I’ve Never Been The First Choice

The Skinny on Skinny

**this post deleted so I’m reposting it** So I recently lost around 8 lbs/4 kg (I think it’s getting closer to 10 but patience is a virtue) and I wanted to make a post about it. I did this during the isolation period aka without any formal use of a gym.

I do follow a bunch of ~thinspo~ accounts as actual inspiration but I am definitely against all eating disorders. Actually, as I read some of the content I get kind of frustrated for them - I understand there’s much more to an ED than food, but some of the things I read are so illogical! The extremist approach to losing weight often only results in gaining weight: don’t eat for a day and a half and then binge on 5000 calories…. like… you would literally be better off just eating 2000 calories for both days. Not to mention a more pleasant daily life.

Not here to shame though, just here to provide genuine tips. I do not condone any unhealthy lifestyle, but I also don’t agree with a lot of the “expert opinions” on nutrition. The bottom line is you need to focus on an overall balanced diet. Don’t worry if you skimp on a certain macro nutrient during one meal (or day) and instead focus on overall balance.

I see articles in magazines where they bitch and moan about how each meal must be accompanied with a balance of carbs, protein, and fat. That thought process is stupid and will lead to over eating. Your two focus points when you eat should be (1) satisfying yourself and (2) intuition based fueling yourself. Going off any other metric - time of day, technical nutritional content of plate, fear you’ll be hungry later, etc. - should be ignored.

Examples:

Just because it’s “lunch time” doesn’t mean you have to eat. If you’re not hungry, who cares! Just skip lunch today! Eating because the clock or society tells you to will lead to over consumption.

You want a muffin for breakfast. Yum. Have that muffin… but “oh no! You don’t have any protein! Better eat some eggs!” NOOOOO!! If you really only want a muffin, just have that as a single item and let it be satisfying! Adding extra food to “round out your meal” is just adding extra calories without necessarily satisfying you more

You have a busy evening coming up - you had a good lunch though, and feel satisfied… but feel like you should still have a big snack in preparation for your busy evening despite not being hungry. NO! Let the hunger come later, don’t eat now just because you’re afraid of it! If you’re really THAT scared, pack a granola bar, but who knows?! Maybe you just won’t be hungry later, and that’s ok too!

This mentality alone will make weight loss easier. Freeing yourself from artificial metrics of food consumption makes a calorie deficit a lot easier, I promise.

However, at the end of the day, losing weight is hard. A calorie deficit is difficult and requires patience, discipline, and a healthy mental approach to eating. You will sometimes feel mildly deprived as you lose weight - but it shouldn’t consume your entire life.

I am currently three main tools during my weight loss process:

Food tracking: MyFitnessPal

This one I use to give myself an honest reflection of my day. While I’m sometimes tempted to lie or skip recording something, I realize that’s not doing me any favors. Some days it sucks when I am over 2000, but then I remind myself that one day of eating won’t make me fat OR skinny. The key thing I look for is the weekly goal because it prevents my progress from being derailed by one bad day. It also allows me to see how I can still occasionally enjoy treats and junk and still maintain an overall calorie deficit and lose weight.

Activity Tracking: Apple Watch and/or my Fitbit

I do this just to make sure I’m moving around. I think staying generally active has been a major boost for my mental health during the isolation - but I also like how being goal oriented. I go at least 5 miles a day - some through formal exercise, some from just walking around my place. I also will input any of my formal fitness into MyFitnessPal on a metric of 1 mile (walked or ran) is -100 calories. NOTE: I only do that as a secondary method of tracking, I still am loyal to my total calories consumed NOT “net calories.”

Weight Tracking: A RENPHO scale

I really like my RENPHO scale for a couple reasons. For starters, they provide a lot of interesting secondary metrics, including BMI, BMR, subcutaneous fat, muscle mass, etc. While I take a lot of the metrics with a grain of salt, it keeps the process fun for me. I also LOVE how it automatically compiles the data into trends so you can see progress! Furthermore, it keeps me honest in that I have to record a weight every day. No skipping. It just keeps me more honest than when I use to track it by hand I would skip days where I was a bit heavier.

So ya… that has been my “weight loss” journey so far. I know it’s not SUPER impressive, but I started at a healthy BMI so an extreme transformation would be both unlikely and unhealthy.

I do plan to keep going - I both like my progress and I think it’s overall a good time to focus on this… like, when else can I avoid restaurants and other fattening activities so easily 😂🤷🏻‍♀️

I hate my parents for fatshaming me and encouraging me to get disordered eating patterns. I hate them for fueling my ed. I hate them for hating my body and making me hate my body. I hate them for making me diet at the age of nine even though I was thinner than my class mates just to teach me how a "real women diets" (even when my mum fails at every diet attempt) I hate them for not caring, for pushing me even further, for wanting me to stick to my diet rules.

I hate them for destroying my body, my life, everything I have

That girl aesthetic:)

10 things to do if you feel like binging

1. Listen to music

2. Paint your nails.

3. Do at least 1 homework assignment

4. Go outside and get some air

5. Text/FaceTime a friend

6. Go on tumblr(my favorite😛)

7. Take a shower or bath

8. Play with a pet

9. Do your makeup

10. Do a chore like dishes, or laundry

10 low cal foods to eat

1. Popcorn (50 calories per cup)

2. cucumbers (16 calories in a cup)

3. Rice cakes (30 calories per cake)

4. Lettuce(5 calories per cup!!!)

5. Pickles(16 calories per cup)

6. Carrots( 45 calories per cup)

7.broth (16-ish calories per cup)

8. Watermelon(46 calories per cup)

9.Egg whites(16 calories per egg-also high in protein)

10. Plain non fat yogurt(137 calories per cup)

10 things to do after you binge

1. Take a deep breath, it’s okay

2. Drink at least one cup of water

3. Go on a walk

4. Try and write down what foods made you binge so it won’t happen again

5. Clean up any messes you made

6. Take a shower

7. Write down a plan on how not to binge next time

8. Do something productive

9. Purging isn’t worth it

10. Try again tomorrow❤️

Neue Diät: ich darf nur an denen Tagen auf tiktok, an denen ich weniger wiege als am Tag davor

Tw!!!!!

Self harm

So this evening, i felt the urge to self harm when my parents made me feel like shit BUT instead of cutting myself like i wanted to, i went for a run and enjoyed a warm shower after that :)

I am so happy because to me, it is always a huge problem to resist the urge to self harm :)

why i enjoy working out as an ana

reason 1: lose weight

obviously you burn calories while working out.. this helps you achieve a lower net cal number and in the end a lower number on the scale

reason 2: something to do

when im bored i tend to eat. but if you get yourself out of the kitchen and into a gym or where ever you choose to exercise. its a distraction that will ultimately be good for your health and weight

reason 3: the showers

this helps me to get into the shower when my depression doesnt want me too. for me getting into a long cold shower after working out makes me feel hydrated and calm. cold showers burn more calories and showering also gives you something to do besides eating

reason 4: feel better about yourself

whenever i binge i make sure to exercise a lot. it makes me feel like even tho i just ate a lot im losing alot of those calories right now

My personal bingo

For you:

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Anyone else out here who has an ed but is obsessed with the 'that girl trend?

If there is someone, message me if you want to be friends and motivate each other to work out, eat small & cute portions and work out :)