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idk what's wrong with me, I read yosuke sneakers as yoai cakes 💔💔💔

TRYING TO BUY THE YOSUKE SNEAKERS AND MY CARD KEEPS DECLINING TwT

I got too tired to post my make up and sfx last night ^^

But here it is now :3

Tw: realistic cvts and bl00d

I got triggered by a song, how pathetic....ahsufohajr I miss ber so much :(((

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Js some cat scratches :3

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I did this first then i really needed to do it again :(((( soooo glad my ex dearest can make me feel this shit about myself (*´～｀*)

Secconddd cut thingggg. I did it more on my hip :P

Also this one wouldn't stop bleeding >:((((

At least the blood is yummerssss >////<

Im lonely and tired :((( I js want my dearest back💔

don’t come into my life just to leave. i will slit my throat.

"I never even liked you"

SDUHXNUWDHXHUSHDX THANK U FOR THE SPAM U SPARKLING NEW MOOT

WAHHH, I WAS LITERALLY GONNA DO THIS AS WELL >//////<

tyssmmm new moot >/////<;

i hate having a dream about the actual perfect man to exist ever, and where i get all taken care of and loved because waking up is even more unbearable :(((

XP dawg I never check my follow count

Thxs for 52 ^^ (I have 71 on my main, WHICH IS CRAZY CAUSE IT WAS AT 50 AS WELL LAST TIME I CHEKCED😭😭😭)

WAHHHH, I HAVE WCHOOL IN TWO DAYS IM GNA KMSSSS

I'm definately over her

*I whisper, stalking her social media and stalking the people that she follows and the things she likes*

FUCK THIS BINGING PERIOD I FEEL LIKE IM GOING TO THROW UP

WAHHHH, I CANT TAKE BEING ALOONEEE, IF I DONT GET A PARTNER BY NEXT YEAR I'LL BE PUTTING MY HEAD INTO THE OVEN

WAHHH TYSM FOR THAT TAG !!!

(I'm gna blur the songs cover because there's like blood and disturbing shit)

(the blue eyes look so unsettling-)

TAGS !!!! (sorry if there unwanted, im also tired so i wont be doing a lot of my moots)

@gutted-pawz @insufferablewhore @2u1c1d4l @noodle-bro @crumbledtoast

i found a cool tag game on twitter and i really wanna import it (o^ ^o)

this picrew + the last song you listened to :]

no pressure tags: @blood-loving-leech @overtaken-boredom @lesbianthatyaps @kameonerd566 @hexedvampire @laczki @anonymous-shxtposter @fleurafae @flovqy + anyone who wants to do it <3

Wdym my thighs are in pain and there's NO ONE available to kiss them better?!?!?!?!?!??💔💔💔

OK I THINK I HAVE ONE EXCEPTION FOR THIS

I'll only let some older man, who doesn't want to do it, bc he doesn't want to hurt me, but does it anyway because he feels bad, but he's flustered and hesitant the whole time, and when he does it, it barely even cuts the skin, but the second time he gets to confident in himself and ends up cutting to baby beans

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(And then he cleans it franticaly and cuddles me and kisses the cuts after)

Idk if it's just me but the thought of having someone cutting me for me sounds so gross.

Like for starters, what if they get there greasy finger oils on it and my blade rusts😒

And what do I do, just...sit there and watch them do it ? Or do I strike up conversation ?!?!? 🧍‍♂️

I js like doing it alone, cause I know exactly how I want it, and I get to be proud of myself for going deeper and getting more blood >:3

"I don't feel safe around men, unless there a gay man or trans"

GFRGAGAGGR STFU FAGGOT ILL SKIN YOU AND EAT YOU JUST AS MUCH AS ANY CIS GUY HDIRHWAJUSVDJSHABSHDHSBDVX

I needdd to take a shooweerrrrrr, wahhhhh I don't wannaaaa.

But my hair is so crunchy, it's been like a week since I've had a shower or brushed my teeth🧍‍♂️

Ugghughhhu this is so annoying, I haven't gotten sick for years but these 2 months I've just STAYED sickkkkkk

I also have had no appetite and it sucks whej my mother makes me over eattttt, it makes me wanna dieeeeee

Ive also had no energy to cvt so I've js been so fucking stressed💔💔 and I can't cut how I want 💔💔

PLAYING IRL FNAF RN !!! 🔥🔥🔥

(cvtting myself when everyone's still awake)

I actually have no clue why i decided to do these all right now, i js suddenly really fucking needed to, and then i wasnt even thinking about how i did it and now my thigh is rlly itchy and stings 😭

I ALSO GOT SOME BL00D ON MY PANTS (kk I changed them :P)

TW FOR REALISTIC MAKEUP AND SFX: BL00D ABD CVTS

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The blad3s actually might be ok :P I did it harder soo uhm yeah :3

