Thigh Gaps.

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Self harm

So this evening, i felt the urge to self harm when my parents made me feel like shit BUT instead of cutting myself like i wanted to, i went for a run and enjoyed a warm shower after that :)

I am so happy because to me, it is always a huge problem to resist the urge to self harm :)

10 things to do if you feel like binging

1. Listen to music

2. Paint your nails.

3. Do at least 1 homework assignment

4. Go outside and get some air

5. Text/FaceTime a friend

6. Go on tumblr(my favorite😛)

7. Take a shower or bath

8. Play with a pet

9. Do your makeup

10. Do a chore like dishes, or laundry

10 low cal foods to eat

1. Popcorn (50 calories per cup)

2. cucumbers (16 calories in a cup)

3. Rice cakes (30 calories per cake)

4. Lettuce(5 calories per cup!!!)

5. Pickles(16 calories per cup)

6. Carrots( 45 calories per cup)

7.broth (16-ish calories per cup)

8. Watermelon(46 calories per cup)

9.Egg whites(16 calories per egg-also high in protein)

10. Plain non fat yogurt(137 calories per cup)

10 things to do after you binge

1. Take a deep breath, it’s okay

2. Drink at least one cup of water

3. Go on a walk

4. Try and write down what foods made you binge so it won’t happen again

5. Clean up any messes you made

6. Take a shower

7. Write down a plan on how not to binge next time

8. Do something productive

9. Purging isn’t worth it

10. Try again tomorrow❤️

I wanna be scary thin but I can’t even get normal thin.

I’m doing this “diet” because I know I can’t restrict too low, otherwise I’ll end up binging. Also having a strict plan keeps me motivated. Lets lose the weight mah dudes

Once im skinny, i will spend all day posting pictures of my body lol

how to stay safe

okay so i am making this because even though i have bad days/nights (like today) recently i’ve been feeling like my goals can actually be reached! & i’m going to give my best three tips that i use myself to help you all not feel so crappy.

disclaimer: what works for me may not work for you, please don’t use this as the guide for losing weight. also i know it doesn’t have a huge effect coming from me since i literally said i use these tips but please guys recovery is always the best option. but if that isn’t happening right now i at least want to help some of you, this is being done with my very best intentions. so without further ado...

eat to lose weight: sounds dumb & i don’t really know why this works other than what we all hear (“depriving yourself for so long can lead to binges” & then you ruin any fasting/restriction yada yada) but i haven’t fasted in so long & i’ve finally moved down from being stuck on like a plateau of not losing weight. obviously fasting every once in a while can have benefits but most of the time i eat twice a day. i eat no less than like 700 maybe (i don’t know i don’t count calories often) and have been steadily dropping. plus a lot of energy goes to your brain & i want enough power for good grades. it’s hard to get past but you do not have to completely limit yourself to reach your goals. work smart not hard!

*veganism/vegetarianism: other than the obvious health benefits eating a vegan/vegetarian diet can make it a lot easier to eat a lot more food but not a lot of calories. feeling so full can be scary but knowing that you are putting good foods into your body can be rewarding and help you give yourself bigger portions and feel satisfied. i became vegetarian, not to cut out foods i simply just do not like meat, and my meals are just fine.

allowing leeway: probably the biggest “no no” in all of our minds. honestly this was hard for me too. but like i said, we know that being deprived of certain things makes us want it more & if/when we allow ourselves to have it we may over do it. so to avoid that i do a thing where in a certain situation where there’s a big fear food (lets take a birthday party with cake being served as an example) i ask myself “will i have access to more soon?” since my mother is vegan & i am vegetarian there’s not many sweets and such in the house so for me, the only time i would have cake offered again is at another celebration. so i most likely would allow myself a small piece, maybe only a few bites if i was getting to in my head, and i would just be done with it. it really has (kind of) helped to stop obsessing over all the goodies that are sold everywhere all the time.

*veganism/vegetarianism is more than a simple diet. they require some research on how to safely incorporate new and unfamiliar eating habits into your life. if considering please do it safely and correctly, if you don’t you can cause more harm than good so be careful.

please remember all of this was written with my best intention and i really do just want to help.

4 months n 20 lbs later

The Skinny on Skinny

**this post deleted so I’m reposting it** So I recently lost around 8 lbs/4 kg (I think it’s getting closer to 10 but patience is a virtue) and I wanted to make a post about it. I did this during the isolation period aka without any formal use of a gym.

I do follow a bunch of ~thinspo~ accounts as actual inspiration but I am definitely against all eating disorders. Actually, as I read some of the content I get kind of frustrated for them - I understand there’s much more to an ED than food, but some of the things I read are so illogical! The extremist approach to losing weight often only results in gaining weight: don’t eat for a day and a half and then binge on 5000 calories…. like… you would literally be better off just eating 2000 calories for both days. Not to mention a more pleasant daily life.

