft sobs to leave his throat... He wanted no sympathy... only to wallow in his own anguish at the opportunity he fucked up.

(OKAY OKAY... I hope that was up to expectations... this was hard to write like.. really hard wokring on the next chapter for my Villian Deku x Y/N HAVE A GREAT DAY AND REMEMBER TO EAT, DRINK, AND LOVE YOURSELF BYEEEEEE LOVE YOU ALL)

Let me know!!! I have these 2 ideas… but not sure which one to go with (mind set on the 2012 turtles)

Her Healed Heart

Master List

(HELLOO this is a Leo x fem Reader/ Raph x fem Reader) (2012-2016 turtles in mind) Kinda angst, but over all its happy! (kinda) Anyways, warnings: Fighting (Physical), Yelling, crying, cursing

        Raph sat panting and grunting with each fist he threw at the dummy hanging in the dojo. He was so concentrated that he failed to see the girl slip in with a tray of snacks and a water bottle. Y/N took a seat in the corner of the dojo, not wanting to interrupt his concentration. She watched in awe as his muscles flexed with each punch and beads of sweat dripped down his shell and onto the mats below. She could see his mind racing, replaying past fights, moments where his family was in danger, April, Mikey, Donnie... and unbeknownst to her, the memory that got his blood boiling, was when he had to watch her dangle from the hands of Shredder. It enraged him, the fact that he was too weak to protect her, watcher her fall 5 stories, until his idiot leader of a brother swept in and saved the day.  Lost in his little world, his punches got more aggressive, sloppier, and deadly. Scaring both, the dummy was sent flying into the tree that had grown from the grounds of the sewers. "AGH" He screamed in frustration, eyes locked on the dummy that was now embedded into the tree. "stupid fucken Le..." He bit his tongue the second he saw her sitting there. "Y/N?" His was flushed, due to both his breathlessness and the fact that she had caught him in such an outbreak.

There she sat, her eyes refusing to leave the placement of the dummy, "Amazing" she mumbled marveling at his sheer strength. Her eyes held nothing but admiration. She let out a soft eep when she finally met his eyes, "Sorry... I brought you a snack" She smiled at him, gesturing to the tray next to her. "You've been in here for hours, and you need to keep hydrated!"

He only continued to stare at her, allowing his brain to process what was happening. "uh Right," He quickly sat down in front of her, eyes refusing to leave the tray. "Sorry, for not noticing you earlier" He whispered before moving to bring the food to his lap.

"It's fine!" She smiled, watching him as he brought the half sandwich to his mouth. "It's spicy tuna with chili paste spread on the bread.... I know you like it spicy" Raph could feel his face heat up slightly, she had remembered his favorite food, the exact way he liked his sandwich, and she had noticed that he hadn't left the dojo all morning. "Oh and a new bandanna, thought you might want to change your sweaty one" And she knew how much he hated the feeling of a wet bandanna, it was the only thing he hated about training. With a small blush, he extended his hand and gently took it from her small hands. Gently running his fingers over the fabric, still slowly chewing. With a thick swallow, he returned his gaze to her.

"You like me or something doll?" He half-jokes, half-praying she did. He watched as her face began to turn a shade of pink, softer on her skin tone than when it appeared on his. He adored everything about her, from her soft y/e/c, to her delicate nose, and the shade of lip gloss she wore. Oh, how he envied it, to be allowed to sit on her lips all day and be complimented for it.

"Raph... what... how.. no wait" She waved her hands around, trying to clear her thoughts for a second... "Have you ever thought about getting into a relationship?" He raised his head and quirked an eyebrow at her question.

"I guess.... never really thought that it would be an option for me..." He huffed, setting the empty tray back on the floor before crossing his arms. "I mean, I'm a giant mutant turtle with anger issues... nobody's ever, really wanted that I guess" His mind was now reeling with all his insecurity... ones he's kept buried deep within the wall of his emotions, set to never be let out. But yet, she had broken it down so easily. It was as if he wanted to be vulnerable with her, he wanted her to know every little detail about him. "I mean, I have this cold scaly skin that's fucken green, I have anger issues that always end up with me wanting to hurt someone..."

