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Sometimes, I think about the fact that Odasaku and Atsushi were the only two people Dazai really cared about to ever ask why he wanted to die. (Oda in The Day I Picked Up Dazai and Atsushi in 55 minutes). Kunikida and Chuuya just acknowledged it and believed it to be a part of him. But Odasaku and now Atsushi wanted to know why. They wanted to understand him because they truly care about him and see his goodness more than anyone else and alifodishfsdlfd
Something about how the "evil" half of double black are the ones who push it onto the next generation.
Mori decided to make Chuuya and Dazai work together because Natsume did for him and Fukuzawa.
Dazai forcing Akutagawa and Atsushi together.
You could attribute this to Mori and Dazai both being manipulators who are trying to utilize people for their benefit, but I think it's more than that. They know what it feels like to have that light in their lives. To partner up with "good" person. So much so that they want to push it onto the next generation, because they want the one they see themselves in to have that light in their life. Dazai wants Akutagawa to have Atsushi to temper that darkness. Mori wanted Chuuya for Dazai to give him a reason to live. Maybe one day Akutagawa will be pushing a different version of skk in some other lost soul he sees himself in, trying to save him in the only way he knows how. And the cycle will continue.
I love how every time Fyodor opens his mouth to speak in the last few chapters Atsushi's face is just like "No no no no shut up shut up SHUT UP-"
Unfortunately, he does not.
I really, really hate when people say that Dazai doesn't care about Akutagawa and that he never did.
Don't get me wrong: I'm not saying that what Dazai did to him was right, nor that it was justified. He treated him awfully, he abused him, and I'm not trying to insinuate that his treatment was fair, or that his motives excuse the actions. But what I am trying to say is that the motivation behind it wasn't cruelty, both in the past and present.
For starters, this is the interaction when they first met, from the short story The Heartless Cur:
He told him right off the bat that he wouldn't be treating him well. He never forced Akutagawa into anything, and even offered to give him and his sister enough money to live the rest of their lives content, never to hear from him again. But he told Akutagawa he might be able to give him a reason to live-something the boy had been lacking his whole life. By giving him a "master" as the short story says, someone to look up to and follow. Again, the way he was treated was brutal, but Dazai's intentions weren't evil.
Now, I don't want to do a "Dumbledore said calmly" meme, BUT... check out the difference between this scene in the anime vs this scene in the Dark Era light novel (apologies if the audio sync got a little messed up)
Dazai sounds frustrated, like Akutagawa isn't worth the breath it takes to speak of him. But vs the light novel...
Yeah. Pretty different. This scene came after the one where Dazai punched and shot Akutagawa for killing the soldiers, forcing Akutagawa to learn to use his ability in a way he never had before. And then now- "Dazai grinned from ear to ear" - that sounds a lot like he's proud rather than ashamed. He clearly does think Akutagawa is powerful (as Atsushi says later on, Dazai acknowledged him long ago). And then he admits that he truly feels he could be powerful, and that Akutagawa would destroy himself had he not stepped in to train him.
Now. This doesn't make what he did right, and we see from Beast how Akutagawa might have turned out if someone like Oda had been the one to find him and take care of him. But the fact of the matter is, Dazai believed he was doing this for Akutagawa's own good. And this was the world he lived in; Dazai was incapable of treating someone like Akutagawa well in the place he was in mentally. He saw his own darkness in him, and therefore, couldn't treat him the same way he could Odasaku and Ango. But he did care for him, and more importantly, he wanted to help him learn to stop killing.
Which brings us to the present.
