Everybody Wants Something From Me. The World Is Fucking Up. I Want Only Run Away. I Can't. But I Can

Ate yesterday. Kind of binging. But when I think back, things have changed. I ate much less. I was satisfied much earlier. Today I have 800g more, that will disappear again BC I eat one meal every second day. So no bad feelings. 56.7, BMI 21.08 today.

I have an important exam tomorrow which lasts all the day. Normally I would not eat at all today, but then I sleep not good. So I might need to eat, but I will try to eat as late as possible. I hate it.

World is getting easier. I give the command to somebody and he just commanded me not to eat the next 100 hours. And I will follow that command

Happy today. Making food for my family, but didn't eat anything. It was no fight, I simply was not tempted. After a binge Friday a relief

When I am fasting, I wear a bracelet which is locked on place. The key is hidden at home. As long this bracelet is locked, I cannot eat. I wish I had a kind of device (gag?) in my mouth which could be locked preventing eating.

36 hours without food now, running 10k every day. Feels good. My body disappears. Disturbing things: sleep is not good and I am freezing all the time (here is still winter). BMI 20.4 now.

Today is again a day where the world seems unbearable. My family demanding and preoccupied of their emotions, demanding adaptation to their egocentric needs, the world like a pile of rubbish, people exploiting people, people killing people. I am not depressed, but simply want to become less, being invincible, my body should be halv the body i have now. I want to be a shadow only.

Flu and Ana is a bad combination

@n@ is for me more than the desire to be pretty. @n@ is for me the deep desire to purge away my body. It is a deep spiritual process for me. It is no 3d, it means liberation and the deep desire to be pure. (I respect ALL motives of you guys here)

Couldn't write it better

How to trick your parents/family you at3🥒

First of all,I’m not promoting any ed’s, I am not responsible of anything that happens if this goes wrong. Prioritise your health,and if you’re not feeling well stop any moment. Always look after your body.

Think about your goal. Your parents love you,so they want you to be eating. Well,it doesn’t always work like that. Here are my tips on how to skip that one high c4l me4l..or more.

1. Ask for money to eat out.

Oldest trick in the book. You get closer to your gw,and make money out of it. One of my personal favourites. Let’s say you have to go somewhere in the morning,you skip breakfast telling your parent you’ll pick something on your way.

Works: max twice a week,they’ll say that you have to eat real food and not just takeaway.

2. “I don’t like being watched while I eat”

I love this one. I’m actually pretty awkward when someone’s eating with me. Tell the parent you’re closer with that you feel uncomfortable eating with others,so ask for permission to eat after everyone finishes. Then,you can eat a little,throw away some food,or whatever method you prefer.

Works: pretty much everyday,unless you are in a rush and need to eat with others. Doing this often makes it look more real.

3. Eating in your room

Isn’t this the most obvious one? Do whatever you want to that food if you’re alone. Make sure to bring the “empty” dishes to the kitchen,but not too quick.

Works: max once a week,most parents don’t like the idea of eating in the same room you sleep in

4. Prepare your meals yourself

You don’t have to know much about cooking to make yourself a delicious l0w c4l meal. You can even cook something that won’t raise an eyebrow and then throw it away.

Works: not so often, maybe once in two weeks, you don’t wanna seem obsessed with food

5. Using time in your favour

Let’s say none of these worked. You’re at dinner with your family. You pour yourself a big glass of water. You quickly chug it before starting to eat. You start by cutting every piece of food in small pieces, while talking to your family. As you’re about to put that fork in your mouth, you come up with a new subject. You close your mouth,but don’t take any bite. Use a napkin to throw your food in. Move the food in your plate to make it seem like you ate.

Works: not every time,but worths a shot. Make sure to e4t only when they’re actually looking at you

6. Water bottle method

This one worked so great for me, it’s crazy how it works every time. Get a colored bottle,not the usual transparent one. Make sure the lid is big enough. Empty the bottle and hold it close to you. After every 2-3 bites, “drink” some water. Spit the food inside the bottle. You can hold some of the food in your mouth then spit more out. Everyone fell for it.

Works: anytime, any meal, with anyone. One of my best tips

Hope this helped, and I’ll come up with a part 2 if anyone wants it. Let me know if my tips worked! x