If Alcohol Bad Then Why So Tasty? Why It Make Me Happy :(

Can't decide if I actually wanna weigh myself again or not

Cuz I really don't want to get disappointed

ever since i was eight, i wanted to be skinny

i’m not giving up now

if ed, why no skinny

Lazy or a procrastinator? I don't know! I don't care! It all leads to me being the same useless, ineffective, inefficient piece of shit!

Oh and I just had my two Sims kids taken away because they were kinda ugly and now I'm left with the favourite..... and yes, it's what I did instead of working on my physics paper :D

I look a little different each day and at this pointy I have no clue what I really look like

I had my first strawberries these time of year. They were fucking huge and juicy and so, so red and they reminded me of that huge ass banana I had the other day.

Fruit are so fucking good they're like my candy

(I don't even like that packaged junk anymore, but now when I crave it's oats and yoghurt and honey and - thankfully - fruit, which is still super easy to binge on, even if it's healthier)

daily affirmations:

i'm not chopped

a burger is not going to kill me

the opinions of my classmates don't matter because i'm not gonna see them after we graduate

i do not have a secret crush on my teacher

i'm not a pedophile and smiling at someone younger than me doesn't make me a pedophile

i am not secretly being filmed

i'm not a secret serial killer

nobody is stalking me

it's not a bad life, it's just a bad day

THIS exactly omg

why is my entire dash just edblr, wlw nsfw txt posts, occasional sh pics and every now n then something NORMAL 😭😭🙏

Still at my Grandma's... And I fucked up. Usually when I'm here, I either do really well or straight up binge, and it's appears that this time, I do both. Yesterday, I did really well actually but today was horrible. To be fair, no one in my family ate "normally" today, it's the ore-Easter shit, but I mean, they're not disordered, so I feel even more like a faker rn 😭

It's Easter tomorrow and I'm really scared. I'm feeling motivated to do well, but my family wants to go out for lunch tomorrow. I'll just get something from the kids's menu, skip breakfast and only eat a small dinner with my family if I can't avoid it.

And I really have to work on my steps! I feel awful for neglecting them, but I have a really important school project I need to work on... It feels like am excuse, but logically, it really isn't.

I mean, the day after tomorrow my Dad and I will leave already again, and the rest of the fam will stay with my grandma still, andy Dad will leave too after a few days, so my other sister and I will be home alone for a couple days at the end of the holiday s, which is great, since she doesn't really like me and won't force me to eat with her or something. Maybe she'll expect me to cook, because she's prepping for some exams, but that's fine Ig. I mean, I'm kinda planning to fast, but I'll also have to work on that school project, and I'll have to plan my eating depending on how much brain power I'll need then lol. So I have to finish as much of the project as I can now so that I'll be fine fasting/doing high res then.

Bruh why is this post so loong

I really love math and physics actually