"I like your green skin, it's cool and feels nice when you rub against it... I like your temper... it shows how much you care for your family and friends" She leaned ever so closer to him, allowing the heat from her skin to clash with his cool temperature. "If you didn't... I'd think you'd be okay with letting your family be harmed, but you're always the first to protect them" She gently reached for the top of his hand, but pulled back when she got too close, "You haven't been loved properly by another person... because of how your family was treated in the past..." with a huff she looked up into his bright green eyes. "I-I'd like to be that person..." There she had done it. She had confessed and now with her heart in her throat, she waited... and waited... and waited...

While her hope was dwindling fast, Raph's mind was speeding up.... She had liked him back, like actually wanted to be with him, he couldn't believe it. Was the universe testing him? Was he allowed to accept something so selfish? to take her away from a man of her own breed? He was struggling, his mind at battle with his heart, and oh so badly did he want his heart to win. "I...I uh"

"I-it's Okay Raph, I understand if you don't... feel the same." She held a soft smile, but yet a world of pain surrounded her.  "I-I'm sure you prefer a girl like April! Pretty, in shape, feminine" She sighed.  Her words snapped him out of his daze, hearing her talk in such a way broke his heart.

"Wait! No no no... I don't find you attractive... No wait Fuck!" He messed up, to miss such a crucial word. He thought she was beautiful, and Angle sent as a gift for him... and yet his chance was here but he screwed it up. "Y/N listen I meant" He tried to rectify his misspelled words but she only stood, facing away from him.

"I-It's okay Raph..." She had tears flowing down her cheeks, but her smile was still bright. "I mean... you're a super hero" She laughed running a hand through her hair. "I can understand your higher standards" His heart dropped, and she smiled while accepting his accidental rejection. He couldn't let her walk away, not like this.

"Y/N wait please!" He tried to get up as fast as he could but struggled with his shell hitting the wall. How could he be so stupid, quite possibly the only girl he'd ever meet who found him attractive.... and he's made her cry. "Please, stop" He made up his ground and quickly grabbed her arm before she could walk out of the Dojo... "I do... I uh" 'Damn it Raph come on!' he screamed in his own head.

"Raph... Please don't feel obligated to return my feelings simply because I'm crying" She glanced down at his hand that firmly grasped her wrist. Her eyes were bright red and her face stained with tears, fresh ones replacing them by the second.  "I... I can take a rejection Raph... but please don't make it worse"

"Please Y/N just look at me please, Let me find my words" He squeezed the slightest bit tighter, still making sure her wrist was unharmed.

"Raph... I accept your rejection... I understand Okay?" Her tone was a little harsher, proof that her heart was indeed broken... Raph quickly moved his hand to her shoulder, allowing him to turn her around to face him, but he never got the chance to. As he began to gently tug on her shoulder, another green hand was placed on her other, keeping her from moving. Eyes looking up from Y/N, he was met with electric blue eyes staring back at him.

"Raphael... You've done enough" The beautiful leader in blue, his older brother, his greatest competition... Leonardo. Of course, where Y/N was Leo wasn't that far behind, they were best friends... enjoyed the same shows, the same foods, same color... but yet she stood there confessing to Raph...'And not me' Leo's heart hurt at her tears... He knew of her feelings for his hot-headed younger brother... and it hurt him every time she spoke so fondly of him. "I'm assuming she confessed?" With quick hands and a gentle tug, Y/N was settled into his chest, comfort, and safety.

"Get lost Leo... this doesn't involve you" Raph was angry now, how dare Leo stick his damn nose into his business.

"It does when My best friend is in tears..." He growled, moving softly to pick Y/N up princess style.

"I DIDN'T MEAN TO" Raph roared. So many emotions running through him, anger, embarrassment, regret, love... but yet he couldn't decide which one to allow to take control. However, he didn't get another word out because Leo was already long gone.

(Mini Time Skip)

Raph sat pacing the Dojo...he hadn't left... not after seeing Leo run off with you like that. He grumbled and huffed, he needed to fix this.... for once he had the chance to get the girl. And he'd be damned if he didn't try.

"Her favorite flowers are Gerbera diasy... she likes them because they remind her of you..." With a sharp turn, Raph was face to face with Leo once again... "I convinced her to come back here in like 30 minutes... prep for it" That was all he had to say, he left shortly after... 'He helped me' Raph was thankful for his brother's intel, of course, he did, he wanted them to be happy.

