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is anyone else also doing ultimately fine + dying of stress + it’s not that bad + if i don’t wake up tomorrow hotter and better at every hobby its fucking over for me

trying to break into the furry scene what do you guys think of my newest ocs

This but i stayed up till 6am. I am not happy anymore

i stay up late to be happy for a few more hours

Six of crows. My first ever uncooked ahh fanfic on ao3 you will always be famous <33

authors!!

quick question...

anyone else have to like. gentle parent their moms about food. my mom is like “let’s be naughty and eat pizza” and i gently say “food is not inherently good or bad”

Thought it’d be a good idea to put on 10x01 while I was removing eye makeup- then the stupid fucking astronaut and his daughter had to make me fucking cry. Not that tears don’t remove eyeliner as well, but this isn’t what I meant yall😭😭

Boutta watch the new episode guys wish me luck!!

No because I think this is the exact reason I fell in love with 9-1-1 so much. Season one, Bathena got together, and I was so dissapointed, because if you've watched more than two tv shows in your life, you know what happenes to couples who get together in the first season. They get used for drama, they are thrust into repeating storylines, they either aren't endgame, or they break up and make up all the time, over and over, and are horrible to each other bur still stay together. (Cough cough Ross and Rachel from Friends.) It kills the characters instantly, and it kills their storylines. I was so mad.

But then I kept watching, bc it's not like this was a new feeling - this happens all the time. Disappointing, but whatever. So I kept waiting for the inevitable fallout and breakup and unnecessary drama between Bathena, and it just... didn't happen. They just... moved foreward in their relationship, and the showrunners made them interesting as fuck - without breaking them up unnecessarily!! Fucking bonkers to me, especially how Henren started out in season one. But Bathena had fights, and drama, and happy moments, and they defied what I thought a season-one-couple was.

And then it just kept on going. Bathena, Madney, Henren - they all found their special person and they didn't have to give that up to remain interesting or original. I've never seen anything like it before. It was magical. Still is.

I think that's why I'm not terrified that they are going to fuck up Buddie. If any other show decided to get the two popular and constantly shipped male leads together, I KNOW they couldn't do them justice, especially in the long run. But 911 can. Because they've already done it. Multiple times. And that just makes me so freaking happy.

domestic buddie being imminent is also fun bc this show does a good job at keeping a relationship dynamic interesting after getting characters together. henren is established from day one and while karen isn’t around as much as the mains their presence/drama is still there. bathena got more interesting once they started blending their family. madney went thru sooo much up and down and now they’re happily married and maddie’s still getting serial killer kidnapped and saving chim’s life w hammers. domestic buddie are gonna keep having insane things happen bc that’s the show but now they will get to react to it as romantic partners and (eventual) husbands. :)

I fear no one is going to get this because it is a hungarian book we had to read in... I don't even know what grade. 3rd or 4th, maybe? It's called "A Pál utcai fiúk" ("The boys of Pál Street", written 1906), and it's about a group of kids who find a big, abandoned... field? I think? in the city of Budapest, on Pál street, and make it their own, and turn it into their HQ. They become friends, or more accurately, form a club, and have strict rules to follow. If I remember correctly, (I literally haven't read this book in seven years) there is also a rival club of boys, who they are trying to sabotage. I cannot for the life of me remember the plot, but I do know there was this one kid, young and scrawny and small, who was constantly trying to prove himself. Some things happened, which led the boys to believe he betrayed them, and was a traitor - not true, of course - and as punishment, they wrote his name into their rulebook with lowercase latters, the lowest and most humiliating thing a member of the club could be punished with, and they kicked him out. (Ah yeas, I remember, his name was Nemecsek I think!)

Meanwhile, however, in an earlier adventure, Nemecsek fell into a cold lake on a winter night, already a bit down with the cold. After he was kicked out, the boys ignore him completely, and shun their friend out - so they don't realise in time that the illness got serious. Nemecsek got pneumonia, i think, which at the time was incredibly dangerous, especially for a frail little boy like him.

