– choose discipline before desire. let control be the first bite.
– brush your teeth, then once more. mint tells hunger to wait outside.
– cold water fills the places where want once lived.
– chew until your thoughts dissolve, not the craving.
– let the scent satisfy. the will to say no is the real indulgence.
– move your limbs until the noise fades. burn to remember you’re alive.
– stand beneath cold water. reset. rinse the need from your skin.
– scroll the still bodies, the soft lines, the quiet frames. become the goal.
– let bitter coffee kiss your throat. green tea if the silence needs steeping.
– curl into the ache. breathe through it. you’ve done this before.
– remind yourself: it’s not about food. it’s about becoming less.
https://newatlas.com/health-wellbeing/dentalslim-weight-loss-lock-mouth-shut/
When I am fasting, I wear a bracelet which is locked on place. The key is hidden at home. As long this bracelet is locked, I cannot eat. I wish I had a kind of device (gag?) in my mouth which could be locked preventing eating.
Eastern was not good. Fuck holidays. But now on track again. One meal every second day.
Feeling exhausted. 3d needs patience
@n@ is for me more than the desire to be pretty. @n@ is for me the deep desire to purge away my body. It is a deep spiritual process for me. It is no 3d, it means liberation and the deep desire to be pure. (I respect ALL motives of you guys here)
Ed's are the most lonely and isolating illnesses there is. You are accepted only if you're successfully recovering, otherwise you're automatically problematic and promoting. Your body and habits around eating are triggering. You're demonetized for simply having a sickness.
People with ed's will always find their triggers, no matter how hard you try to block, report and all. But the thing is, you have to find these spaces. Closed spaces. If we don't have those, people will take their ed's on TikTok or other platforms where they will eventually pop up to everyone to see. If someone looks for these spaces, they're already sick. No one will GET sick by looking at someone's blogs.
These spaces let's you be honest, vent, have people and friends that all go through same things. You're less lonely. These spaces can be toxic, but when you find the right people it can be uplifting and actually good for your mental health: you're not alone.
These days people are mostly nice and pro recovery. M34nsp0 is something only kids post these days anymore. We connect, we vent, we help each other. Until WE are ready to recover. Forced recovery will never work the same as choosing recovery yourself. Reporting everything makes everything worse: you get isolated again, you're lonely again. Most people who D13 from Ed's d13 from taking their own life... It's the loneliness and depression that takes them eventually.
So if you see someone's Ed page, let them have it. Block it if you find it disturbing, but that can be the only thing keeping them alive atm. Just because YOU feel like it's not good, doesn't give you the right to take that safe space, friends and support from them.
If you need to find it, the sickness is already there. We will take these things to another platforms if these ones gets taken away. And then they will pop up to everyone.
So, our businesses are here, yours is there. The problem comes when you're also there, in our businesses. Protect your peace and block. Thank you.