Today Is Again A Day Where The World Seems Unbearable. My Family Demanding And Preoccupied Of Their Emotions,

We're not like them. We're @na butterflies 🦋

- delicate, weightless, untouched by the heaviness of the world. While others sink,

we float. While they feed their cravings, we feed our willpower. We live on empty, on

quiet, on control. Our bodies are fragile, but our minds are sharp. They'll never

understand this beauty — the beauty of bones, the art of fading. We are not broken.

We are becoming. 🦋

new rules just for me:

(im writing these here cause i hide tumblr on my phone so no one can find it)

1. no more than 500 cals a day

2. no liquid calories only water

3. vitamins and supplements every single day no exceptions

4. 10,000 steps a day

5. if youre eating a meal dont finish it

6. no snacking

7. home workouts every night before bed

🤍🤍🤍

Perfect "eating day" today where I nearly did not eat 😆

Waking up and feeling dedicated and strong. I will fast the whole weekend, at least until Sunday. The goal is as everyday to purge away all superficial and diminish to pureness. But now I know I am not alone with it.

the feminine urge to stay gone. be unseen, be unavailable, be unheard of. disappear.

Everybody wants something from me. The world is fucking up. I want only run away. I can't. But I can decline this fucking world by declining eating. This really helps. It's not 3d. It's liberation.

All I need is -5kg less and I can breathe

-10kg less and I can smile

-15kg less and I can live

-20kg less and can break free and dream forever

Ate an apple yesterday 😭. And feel I failed @n@ and my best friend.

I have an important exam tomorrow which lasts all the day. Normally I would not eat at all today, but then I sleep not good. So I might need to eat, but I will try to eat as late as possible. I hate it.

Not eating means freedom and relief from superficiality. Not eating means pureness