(Another Time Skip)

Raph sat at the kitchen table, white Gerbera diasys in hand and a nervous look on his face. "You got this... You got this" He tried to hype himself up, paper with the words he wanted to say squeezed tightly within his hand in case he got tongue-tied again. He was physically shaking... and it only got worse when her light footsteps caught his ears. "Y/N" He whispered out as she walked through the kitchen entrance.  He didn't miss the way her eyes narrowed, still red from her crying.

"Raph I" She tried to speak but he had the courage to he had to speak now.

“Y/n… I’m sorry for* with hands dragging down his face, how could he have messed up so bad, “Please, that time in the Dojo... I messed up! I couldn’t find my words” He gently lifted her chin. However, her eyes remained narrowed. "I can't give up.... not when I'm this close to getting the girl" He gently held out the flowers. "I... I like you Y/N so much" he watched as her face slowly began to lighten... "Y-You.. Ugh, You left me awestruck dammit! To think a girl like you wants me!" He was out of breath... panting in the still room as she continued to stare at him. A small smirk slowly took the place of her frown... reaching for his hand, she held it tightly within her own.

"Was that so hard?" Her voice was snarky, but yet it was music to his ears.

"Yeah actually... it was" He huffed before bringing her close, holding her close to his chest. Staring down into her eyes... "But I'll never have to do it again so I'm happy" He laid a gentle kiss on her forehead, allowing his lips to linger... enjoying the touch and smell of her hair on his nose.

'Perfect... she's happy and that's all that matters' There in the corner, Leo stood. The fearless leader never showed sadness, but he allowed the tears to flow... Within the clasp of his hands were her true favorite flowers, Red Gerbera Diasys... Not white, Red. 'Their fiery color reminds her of you... Idiot' He silently scolded his brother from within his mind. He was gonna make a move, had a plan all set but instead he chose to watch. Watch as Raph gets the girl, watch as his only chance goes out the window... He watches as her heart is healed, and no matter how badly it hurts, how much he'd cry seeing them together... However many pieces it took for his heart to break into, as long as she stayed whole, he was satisfied. 'Be happy... I'll always be here when you need me' With that, he walked away unnoticed, and with a dissension, he'd regret for a lifetime.

(Okay... Leo is my favorite so it kinda hurt making this But ugh, felt like i had too. HOPE YOU ALL ENJOY!!!! I'LL CATCH YOU ALL LATER )

Thank you all for the support and love!!! HAVE A GREAT DAY AND REMEMBER TO EAT, DRINK, AND LOVE YOURSELF BYEEEEEE LOVE YOU ALL

Still working on this! Just had a bout where I had to follow my creative whims so I wouldn't end up with burn out, but I'm here now! With a few finished backgrounds! If you want to remain spoiler free, don't look down there.

Gotta continue work on Leo routes, and my first patch release estimate may have been naive, considering what was six months has dropped down to three in what feels like the snap of a finger. Still, thank you for the questions I have received and the good luck wishes!

Also for those of you who do check out the back ground art, feel free to guess what they're for or where they may be ~

Self promo don worry about it

I realized I've been beating myself up with the thought that I can't write unless it's for something, and its clean and finished, which isn't good. This is my first step to try and get out of that!

Rise Raph × reader angst!

Red Red Red

Word count: 363

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Your vision blurred, the bright things brighter from the cold that teased the edges of your eyelids but didn't dare fall. The pain had been so much just moments before, but too much morphed into nothing, either thanks to shock or something else. You flinched and turned away from an impact you heard to your left, only for light to breach the rubble that had you trapped.

"Softy!"

You recognized that gruff voice, even further recognized the red masked face that looked at yours.

"Hey, Raphie," you murmured, only for the use of your voice to push discomfort up your throat until you coughed it out.

Raphs eyes looked so small, so scared, focused lower on your body rather than your face. You hated seeing him so uneasy. He was rarely free of unease. You felt so bad for doing this to him.

His hand must have touched you, as the buzzing ache turned sharp and ripped a screech from your chest. He pulled his hand away immediately, eyes glancing to the red you saw painting his skin, only for him to instead look at your face. You wondered, same as him, how you were the one so calm in this moment. Tears fell from his eyes, fat and wet and soaking his mask a similar color to his hand.

"I-I can't- not you," he begged, your name coming out a strangled sound.

"You won't," you replied, doing your best to smile just to sell it. He didn't say he didn't believe you.

His hand, painted in red, colored your skin and hair as he brushed his thumb on your cheek. You leaned into his touch, your tears finally falling aswell. It surprised you when his lips crashed into yours.

