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For the writing ask game, number 26: story your most proud of

oof.

this is a loaded question, because I'm proud of a few different stories for their own reasons.

The Sorcerer And The Court Noble, my first self-published novel (which is available to buy digitally through my dms for those interested) is the one I am *most* proud of, because it was a labour of love for nearly 10 years of revisions and based off a series of films and novels that have firmly planted themselves into japanese folklore and pop culture. It's a love story between Abe no Seimei and Minamoto no Hiromasa, real men who really lived and whose shrines you can visit to this day. It's a very special story to me.

The Agony And The Ecstasy Of Sherlock Holmes, my second self-published novel (which is also available to buy digitally through my dms for those interested) based on the events of series 4, told through emails, texts, surveillance footage, hospital records, and therapist's notes. I've never written a story of that length in such a short period of time, when I myself was in indescribable physical pain due to several spontaneous disc herniations in my spine. It's a deeply personal study of Sherlock Holmes' character and I'll always be very proud of it.

Runaway Judges, a post-series the devil judge fic inspired by the mishima: a life in four chapters OST, specifically the track runaway horses (poetry written with a splash of blood). It examines the push-and-pull relationship between Yo Han and Ga On in the aftermath of the courthouse explosion in episode 16; it's about the characters' pain and sacrifice as declarations of love for each other and how they begin to heal from all the hurt and misunderstandings between them now that they're both ghosts as they flee to Switzerland and start a new life. It's probably my favourite TDJ fic I've ever written.

The common thread between all three of these works is actually something based in the first onmyoji film, which TSatCN follows. In it, Hiromasa cradles the woman he loves, Sukehime, in his arms as she succumbs to a spell that turned her into a vengeful demon; a demon that feeds on men's blood. He offers her his life, presenting his bare arm to her and tells her, "It's alright. I do not mind, in the end, if it is you that kills me." Watching that scene as a child (I was twelve) rewired something in my brain pretty fundamentally when it came to my understanding of love and sacrifice. It's followed my writing ever since, and these three works all examine the relationship between pain, sacrifice, penance, devotion, and love - the concept of dying for love of someone else makes my heart ache in the best way, and I love exploring that depth of emotion in my writing.

thanks for playing! <3

Apologies for bothering but I just realized I have two more shows to offer up. Though idk if you’d like them. It’s The Good Bad Mother and Move to Heaven. They’re both kdramas and really good in my opinion. The first is about a mother who ends up having to take care of her son after he was in a car crash. The second is about trauma cleaners. Both have really good found family vibes.

I promise you are not bothering me at all, especially not with things like this!

I’m adding these both to my watchlist right now.

Since you like beyond evil imma just recommend a show called circle: two worlds connected. It doesn’t have the same type of friendship but it does have mystery and a very interesting story. It is a bit stressful though. Anyway uh yeah I’ve got nothing else. If you do check out the show I hope you like it if not then I hope you enjoy whatever you watch. Have a wonderful day/night!

I love a good mystery, so I’ll add it to the watch list!

Thank you so much 😭

Anyone else get casually jump scared by a post they queued?

Anyone else who uses procreate, does color drop ever just not work for y’all? Like you do it but for some reason the spot you want to fill is apparently a void from the beyond that no matter what you do cannot be filled by means of the color drop and only manually filling it in is powerful enough to overcome it?

Random question. People who have gone to concerts, what are they like?

Trick or treat! This year I went as Hilda from fire emblem. Actually had the costume for a few years now but was making it by hand (something I’ve never done before but figured why not) so uh never really finished some bits and bobs. This time I finished her weapon so went as her anyway. Have a wonderful day/night!

woah that's so cool!! i've never made a costume by hand like that but i imagine it's super rewarding when you're finished. i bet you looked awesome!

anyways hilda's pink hair (i did have to look her up lol) reminded me of bubble gum so take some blow pops!

and i wasn't sure what to gif for your bonus since i don't know if you share the same brainrot as me but i figure you can't really go wrong with cute boys on a cute arcade date so

happy (belated) halloween!! 👻

To boop one must have experimental features turned on, then one must opt in. May thy journey in booping be bountiful and boopable

Edit: it works!!! Thank you so much!

For the bl trope ask game: 5, 7, 10? If possible please. This seems really cool to do. Have a wonderful day/night!

I love when I get repeats because I get to consider different shows! My initial answers for these were:

5. Second Chance Romance: His

7. Star-Crossed Lovers: Until We Meet Again and I Feel You Linger In The Air

10. Bodyguard: KinnPorsche

Lemme see what else I've got in the tank...

Second Chance Romance

I will always prefer a second chance romance that is truly about regrets, forgiveness and trying again to one about never having taken the leap in the first place. The End of the World With You (Bokura no Micro na Shuumatsu) is one of the best I've seen. Ritsu is seeking absolution and reconciliation before the world ends, and Masumi is equally determined not to forgive. The journey they go on...well go watch it if you haven't already.

Star-Crossed Lovers

The problem with star-crossed lovers is that BL as romance is indexed toward the happy ending. Tragedy is NOT what the girlies come here for, so the stories have to find a hook, like time travel or past lives, to smuggle the tragedy in while still allowing a happy-ish ending. I'm gonna round out my star-crossed trifecta with He's Coming To Me, because a living man and a ghost falling in love is the very definition of stars being crossed.

Bodyguard

For all its flaws, Never Let Me Go made a solid attempt at the bodyguard romance and I really enjoyed it in parts. Jojo really swung for it with this one and while I don't think it was entirely successful, it was for sure discussable.

Do we submit reasons for the poll characters here? If not then sorry for the long character spiel.

I know there’s hardly any time left for this but I just wanted to send this in to protect one of my comfort characters. Guo Changcheng. For the greenest flag category. So he’s basically just a literal puppy. Thrown to the wolves on his first day of work, he tries hard to connect and help out his coworkers. Clumsy and a bit lost most times, he will do his best to cheer anyone up. Constantly taking notes so that he can be of better help and being the one who always comforts others. He tries his absolute hardest to learn so that he can protect his friends, so much so that it can be detrimental to himself. Has literally pushed through death defying experiences and injuries just to give strangers comfort. (Next part could spoil but only if one knows the show. I don’t think it spoils anything with the way it’s written but just want to write this just in case.) He won’t let you die alone, even if it kills him.

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Trick or Treat :3

You get King from My Engineer!!! He was in the Autistic Swag bracket!!!