Dazai's actions towards Akutagawa, especially at the beginning of the series, are of a different nature than they were in the past. He doesn't hit him, but he riles him up. Tells him Atsushi is better than him with the intent that he'd go after him brutally. Hangs up on him, makes him desire Dazai's approval, essentially manipulating him in both the finales of season two and three, as well as in season five. And this is for one reason that is expressed in beast: he believes that Akutagawa and Atsushi would work extremely well together, but that they'd need to fight in order for their souls to truly connect and for that trust to be built up. Dazai admits that he'd been considering them as duo since the moment he met Atsushi-which proves he never forgot about Akutagawa, or even considered him second rate in terms of power. But he felt that he needed to push Akutagawa in order for the two of them to connect, putting both of them in danger, yes, because he knows that the two of them possess strengths that balance the other out, both in literal attacks and in their philosophies. Which is why he looked so happy at the end of season three when Atsushi tells him about the deal with Akutagawa not killing for six months. Atsushi was able to reach out to Akutagawa in a way Dazai never believed himself capable, even if he had to manipulate both subordinates to achieve it. And again, this isn't to say that Dazai is right for using the both of them like that, or treating Akutagawa like dirt in order to force a relationship with Atsushi. But it wasn't down of out malice or apathy, that Dazai never truly cared for him and only for Atsushi. Because if that were true, he wouldn't bother to have them work together the way he did. It also comes down to the fact that Dazai himself grew as a person since he met Akutagawa. And this is most evident in the finale of season two, when he puts his hand on Akutagawa's shoulders, smiles genuinely and says "you have become strong." Only after does Akutagawa temper his anger and desire to kill to work with Atsushi to protect the city, Dazai calls him strong in more ways than one. Because all he ever wanted for Akutagawa was, in a way, what Odasaku and the rest of the agency was telling him in beast: to control the raging beast inside of him before it consumes him.
This isn't to say that the abuse was justified. That it was ok for Dazai to insult him and use him in order to achieve his goals. But I really hate when people say that Dazai never cared for Akutagawa, because at the end of the day, it's not true. And that's what really hurts the most about abuse-most of the time, it's done out of love than malice.
I think having the Agency members being accused as terrorists really adds a lot to their character and just how far they're willing to go in that type of situation.
Like Kunikida stealing a car (that had auto-theft insurance)
Like Fukuzawa making a deal with Mori, even willing to trade a member to the Mafia if it meant their safety.
Like Atsushi willing to make a deal with Fitzgerald if it was to get back his friends and save the Agecy.
And then there's Ranpo...
"We're terrorists now? Cool, that means I get to blow stuff up!"
The only acceptable way for bsd to end is with Atsushi standing over Fyoghurt with a knife, Epic the Musical Vengeance Saga style.
"You can't kill me."
"Exactly!"
*Cues angry stabbing while Dazai holds onto Fyoghurt to stop his ability from taking over Atsushi*
"HOW DOES IT FEEL TO BE HELPLESS-"
One thing I love about bsd is the fact that you can have multiple pairs of the "hate each other but trust each other" trope, and they all feel different.
Fukuzawa and Mori are exes, Dazai and Chuuya have an on-off again relationship, and Atsushi and Akutagawa are in middle of their enemies to lovers arc.
Wanted to draw chuuya and aku together and the one on the right was a warm up
Inspired by the recent bsd chapters
You won't guess my fav bsd ship...
Dazai hitting the griddy
I LOVE CODE GEASS
Notice how Higuchi has the most detail
Lelouch = Akutagawa's outfit
Higuchi= Kallen's outfit
Atsushi= Suzaku's outfit
Akutagawa =lelouch's outfit
More crossover!!
NOT SHIPPING ATSUSHI AND KYOKA
The meme
Cuz it's spooky month
Getting out the older stuff now to post here
The villian of villians will save us
Pictures from one of my tiktoks
Atsushi: Hey, Kuni, why does Dazai keep calling (Your SI/OC) his senorita?
Atsushi: Is there something I'm not getting?
Ranpo: I call them my sugar mama.
Astushi: Ranpo, that's not.....
Ranpo: There's simply no other person out in the world that gives me a sugar rush like they do.
Astushi: ........
Kunikida: So, no wonder you can't finish your paperwork. They're the one giving you candy throughout your work day.
Ranpo: Hah.... If only Dazai knew they did.
Atsushi: ...........
Astushi: Ohhhh, the actual candy.....
Ranpo: What you thought I was talking about?
Kunikida: If Dazai knew,
Kunikida: *takes the candy bag from Ranpo*
Kunikida: ......you won't have any more candy to inhale.
I have found more out in the wild
They're everywhere
OKAY XD
PLEASE SOMEONE DRAW THIS AS ATSUSHI AND KUNIKIDA IT WOULD BE SO FUCKING FUNNY
i didn't even read it all the way lmao, i just saw the words "suffered" & "Atsushi" and immediately clicked on Atsushi XD
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Propaganda: “everyone is torturing him all the time. he is permanently inside the torment nexus. please god give this bitch a break”