And he smothered you, and you wanted nothing more. Your lips moved against his like it'd be the last time, knowing it'd be the last time, desperately trying to convey just how much you love him. He returned it with an even greater level of care, trying to convey just how much he needed you.

Everything faded away in that kiss. The world, the pain, sight and sound and touch.

Raph sobbed alone.

I realized I've been beating myself up with the thought that I can't write unless it's for something, and its clean and finished, which isn't good. This is my first step to try and get out of that!

Rise Raph × reader angst!

Red Red Red

Word count: 363

°•.•°

Your vision blurred, the bright things brighter from the cold that teased the edges of your eyelids but didn't dare fall. The pain had been so much just moments before, but too much morphed into nothing, either thanks to shock or something else. You flinched and turned away from an impact you heard to your left, only for light to breach the rubble that had you trapped.

"Softy!"

You recognized that gruff voice, even further recognized the red masked face that looked at yours.

"Hey, Raphie," you murmured, only for the use of your voice to push discomfort up your throat until you coughed it out.

Raphs eyes looked so small, so scared, focused lower on your body rather than your face. You hated seeing him so uneasy. He was rarely free of unease. You felt so bad for doing this to him.

His hand must have touched you, as the buzzing ache turned sharp and ripped a screech from your chest. He pulled his hand away immediately, eyes glancing to the red you saw painting his skin, only for him to instead look at your face. You wondered, same as him, how you were the one so calm in this moment. Tears fell from his eyes, fat and wet and soaking his mask a similar color to his hand.

"I-I can't- not you," he begged, your name coming out a strangled sound.

"You won't," you replied, doing your best to smile just to sell it. He didn't say he didn't believe you.

His hand, painted in red, colored your skin and hair as he brushed his thumb on your cheek. You leaned into his touch, your tears finally falling aswell. It surprised you when his lips crashed into yours.

And he smothered you, and you wanted nothing more. Your lips moved against his like it'd be the last time, knowing it'd be the last time, desperately trying to convey just how much you love him. He returned it with an even greater level of care, trying to convey just how much he needed you.

Everything faded away in that kiss. The world, the pain, sight and sound and touch.

Raph sobbed alone.

Under Streetlights One Year Anniversary!!

That's right, the first chapter of my first rottmnt x reader fic, my first fic ever, came out a year ago today! I'm so glad for the readers I have and for the friends I made thanks to this fanfic, thank you all. The fact I reached thousands of hits and hundreds of kudos amazes me. I read and even reread most of the comments too <3

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Under Streetlights chapter 22 has been posted!!

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Under streetlights is my rottmnt reader insert polyfic, where reader is with each of the turtles!

[THEY ARE NOT TOGETHER NO TCEST]

Hello! How are you? I hope you are doing well Idk if you are open for request, if not you can ignore this one :)

I’d like to ask for a rottmnt x reader hc with a reader does kisses the back of the boys hand a lot, like those gentlemen-y acts but as a sign of thank you, appreciation, courting as well… maybe reader and the boys have mutual crushes and that’s their way of showing affection / desire to kissing them before actually being more courageous into asking to kissing them? Lol hope that makes e sense

Hope you have a good day

This seems absolutely adorable omg yes

Requests are open! Send an ask if interested :>

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Raph

When you kiss the back of Raphs hand saying goodbye it first catches him off guard

He finds it endearingly silly how you take his large hand in yours to do so, the contrast adorable in his eyes

After the next few times it flusters him, feeling your soft skin on his rough hands from all his years of fighting. He starts looking away to try and hide his wobbly smile.

You get more courageous and start doing it for any little greeting, like seeing him just when entering a room, even if you already saw him when you first got to the lair.

He becomes rather forgetful, needing to refocus on what he had been doing.

He finds himself often looking at his hands where you most recently kissed him, swearing that he could feel the ghost of your lips on his skin and feeling giddy.

One night when leaving you kissed his hand as usual, but you lingered, purposely looking up at him. He glanced at you since you were taking longer and finally it clicked for him.

The next time you're over, before you could reach for his hand he's picked you up in one arm, still offering his free hand to you. You giggle and kiss the back of his hand, and afterwards he kisses your lips, his fingers lacing through your hair.

Leo

The first time you kiss him across the knuckles he freezes for a moment and then asks, "uh, why so formal?"

