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Latest Posts by highdrivingsarah - Page 4
Reblog if you already fucked up in 2019
https://www.democracynow.org/2018/12/13/you_are_stealing_our_future_greta
Proving a point to my boyfriend.
PLEASE REBLOG if you (male or female) believe it is perfectly okay and natural for a guy of any age to cry
I’m just so fucking miserable rn.
I want to be calm again.
Lol I’m all of them
Capricorn Gryffindor
Out of curiosity people, I’m conducting a survey:
Reblog this and tag your star sign and hogwarts house
I’m a Sagittarius Slytherin
I’ve read „everything always works out in the bed“ and thought, well yeah thats true
via @extramadness
Moving out
I seeall this stuff from my childhood. So many things where I realize, everything I did from my 8yrs old self, was coping.
I had a shitty childhood, but really
With 8 I cut the eyes from old pictures out.
With 9 I drew black over my father in every picture I own of him.
With 10 I wrote in a diary telling it how I hate everyone and everything.
With 12 I got letters from my bullies telling me how worthless I am, I spit in them.
And with 15 I wrote a letter how I will kill myself.
I found this now, cuz I now move out I just realize how bad I actually was. I never fully understood why everyone is so impressed and stunned bymy behavior and casuality about all of this. Until now.
And now I’m sitting here, almost crying, realizing how fucking messed up I was. I am. How fucking good I am at coping and ignoring. How fucking stupid I was thinking I wont get better.
God, I cant fully comprehend the fact that the little girl, destroying her possessions out if anger, trying to kill herself, always mad and angry at the world. The little girl who was insuch a bad spot, was me. Is me idk.
Im still so fucking mad. Still so fucking vulnerable, I never realize how vulnerable, because I well, just keep going, keep living.
Is it a good coping mechanism, stubbornness or just ignorance? Idk all I know is I’ve got better.
My depression and anxiety will never go fully away again. But I’ve got control and freedom.
Me rn, but i finished it and now i dont know what to do with life
Except mybe going to work tomorrow...
God I hate my life
you ever get sucked into a fic so bad that you read when you walk you read when you lie you read when you pee you read when you’re in rhe middle of a conversation and you read when you drive and when you crave sleep but still read and the first thing you do in the morning is opening ao3 to read that fic and then the fic ends and your life seems empty like a shell thrown out of the sea
via @defineyourgrind
I didnt know i needed to hear this, i tried to have sex last weekend but it didnt turn out well.
Thank godness for the guy who i was with for not making it awkward and not saying anything.
Shoutout to people who aren’t merely disinterested in sex, but are actually terrified of it
Your fears are valid and you should not let that stop you from being the wonderful, beautiful person you are
Your fears are valid and you should not be ashamed of it, no matter what anyone else says
First Time
This moment when you start having sex for the first time, but you are so afraid and scared and don’t know what to do and feel bad about the boy who is trying to loosen you up and calm you down.
And then you fall asleep and later be afraid of showing that you are awake in the middle of the night.
And then you suddenly realize you’re probably really gay and demisexual (like you have been questioning) and now you just want to run out of his house and disappear but cant because his parents are awake and he is a light sleeper and he is actually one of your best friends and you would feel bad about just running away but also feel guilty for leaving him with blue balls.
I hate myself rn for this so much. Where is my confidence gone? Ah yeah right it always has been a fake mask, I forgot.
I’m a slut for snoopy aesthetic pictures
I want to try an experiment
Like or reblog this if you think it is ok for guys to wear girls clothes and girls to wear guys clothes keep scrolling if you think it is not ok
Do i need to add more??
Mood
Summer break is a funny thing, I get slapped by my extroverted side too often, sit the whole day at home being bored and then suddenly start questioning life.
Overall, I’m pathetic and don’t know how to survive starting work in September. And I’m stressing over my driving license test.
Honestly same, but sometimes its my own mind telling me how ungrateful I am. And then i start questioning social structures.
Please tell me I’m not the only one who sees how absolutely fucked up the world and our lives are. Like, we spend our entire life studying or working our asses off and then we die. But every time I bring this up to someone, they make me feel like the most ungrateful and awful person in the world just for thinking it.
My life in a nutshell
„Veni, Vidi, Reliqui“
„I came, I saw, I left“
That’s probably my life quote and my life in a nutshell.
Even though I don’t really know what to do with it.
I don’t really like my brother but nowadays I relate to him more than I want to.
And it scares me like hell, because I never thought I’d get why he is so aggressive and mad about my mom.
I just want to figure life already out without getting scolded.
Life I guess?
I fucking hate my family rn, my grandma is a bitch who destroys everyone’s life. My aunt is an alcohol addict and doesn’t care about anyone, my brother has a aggression problem and hurt my mom really bad, and my stepfather is a mix between my mom and my grandma.
Also we’re not talking about my biological father cuz just nope.
And to top this, my mom has depressions and is having a bad week taking all out on me.
How do I cope with it? Well guys, I grew some balls (imaginary ones cuz I’m a girl) and just don’t bitch about it, sure I have bad days too but it’s 2018 bitch we deal with our problems.
Wine bottle
My mom accidentally dropped a bottle of wine, after that she came to me.
Mom: „Look, this is a good bottle, stable and well-built“
Me: „I wish my life would be that stable and well-built”
She laughed at me. Like literally laughed, thanks mom; thanks.
Aesthetically pleasing
Studying
Today I decided to study for my driving license.
Turns out that it’s not different from studying for school and after 2 question I suddenly had a clean room, showered and even changed my bedsheets. What a surprise, right?
When you’re a night owl and an early bird at the same time it’s destined that you are tired 24/7
The more years go by the sadder this post get
TW Don’t kill yourself today
Don’t kill yourself today
Because your Netflix trial still has a week left
Don’t kill yourself today
Because no one else will finish off the chicken in the fridge
Don’t kill yourself today
Because I know for a fact that Starbucks is releasing a new Frappuccino sometime next month
Yes, your mother will miss you
Yes your bully will make a sappy Facebook post about how what a a wonderful person you were
And yes
Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem
You know that
You’ve known that
Everyone and anyone has been shoving that down your throat since they first learned what the word suicide meant
So don’t kill yourself
Until you finish your shampoo and conditioner at the same time
Don’t kill yourself
Until Doctor Who is finally cancelled
Don’t kill yourself
Until you tell someone your best pasta recipe
Don’t kill yourself
Because I will keep coming up with reasons for you not to
And I need you
To hear all of them
Don’t kill yourself
I love you
You’re important
It’s a bad day
Not a bad life
There is more to this
The world will keep spinning on its axis without you
But
Think of all the sunrises you’d miss
I know this sounds pointless
But when you’re sitting in front of everything deadly you own
Revising your goodbyes
There will be too much darkness
To see anything else
But this is not about seeing anything else
This is about turning off the lights
This is about finding the bed instead of the noose
This is about giving yourself one more day
Even if it takes ten thousand of those
One more morning’s
Until
“I can’t wait for tomorrow”
This is about staying alive
Because there’s gonna be a new Marvel movie
No one should miss that
This is about staying alive
Because the future is coming
And it’s ready for you
I don’ t need you to see it
I just need you to believe you can make it
Until then
- Hannah Dains
Me
One part of me: “I can’t wait to go back to school. I want to focus and study and get a really good paying job and build a stable future.”
Another part: “you’re fine with your current job, just work hard and keep saving and live a little while you can take time off and go do shit since your job is hella flexible.”
Another part: “Fuck everything. Runaway. Becoming a wandering nomad, busk for money, see the world, live off the land, fuck people (but not literally cuz you don’t talk to people what even?)”
… I need a nap.