Needless to say, he dies, with none of his friends there, his mother bawling on his chest, still believing his only friends hate him. When the boys hear about this, they are shook, of course, and immidiately forgive him and feel completely fucking horrible, but it's too little too late. They honor him by not only rewrite his name with the correct -capital letters, but by writing it in ALL capital letters.

I bawled my eyes out. I was such a little kid at the time, and i loved reading and getting invested in stories, and this fucking broke me. I finished the book at like 1 am one evening, which at the time was very late for little me, and my brother heard me literally sobbing and had to comfort me. First encounter with MCD. I didn't even think it was real. I just kept reading, because I was like "what do you mean? Books ALWAYS have a good ending please this has to be a joke - " it was not. Fucking. Broke me.

fuck it, i'm curious. reblog and tag with the first fictional death to ever rewrite your brain chemistry and/or make you cry like a baby. mine was ares from the underland chronicles (who, for context, was a giant bat.) to this day i will weep if i think too hard about it. okay, go.

WHAT

Turned on light mode for the first time in months. Immediately regretted it.

About to watch the first episode of DD:BA guys wish me luck!!!

I cannot say how much i fucking love these books. I read them when I was still pretty clueless about queer things, still thinking i was “straight”, and i found many things fascinating about the worldbuilding and the characters. And now, years later, I’ll be laying in my bed trying to sleep and then suddenly I’m throwing my covers back like “YOU MEAN THAT WAS T4T????????” “Wait was that ASEXUAL REPRESENTATION OR AM I HALLUCINATING???????????”

I’d like to go back in time and hold little me’s head like “baby. You’re a faggot. There’s a reason you like this book and it ain’t just the dragons”

Oh and also! How could i forget! The third book in the series was literally the first book I ever read in English, bc it hadn’t been translated into my native language yet, and i was NOT GOING TO WAIT YEARS TO READ IT TF???? Literally i went

“Have I read a book in english before?”

“No.”

“How long is this one?”

“…640 pages.”

“……….Fuck it we ball.”

Man i gotta reread them it’s been too long.

Okay I said I'd make a more expansive post about this so here it is.

If you like high fantasy, check out A Chorus of Dragons by Jenn Lyons.

It's got

magic

dragons

demons

gods that aren't gods

a main character throuple

platonic marriage

distinct characters of various ages

just general diversity

the most incomprehensible family trees

sassy footnotes

and more!

There are five books and the worldbuilding is so neatly woven into the story so as not to overwhelm the reader. I was learning neat facts about the world even in the last book.

The overarching plot is a bit complicated to explain, but it's basically "Ancient mage with an ego has secret plans centuries in the making and must be stopped, but in the meantime there are demons wrecking havoc, terrible shitheads vying for political power, shapeshifters with dubious morals, revenge schemes, slavery, a god of annihilation that has slowly been consuming the sun, and so much family drama."

The five books are:

The Ruin of Kings (aka will someone please tell Kihrin what's going on)

The Name of All Things (aka the adventures of Janel and Qown, a horsegirl and her emotional support atheist priest)

The Memory of Souls (aka Oh My God)

The House of Always (aka Group Therapy tries to stop the apocolapyse)

The Discord of Gods (aka wtf is even going on--OH)

So in conclusion:

great characters, great pacing, great worldbuilding, great antagonists

Peter Parker is so adoptable. “Oh you mean adaptable-“ NO.

First up we got the classic irondad/spiderson dynamic. ICONIC. Can have you punching wholes in the walls with the amount of FEELS and FLUFF and, of course, ANGST. 10/10, great way to get started. BUT. We’ve barely even scratched the surface.

My other personal favourite: Matt Murdock AKA Daredevil adopts Peter. Bonus points if it’s after No Way Home, the emotional hurt/comfort potential is IMMENSE. I just. I love that shit. I eat it up every time. GIMME!!!