Not here to shame though, just here to provide genuine tips. I do not condone any unhealthy lifestyle, but I also don’t agree with a lot of the “expert opinions” on nutrition. The bottom line is you need to focus on an overall balanced diet. Don’t worry if you skimp on a certain macro nutrient during one meal (or day) and instead focus on overall balance.

I see articles in magazines where they bitch and moan about how each meal must be accompanied with a balance of carbs, protein, and fat. That thought process is stupid and will lead to over eating. Your two focus points when you eat should be (1) satisfying yourself and (2) intuition based fueling yourself. Going off any other metric - time of day, technical nutritional content of plate, fear you’ll be hungry later, etc. - should be ignored.

Examples:

Just because it’s “lunch time” doesn’t mean you have to eat. If you’re not hungry, who cares! Just skip lunch today! Eating because the clock or society tells you to will lead to over consumption.

You want a muffin for breakfast. Yum. Have that muffin… but “oh no! You don’t have any protein! Better eat some eggs!” NOOOOO!! If you really only want a muffin, just have that as a single item and let it be satisfying! Adding extra food to “round out your meal” is just adding extra calories without necessarily satisfying you more

You have a busy evening coming up - you had a good lunch though, and feel satisfied… but feel like you should still have a big snack in preparation for your busy evening despite not being hungry. NO! Let the hunger come later, don’t eat now just because you’re afraid of it! If you’re really THAT scared, pack a granola bar, but who knows?! Maybe you just won’t be hungry later, and that’s ok too!

This mentality alone will make weight loss easier. Freeing yourself from artificial metrics of food consumption makes a calorie deficit a lot easier, I promise.

However, at the end of the day, losing weight is hard. A calorie deficit is difficult and requires patience, discipline, and a healthy mental approach to eating. You will sometimes feel mildly deprived as you lose weight - but it shouldn’t consume your entire life.

I am currently three main tools during my weight loss process:

Food tracking: MyFitnessPal

This one I use to give myself an honest reflection of my day. While I’m sometimes tempted to lie or skip recording something, I realize that’s not doing me any favors. Some days it sucks when I am over 2000, but then I remind myself that one day of eating won’t make me fat OR skinny. The key thing I look for is the weekly goal because it prevents my progress from being derailed by one bad day. It also allows me to see how I can still occasionally enjoy treats and junk and still maintain an overall calorie deficit and lose weight.

Activity Tracking: Apple Watch and/or my Fitbit

I do this just to make sure I’m moving around. I think staying generally active has been a major boost for my mental health during the isolation - but I also like how being goal oriented. I go at least 5 miles a day - some through formal exercise, some from just walking around my place. I also will input any of my formal fitness into MyFitnessPal on a metric of 1 mile (walked or ran) is -100 calories. NOTE: I only do that as a secondary method of tracking, I still am loyal to my total calories consumed NOT “net calories.”

Weight Tracking: A RENPHO scale

I really like my RENPHO scale for a couple reasons. For starters, they provide a lot of interesting secondary metrics, including BMI, BMR, subcutaneous fat, muscle mass, etc. While I take a lot of the metrics with a grain of salt, it keeps the process fun for me. I also LOVE how it automatically compiles the data into trends so you can see progress! Furthermore, it keeps me honest in that I have to record a weight every day. No skipping. It just keeps me more honest than when I use to track it by hand I would skip days where I was a bit heavier.

So ya… that has been my “weight loss” journey so far. I know it’s not SUPER impressive, but I started at a healthy BMI so an extreme transformation would be both unlikely and unhealthy.

I do plan to keep going - I both like my progress and I think it’s overall a good time to focus on this… like, when else can I avoid restaurants and other fattening activities so easily 😂🤷🏻‍♀️

So my father just forbid me to eat cake on Easter Sunday because it has too many calories

FIRST, I know the calories, he knows nothing about them

SECOND I am at a normal/healthy weight, he is oberweight

THIRD, I can make myself purge, ge doesnt

FOURTH, I will go for a long run in the evening

FIFTH I wont eat breakfast on Sunday

But well, i guess ill just watch everyone eat cake because now there is a 0% chance that i will eat cake in Front of my father

Lmao i wish i was dead

Diet Change!

So, this is the diet I was initially going to follow:

However, 300&400 calories are just too low for me. I had 300 calories today and I ended up binging (and purging), as it always happens when I eat under 500 calories.

However, the first 5 days of the diet were very good. Based on the first week of that diet, I have come up with this one:

I ate and worked out like this last week and I lost 1kg (2.2lbs) and 1cm on my thighs. So, from now on, I’ll just repeat this diet weekly until school starts.

Since I don’t like starting a diet in the middle of the week, I’ll start tomorrow (Wednesday) on day 3, with 900 calories. I’m already one week into the challenges, so I’ll just keep doing them.

Hopefully, I’ll be able to stick to this one, because school is closer and closer. Only 32 days to go. If I get to 53.5kgs by September 10th, I will be the happiest person ever, because that’s been my gw for sooo long. Ugw is 51 or 50, but I know I realistically can’t lose that much until my deadline.

SW: 57.5kgs

GW: 53.5kgs