Your reply of 'just cause' has him over thinking it until the next time you come over, though it still doesn't click

The second time, he takes your hand and does it back, never one to be outdone on grandeur, and he always greets you the same since then

Each time he tries to come up with a different greeting to say. "Hola mi estrella," "ciao, bello/bella," "hi there, hot stuff!"

Even if your usual reaction is to just laugh at him, he still loves getting any reaction out of you.

All his attempts to fluster you seem like they never even phase you, while when you kiss his hand he's fighting off a wobbly smile.

With this dance going on for so long, finally you meet his greeting with, "surprised you haven't gotten the hint and just kissed me already."

He can't save himself this time and actually sputters, which has you laughing at him again. He huffs and pulls you into a dip, saying "you literally asked for it," before kissing you.

Donnie

The first time you kiss his hand he is flabbergasted. Jaw dropped, almost looking disgusted but really he's just confused. You go to apologize and he shakes his head, stuttering out, "ah, um, it's fine."

The second time you're slower with it so he can pull away if he wants, and he doesn't, so you go through with kissing his knuckles and are only a little surprised when he does the same.

Is he doing it as a part of masking? Is he doing it to hide his blushing face? Is he doing it in an attempt to return politeness? Perhaps an amalgamation of all this and more.

He is in his lab corkboard and red stringing about these incidents now every time after you kiss his hand, trying to math out every little detail and why the sudden change.

Both of you are pining oblivious shy idiots honestly- reading social cues is already hard enough but with the two of you fumbling no one is getting anywhere any time soon.

Thankfully, or maybe not so, Mikey and Leo make a plan and bring Donnies theory board out into the lair on a night you're visiting.

Donnie is plotting murder while you're stuck not knowing how to react because it's just so romantic that he was trying so hard to figure it out.

You grab his hand and kiss his knuckles again, only to reach out with your other palm and place it on his cheek as you kiss him. His murderous intentions get put on the back burner.

Mikey

He's curious first but uncharacteristically he freezes stock still when your lips meet his skin. After you wave goodbye he's melting, almost falling to the floor.

The second time you do it you're greeted with a large smile, and Mikey asks giddily, "are you gonna be doing that every time now?" You answer yes.

He's looking smug as he holds out his hand for you ahead of time now, which always makes you laugh, which always makes him smile wider.

He's dancing around the lair. His brothers are rolling their eyes. He's like a teen girl losing their mind over a boy band just from your goodbyes.

On day he asks if he can have another. "Hmm, I don't know 'angelo, what's in it for me?" He plays along and offers a kiss to your knuckles in return. You take this deal, and he knows he's won with how much you blush.

He does this a few more times, just to absolutely 100 percent make sure and totally not just because he likes seeing you blush. It's the same song and dance prior every time, too.

The next time he's smiling so wide you know he's planning something. When he asks for another, you open your mouth with a similar protest to before, and he cuts you off. "I know, I know, a kiss for a kiss. I want both of mine first, though."

You raise an eyebrow, but shrug, taking both his hands to kiss the tops of each. After this he takes one of your hands in his, but the other is under your chin, and he kisses your lips.

MAY I REQUEST HCS OF THE BOYS WITH THE SCENARIO OF CUDDELING READER OR READER CUDDELING THEM AND READER JUST GIVES THEM KISSES ALL OVER CUZ THEY FELT LIKE IT? :DD

LOVE YOU AND YOUR WRITINGS <33/p

First time I'm doing this let's go!!

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Raph

He knows he's big so he'd be perfectly fine with being the one to wrap his arms around you, but when you get ideas on how to comfort him/cuddle him, he'd absolutely melt.

One of these ideas is sitting crisscross for him to lay his head on your lap, or laying down while he lays his head and shoulders on you. After the first time you suggested it, when he's feeling small he'll approach and tug on your shirt as a signal that he needs this specific affection

During those times you pet down his head, shoulders, and upper shell, kissing him every now and then, and he soaks up all the love like a sponge.

On the other hand, when he scoops you up for cuddles it surprises you at first. He'd hold you close and rub his cheek against yours before saying hello or he missed you

Once in an attempt to get back at him for surprising you, you grabbed his cheeks and peppered him up and down in kisses, taking special care over his eye.

He almost dropped you, scrambling to right his hold on you again only for the two of you to laugh and the shower of affection to continue.