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Yum yum bl00d 🤤😋

Also to clean up I've been using the same tissue for like 2 months

This thing is actually nasty as hell😭😭 (I'm not sure why part of its blurring :[)

AND THIS CVT WOULDNT STOP BL33DDDINNGGG, LIKE I WAS TRYNNA RUSH BUT IT DIDNT WANNA STOP💔

Not to obvious but still :( reminder to never cut in ur favourite pair of pants💔

WAHHH I NEED MORE ATTENTIONNN, SOOOO PLPSLPLSPLS FOLLOW ME ON PINTEREST 🥺👉👈

૮꒰ ྀི >⸝⸝⸝< ྀི꒱ა

you seem so cool i rly wanna get to know you more but i struggle with anxiety so ill settle for being an anon for now

anyway hru??

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I completely understand, dont feel pressured to get out of anon 💜💜💜💜

(Thxs I am very cool😼😼)

Im quite good at the moment, I just had some pizza (which made me feel a little sick, but having water so hopefully it gets better😅) and I'm about to do some drawing and work ^^ hbu you :D

I don't need a partner and I'm ok with being alone, I don't need a partner and I'm ok with being alone, I don't need a partner and I'm ok with being alone, I don't need a partner and I'm ok with being alone, I don't need a partner and I'm ok with being alone, I don't need a partner and I'm ok with being alone, I don't need a partner and I'm ok with being alone, I don't need a partner and I'm ok with being alone, I don't need a partner and I'm ok with being alone, I don't need a partner and I'm ok with being alone, I don't need a partner and I'm ok with being alone, I don't need a partner and I'm ok with being alone, I don't need a partner and I'm ok with being alone, I don't need a partner and I'm ok with being alone *rocking back and forth, chanting this and gripping my hair*

Im very happy rn🤤

Tw: bl4d3s (sharpeners)

I ALSO HAD THE PINK MONSTER IT WAS SO GOOD OMFGGG <3333 me n my vro only got one so we shared it🤭🤤

AHH I LOVE WHEN SHE SENDS PICTURES AND VIDEOS OF HERSELF, SHES SO FUCKING PRETTY IT MAKES ME WANNA KMSSS, AHHHH MWWAHHHH <3333

CAN WE ALL AGREE THAT JIRAIBLR IS BETTER THAN JIRAITWT AND JIRAITT ?!?!?!?!

It just feels so much more inclusive and accepting.

I THINK I FINALLY UNDERSTAND WHY I SWITCH UP ON PEOPLE SO QUICKLY NOW !!!

(this applies more for people I know irl rather than online)

So yk how sometimes you have fake arguments in your head ? I do that but have full conversations. But it can be very specific.

For example, I always think about what will happen in my therapy sessions, and since I hype myself up about what it's going to be like, I get disappointed and upset when my therapist seems to be going off my script

It happened today with my teacher. I built up the courage to go up to him and ask about the test and if I could do it earlier (since I was leaving school, before the time of the test) and the second I asked, he looked uninterested and plainly said I had to do it tmrw. It wasn't the reaction I had thought he would have (nor was it the one I wanted, I think he's a bitch for being uninterested, there was like 4 kids in the class and he was doing nothing, so it's not like I inturputed him or anything)

Anyways, I think that's the best way I can explain this XP

the four horsemen of jirai kei: horny, manic, suicidal, and depressed

my cvts are so pretty, but I don't wanna get t-worded for posting them to much >.<

Which is a shameee, cause the new blad3s are giving me some damn good bl00d

It hurt a little more than usual but I think it was js cause I was going over the other cvts I'm not really giving a chance for the others to heal up properly😅

I don't really know what to do cause now I have bl00dy tissues but no bin in my room (my mother took it away :< I wasn't trusted with it) sooo I might js hide them in my school bag and hope it doesn't attract the ants in my room + nobody sees them at school XD

OMGGG MY MOTHER DID THAT, SHE TOOK AWAY ALL THE BANDAIDS AND THE CLEANING SPRAY💀💀💀 Critical thinking just left her i guess :P

I hate when people take away bandaids when they find out about your self harm, like how does that help???? The whole point of trying to get someone to stop self harming is that it isn’t safe, and since taking bandaids away isn’t stopping them that just makes everything even more unsafe. Some ppl are dumb

FINALLY SOME GOOD...sfx...makeup...totally not real blood

I FEEL SO HAPPY AND JITTERY EHEHEHEHEHHEHEHEH YAYAYAYAYAYAYYAYAYAYA

Tw forrrrrrrrr cvtssss (n blood)

Block don't report please this is a coping mechanism :( I'm safe trust, my therapist looks at them often to see if there clean ^^

Cat scratchessss >.<

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Finally got some good bl00d

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:3

I thought I got more pics wth😭😭

Just as i did it

And this was my attempt to clean😭😭

(I did some bandaids cause it wouldn't stop bleeding and I'm not sure when my family's gonna get back :P)