Personality Disorder - Blog Posts

Wanted to make my first actual talking post cause I need y'all to know that this space is safe for those who may not feel welcome in their own communities.

No matter anything, you are loved.

Aspec people? Your love is so different from what others expect it to be, and if you're loveless you're so so valid and I love you in the same way I love the universe. Asexual, aromantic, aplatonic, asensual, every a- out there: you're not broken. You're not wrong for being yourself and I love you like all the stars in the sky, so many more than what's visible.

Alterhumans? No matter what/who you are, you're beautiful for exploring your identity as something non-human, human-adjacent, or human in a different flavor! You're amazing and wonderful and I'm so proud of you for even considering being yourself in a world not built for you. Human, animal, object, concept, doesn't matter because you still deserve respect and love. I love you like all the little bugs I find outside, all beautiful and free.

People with conflicting labels? You're so cool. I don't care if you identify as a man and a lesbian at the same time. I don't care if you identify as a woman and a gay bear at the same time. I don't care how you identify, you're a living being and you're just as valid as everyone else. I love you like trinkets, all so unique and beautiful in your own ways.

Systems? You're spectacular and no origin of system or headmate could change my mind. Your system came about from trauma? I'm so proud of you for coping with your trauma and living your life happier and healthier with others that can support you. No trauma? That's okay! It's none of anyone else's business how you came about, what matters is that you're living your life the best way you can and I'm so proud of you. I love you like yarn, all so wonderful and varying and full of endless possibility.

Disabled people? Your disabilities don't make you any less deserving of respect and love, no matter what anyone says. You don't need to prove your usefulness to anyone that actually deserves to know you. You're allowed to be "useless". Your existence is a blessing even though I know it can be so difficult or impossible to do even basic tasks, and your worth is way beyond whatever anyone tells you you "should" be able to do. I love you like plushies, made to love and be loved, made to exist.

Neurodivergent people? You're so strong. This world was not built for your mind that varies so greatly from what's expected of you. Those of you that have a "dangerous" disorder, you're so valued and I'm so proud of you for being your best self, no matter those that say you're insane or manipulative just for being yourself. I love you like nature, unpredictable or scary to those unwilling to understand, you're beautiful not despite your brain but in tandem with it.

Xenogenders? You're epic. It's so awesome that you've been able to identify with concepts, objects, animals, characters, literally anything! You can be anything! Isn't that amazing? I don't care if it's cringe, I don't care. You're being yourself and that's so amazing. I love you like art, found in every place you look if you're looking with an open mind.

Religious people? It's so amazing that you've found something to believe in that helps you live your best life. As long as you're not using your religion to put others down, you have my support. It's so spectacular that you have something you believe in. Please don't let anyone take that away from you. I love you like rainbows, a miracle of life and a wonderful sight to see.

People with personality disorders? You're so valid. Granted I don't know much, but I do know that you deserve love and respect just as much as anyone else. No matter how misunderstood or mistreated, you're safe here. I'm always willing to learn and understand how to be a good person to everyone, no matter how "scary" you are. You're wonderful and I hope you know that. I love you like the ocean, full of so much vastness and beauty below the surface.

I love you I love you I love you!!!

However,

If you are a shitty person who forces yourself onto others or thinks that others are below you for what they believe in, do NOT be anywhere near my page. If you are any sort of -phobic, any sort of "minor liking person", any sort of asshole: I will automatically block you and you are NOT welcome here.

If you use my wholesome post to start drama or controversy I will block you. This is not a safe space for you if that is your intent.

This page is for loving, not hating.

I've always had the idea that Gressil has HPD

Histrionic personality disorder (HPD) is a mental health condition marked by unstable emotions, a distorted self-image and an overwhelming desire to be noticed. People with HPD often behave dramatically or inappropriately to get attention.

Some examples I think he shows:

Be dramatic and extremely emotionally expressive.

Be persistently charming and flirtatious.

Act inappropriately sexual with most of the people they meet, even when they’re not sexually attracted to them.

Speak dramatically and express strong opinions but with few facts or details to support their opinions.

Think that their relationships with others are closer than they usually are.

Need instant gratification and become bored or frustrated very easily.

Some others that he can show, but I don't think he really does:

Feel underappreciated or depressed when they’re not the center of attention.

Have a “larger than life” presence.

Use their physical appearance to draw attention to themselves by wearing bright-colored clothing or revealing clothing.

Be gullible and easily influenced by others, especially by the people they admire.

Have difficulty maintaining relationships, often seeming fake or shallow in their interactions with others.

Constantly seek reassurance or approval.

Just a few examples:

Think that their relationships with others are closer than they usually are.

With Tomoha, to me, it seems like he believes they are closer than they really are. Also, with Gladiolus in the cell. But then again, I think he just acts close to everyone he meets.

Need instant gratification and become bored or frustrated very easily.

Says he joined Mateo because he was bored, and he seems bored of it now, which I think is from him no longer getting attention from Mateo, especially over Tomoha.

Be gullible and easily influenced by others, especially by the people they admire.

Thought/thinks of Rayne as his god, and it seemed/seems like he was willing to do a lot for her (or to even get to her).

Some other thoughts:

Do I think this justifies what he did? No, he was a freak (in a bad way) and weird (also in a bad way). I do think that this could explain some of it though. Aka being the center of attention between the three of them, wanting himself to be looked at.

(Going in-between them in their conversation and making it about him, putting themselves in a life-or-death situation, not letting Tomoha sway him from his plans)

I do think this can explain some of his actions in all the seasons, and I do think he will keep displaying them after... well.. whatever happens.

I have no idea if Gressil having a mental illness/disorder is confirmed by Ms. Freaky, so I could just be putting info that is already cannon out there. But it's one of my headcannons if it's not confirmed, and you do not have to agree with it, or me. Just be kind, and everything, please.

The website I got the information from: Histrionic Personality Disorder: Causes, Symptoms & Treatment

It might not be correct, because it is the internet... so, I'm sorry if it is wrong in anyway

Anyway, I enjoyed this rant session, and maybe you did too :P

I just would like to add, not correct or change any of this:

People with personality disorders, anxiety, depression, PTSD, etc are SOMETIMES ALSO ABUSERS and their mental health definitely plays into their patterns of abuse. I've...unfortunately been on both ends of being abused by a mentally ill person. I'm not proud of how I behaved on one end and and my experiences at the other won't excuse that, ever.

That being said, language is highly important and it IS critical to avoid generalizing terms for oppressed groups like mentally ill and disordered people, so yes to all of the above. Just...remember people are complicated, yeah?

Can I please find a single resource for abusive relationships without there being "narcissistic" in the tile like come on.

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