I Want To Have This...

Ate an apple yesterday 😭. And feel I failed @n@ and my best friend.

@n@ is for me more than the desire to be pretty. @n@ is for me the deep desire to purge away my body. It is a deep spiritual process for me. It is no 3d, it means liberation and the deep desire to be pure. (I respect ALL motives of you guys here)

Hey there, 57 kg—didn't see you coming! It's like I've shed some of those weighty worries and gained a sassy strut instead. Now, to conquer the world one calorie at a time, with humor as my accessory and hope as my favorite outfit piece!

the feminine urge to stay gone. be unseen, be unavailable, be unheard of. disappear.

quiet rules for quieter days

– choose discipline before desire. let control be the first bite.

– brush your teeth, then once more. mint tells hunger to wait outside.

– cold water fills the places where want once lived.

– chew until your thoughts dissolve, not the craving.

– let the scent satisfy. the will to say no is the real indulgence.

– move your limbs until the noise fades. burn to remember you’re alive.

– stand beneath cold water. reset. rinse the need from your skin.

– scroll the still bodies, the soft lines, the quiet frames. become the goal.

– let bitter coffee kiss your throat. green tea if the silence needs steeping.

– curl into the ache. breathe through it. you’ve done this before.

– remind yourself: it’s not about food. it’s about becoming less.

Perfect "eating day" today where I nearly did not eat 😆

Best for fasting are: lots of work, lots of water and lots of sleep. And my muts supporting me and my bff.

I AM DETERMINED AND READY TO LOSE *extreme* WEIGHT IN 2025

⚠️ only reblog if you’re serious.

71 hours

Recovering from a flu means being able to come back to @n@. And I missed her.