Next up, one I did not think would work, but it ABSOLUTELY DOES: Bucky Barnes adopts Peter. Currently reading a fic called Anatomy In Reverse by pansley on ao3, and lemme tell ya im OBSESSED. I did not think there was potential there, BUT BOY WAS I WRONG. (Lovely fic, would 100% recommend it btw)

Oh and did you think Peters adoptableness only reached until the confinements of the MCU? THINK AGAIN. Cuz the Batfam is NOT ABOVE ADDING SPIDERS TO THE BATS AND BIRDS!! You think Batman has an adoption problem, you’ve clearly never seen the amount of fics of Nightwing adopting Peter. (I guess it runs in the family. Also, Dark Matter anyone??)

And these are just the ones I’ve come across! It’s like if you feel like writing parent-child dynamics in the mcu - or even outside of it, jesus! - you just get yourself a ready-to-adopt Peter Parker, maybe kill of some more of his parental figures i guess, and boom! You got yourself an adoptee!

As a frequent commenter, i have to say that you have absolutely NOTHING to worry about! Personally, I love getting replies to my comments as well, it doesn’t even matter when. If you reply immediately though, i won’t even see it for hours at the LEAST, but often for days, because i just dont check my email that often. If i get a comment hours, days, or even weeks later, i just light up remembering the fic i left it on, my feelings about it, plus because a love connecting with people through fics! And to be honest, the best kind if comment is when i dont get a raply for MONTHS or even YEARS before i do, because then its like looking back on a fond memory like „Oh yeah, oh my god! That’s what i was obsessed with at the time, and thats the fic i fucking loved, holy shit!“ It’s like seeing an old friend again. I honestly like it more than getting immediate replies.

So, in conclusion: don’t worry anon, we fucking love late replies <3

I love, love, love getting comments and asks on my platforms about/on my stories! The emails/notifs never fail to bring a smile to my face! But, sometimes, I'm not in the headspace to read what other people think, y'know? Like, I'm always happy to read and respond to people as soon as I can, but sometimes I'm feeling super insecure about something and it translates over into the way I read comments because my stories are still a part of me, and I don't particularly like hearing what people have to say about me when I'm not too sure how I feel about myself. It makes me feel bad whenever I leave comments or asks unanswered for hours or days at a time before I'm in the right headspace to actually read/answer them

That’s 100% a-okay!

I do the same thing! I’ve have asks in my ask box from months ago that I just haven’t had the mental space to answer- and that’s okay!

Learning a language and slang at the same time is crazy bc i‘ll use a phrase and be like „is this a slang term and acceptable in casual conversation, a rare but correct phrase, or absolute bullshit that makes me look like an idiot“

When your ship is def acting suspiciously coupley but they aren’t canon so you just scream „STOP BEING GAY AND START BEING GAY‼️‼️“

Yeah.

Oh my fucking god i just watched the episode „Wilson“ for the first time and holy fuck this is my new favourite episode ever. I could watch an entire show about Wilson being his silly little self im not even kidding.

Just,,, imagine a show about our over-caring oncologist just doing his job, (and doing it incredibly might i add,) with this random crazy-ass best friend somwhere in the background. I could watch a hundred and ten seasons of it I‘m not even kidding. That fucked up crazy little oncologist right there? That’s my babygirl. That’s my pookie. That is my kin. Give him the world pls and thank you

Like I feel like we as a fandom gloss over the fact how great Wilson really is at his job. My man realised a patient got a brain tumor because he didn’t want to talk about his grandkids. Like??? All the while being extremely focused on a different case of his, and handling all his other ones as well.

House always makes fun of him for it, but he really is an amazing doctor, all the while being such a calm and comforting presence… no wonder all his patients love him!!

He’s like a big walking-talking teddy bear handing out cancer diagnoses!

*rereading a fic I’m working on*

Huh this is kinda cool! Im actually really invested?? Lets go!!

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WHY DID THE AUTHOR STOP HERE I WANNA NOW WHAT HAPPENS