Going Onto [insert Random Streaming Service] To Finish Watching A Show I Started… Only To Find Its

So I started watching manner of death. I’m on episode 3 (about halfway through) and like, damn. Spoilers included so the topics in the show will be discussed.

Just, what the fuck. Like they be all like it’s solved, all the evidence points to her committing suicide. To the doctor who was, you know, threatened attacked intimidated. And they what? Just expect him to stop and accept that? Excuse me? After he was literally threatened? Like, they must realize how bizarre that sounds. You know if they only trashed the evidence and didn’t interact with the doctor at all, while he wouldn’t give up, he also wouldn’t have even more reason to investigate and know for sure that there’s more to the case. Cause come on. It’s one thing to have physical evidence and context clues it’s another to be literally told “hey, stop looking into this or we’ll kill you”. And then assaulted. Realistically while that would be terrifying one would not feel safe after that and would be clued in on that whatever happened to her will probably happen to him too. Just, aaaaauuuuuuugggghhhh. Okay okay. Continuing the episode now.

Well, I was rewatching Pending Train so may as well use pending as my name. But that was taken so added hope to it cause that’s all I could think of and wanted that to be the underlaying feel of how I feel when I go on here so, yeah. :3

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AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAUUGGHH

okay I’m good now. Had a lot of work to do (finals and I may have fallen a bit behind). All good now. Just needed to scream in anguish for a moment

Oh, sorry, found myself doomscrolling on your page. Pay no mind to the flood of likes. I am merely enjoying your humour and presence in this online world.

I realized something. The reason I don’t like going out while I’m sick is cause normally I have to pretend I’m fine. I don’t know since when I started to do that but I think it has to do with school. Healthy or sick one always had to go and I didn’t like to make noise cause it felt like disrupting the class. Now though, just going out and being upfront about the fact that I’m sick but I can’t afford to not be here honestly takes a weight off me. It’s like a yeah I’m sick, it sucks but it is what it is. And then I don’t have to pretend to be healthy. I can just exist in my misery without feeling like I’m being a bother. Or at least not as much. It’s nice.

Not sure how many people play Fire Emblem: Three Hopes but like Lindhart, Shez, and Petra I find are a wonderful combination. And I need to see them together.

Random thoughts:

How do people recognize others? I rely heavily on hairstyles. I rely on hair a lot. After a while I’ll start to recognize faces but mainly it’s hair. I watched Scott Pilgrim versus the world the other day and it took me a good few minutes to recognize the ex’s boyfriend as the same actor as Adam from legends of tomorrow. Ah let me give another example, last twilight and vice versa have the same leading actors. I watched last twilight and then vice versa but I didn’t recognize either actor until a good way through the first episode. During the pandemic, if someone changed their hair I would have no idea who they were. For one, masks so I can’t even try to recognize facial features and for two, if the hair changes I don’t recognize them. I know facial blindness and other stuff exists. I wonder what all other stuff there is though. The more I see a person the easier it is to recognize them but still, the hair comes first in recognition and then the facial structure. Well that’s just what my brains thinking about tonight. Have a wonderful day/night!

Just finished Beyond Evil! And now I shall ramble about this show. Warning spoilers ahead, kinda. I try to stay vague ish. Also if I misspelled their names my apologies, I’m trying.

Ah Hyeuk! Fucking love you. He’s such an interesting character. His freaking personality was just so different and refreshing to me. I just really liked his scenes. Plus I’d love to see what shenanigans he and Ju-won would get into together (if they treated each other like siblings. Like, I love to imagine the scenarios cause like Hyeuk was there for a lot of shit. Also he can be such an ass and I love him for it.)

All the characters are just so freaking cool! I got attached real quick, after well, doubting literally everything. And the music! The fucking music whenever anything happened was just so wounding. And the ending song felt haunting to me after all the events. It’s so fucking beautiful though. Okay okay. I apologize for how much I’ve cursed but also I just really wanted to ramble cause man. What a great show. Now, would I be able to handle Strangers from Hell? I don’t think so. But I’m kinda interested but also… probably not the best idea for me to watch it. Hmm… maybe I’ll just check out the fanfiction and gifs people have of it to see. Ah but I need at least a smidge of happiness in the shows I watch. So I’ll look into it later. Anyway, back to Beyond Evil.

It’s just such a good fucking show man! To me at least. I loved it. Also highly recommend Move to Heaven and The Good Bad Mother. Let’s just say I’m a sucker for found family and apparently highly enjoy suffering through shows that are emotional rollercoasters.

Okay okay. That’s all for now. Ah I really wanna draw these characters now. Welp have a wonderful day! I shall be enjoying the emotions from this show.

What’s your favorite color?

Don’t have one? Don’t know?

What’s your preferred colors? Color preference?

More open. Works better. More options of colors. Nice.

Don’t have an opinion on the topic? Don’t worry. You don’t need to be super opinionated about everything. People seem to think you always have to be apart of one side and against a different side even if they’re the same thing. I like blue. I like red. If you ask me I’ll say pink. Cause I like pink too. And blue and red are equal to me so I can never decide between them. Pinks a comfort color to me. Though there can be too much of it (looking at you designer Barbie, why would you make the entire building pink? Even I cannot handle that much (if that’s your vibe though good for you))

Ah I just wanted to ramble. People can get so caught up in things that they forget they can enjoy other things too. You don’t need to have an opinion on everything and you don’t need a reason to like something.

I’ll leave it at that. Ah got my thoughts out. Have a good day!

Playing solitaire with myself and loosing, ah joy. TvT