Raph rumbles when he's happy, like how a cat purrs. There's no exact reason? He just does.

Loves playing with your hair. Even if it's short, he's running his fingers through it constantly. Just so soft.

Leo

Leo, leo, leo, he'd absolutely adore picking you up and spinning you around like in the movies as a greeting, then just holding you to him while you talked.

After that he's actually less touchy than his brothers, surprisingly even Donnie. Leo just moves too much, and so while the others could enjoy cuddling on the couch, he likes to pace and talk to you instead, hands thrown in many different directions as he tells a particularly interesting story.

That being said, sometimes Leo falls apart after being so go-go-go all the time, and in those moments he will lay with you on the couch, arms around your back while he sniffles against your stomach. You hum and play with his mask tails, knowing not to urge him to talk, but being there for when he decides to share.

The other most often time is sleep. Oh, to hold you in his arms in his bed, he passes out in a minute tops. He's a comfortable pillow, so you don't mind.

One of these times you're laying with him in bed, he kisses your forehead, and so you do it back. He kisses you again. You kiss him twice more. He goes to continue this only for you to absolutely smother him in smooches, making him laugh and kick the blanket off the bed.

After that he gets more physically affectionate, if only for the game that's been made between the two of you. He'll sneak up and grab you around the waist, holding you kicking and screaming while he covers your cheek and neck in quick little kisses that have your laughter added to all the noise.

You'll follow up three days later and tackle him mid reading a comic, one hand on his cheek while you cover the other side of his face in lip marks. You put on lipstick just for this, the ultimate win.

Instead of getting embarrassed about it when he's eventually informed he is absolutely ecstactic. Running to the bathroom to look in the mirror, taking dozens of selfies to always have the evidence of your love even after he needs to clean it off. He's bouncing off the walls running from room to room and you're laughing your ass off watching him.

Donnie

Donnie holds onto you as though you are a full body stress ball. Of course he's careful and doesnt squeeze too much, but he will have his arms around your middle no matter where seated if you would let him.

Even when he's working on something, having you in his lap with your arms around him is heaven.

Not one for words when it comes to emotions, his physical affection actually takes precedence, especially since you feel like a comfort instead of the action feeling forced.

One moment when he's working on something small, you pull back to look at him. He does a small double take, then already feels somewhat flustered at your sudden obvious focus on him. You get a wicked grin, and before he could ask you're covering his face in kisses.

He's somewhat yelling (quietly) in a panic only because he doesn't know how to respond to all the affection, only for the chair both of you were on to topple. First he worries and asks if you're okay, then the both of you are laughing after you reassure him.

Even after the first time, every time you decide to peck at him he's internally panicking not because he dislikes it but because it's just so much and aaa he feels so loved

Because of this being a repeating behavior, though, eventually kisses become a stim of his, so the moments he is sitting with you in his lap are now filled with kisses to your forehead ears and cheeks when he particularly feels he needs to get excess energy out to focus on whatever project he's busy with.

Also thinks you are a godsend for his sleep, being able to hold you let's him actually rest. After the kisses became stims though, he's now kissing your forehead every 13 seconds and you giggle and remind him he's supposed to be sleeping.

Mikey

Mikey could spend hours either holding you or with you holding him and he'd never want it to end and never get bored.

Coming back from a mission he will tackle you to the ground, the two of you laughing as you now sit in a tangled mess of limbs that he is in no rush to leave.

In the kitchen you'll come up behind him and hug him around his stomach at which he'll start to sway, only for the both of you to laugh when he sways too hard and makes both of you stumble to catch your balance again.

One of these moments you start peppering kisses over his shoulder and cheek, only for him to turn around and return that energy tenfold, making you laugh and scream as it tickles.

After that, the kisses become a part of the greeting tackle, though it's hard for him to keep it up with how much he's laughing and smiling too.

Going to sleep, he actually stays awake. He loves witnessing just how comfortable you are with him, being able to sleep in his arms or with him in yours. He wants to remember every moment with you, how could he possibly sleep through this?

Speaking of him in yours, you're able to comfort him and allow him to feel small without that need to prove himself to arise, you are such a safe space for him to lose his need for independence built into his person by his somewhat overprotective brothers.

He's so physically affectionate that even if he can't be holding you because he's working on art, he'll search you out to sit with his side against you or in your lap before he gets to drawing. You're usually happy to watch over his shoulder.