Soooo I Was Convinced That March Would Be My Month. BUT MY DUMBASS FUCKED UP AND BINGED TODAY

Thinspo Imagine #1: The Beginning of Fall

It was around 7 in the morning when the sun woke you up. It danced across your sheets and your desk, earning a soft groan from you as you slowly woke up. The sheets draped over your dainty body, slipping down over your shoulders as you sat up. Your hands sat in your lap, bundling up the blanket a bit as you looked out the window at a beautiful morning.

After admiring the view a little bit, you slipped out of bed, one thin leg after the other. Your soft pajamas draped over your lithe figure, truly accentuating how petite you were. They sagged a bit around your tiny waist and the sleeves stopped past the palm of your hand. You looked so tiny in them, swallowed by the soft fabric.

You padded to the bathroom and stripped, stepping on the scale, before smiling to yourself. Almost there.

You took a quick, hot shower, relishing in the feeling of each bone of your body as you skimmed your hands over yourself. Water pooled slightly in your collarbones and not on rolls of fat.

You were glowing when you got out, and turned around in the mirror. You counted three ribs on each side of your flat stomach, which concaved ever so slightly when you looked at yourself from the side. Your tiny waist filled out into toned thighs with a gap in between, which dipped back in at the knees to long, thin legs. Your thin hands danced around your tiny neck and prominent collars, tracing the sharp curve of your jawline, moving a few strands of wet hair that clung to your cheek. Your eyes looked bigger and your sharp nose was the same red as the apples of your cheeks, accentuating your soft lips and tiny chin.

You spoiled yourself for a few minutes, turning this way and that, looking at every curve and dip of your body. Finally, when the water sticking to your frame sent a chill through you, a silk robe was pulled up and over your shoulders. Silently, you left the bathroom.

You walked to your closet and opened the sliding door. You watched your thin fingers as they gripped the white wood.

As you had lost weight, you slowly added more and more clothes to your closet. Flowy tops, cute jeans, sweet skirts. Wearing them was a reward in and of itself, once you were able to fit into them. You looked cute and fragile in some, skinny and sharp in others. They each had their own style - and a place in your heart. They were the biggest sign of your progress.

You slipped into a cute, creme colored long sleeve top, relishing in the comfortable feel of the thin, flowy fabric. Your legs were hugged by dark blue, high-wasited jeans that you slid into perfectly. Simple gold bracelets sat on your wrists, and a thin gold chain around your neck.

You looked killer, and posed a bit. The jeans acentuated your thigh gap and thin, lean legs as well as your cinched waist, while the shirt hung low enough to reveal your collarbone, draping off of you in a way that showed how small you were underneath. Your hands were lithe and dainty, your skin fresh and clear.

You moved to your window, spreading the curtains and pulling the sliding glass open. Birds sang and danced around each other, and the hints of city life teemed in the few people walking along the sidewalk. You adored the city. Maple trees grew along the road and charming shops filled the empty space between tall buildings.

The wind blew, billowing the silk curtins out around you as you took in a deep breath. The cool air filled your lungs so beautifully, and your bright eyes fluttered closed.

All your hard work, all the long night curled up in your bed, ignoring hunger pains. Forcing awful-tasting teas down your throat. Losing and gaining, working out until you colapsed, sleeping through the day and binging at night. Your journey was so hard, with just as many downs as there were ups.

But you kept at it, holding on to the dream of a brighter future. Your binges grew smaller and fewer. You coud last longer without food, and it took less for you to feel full. The barest of muscle formed, and working out was less of a chore and more of a hobby. People started commenting on your figure. It was euphoric, fitting into your first XS pair of jeans.

You opened your eyes again, watching the green trees sway in the breeze. They were showing the first hints of autumn, a few crisp leaves turning to the color of honey and roses.

For the first time in a while, you realised, you were happy with where you were.

It’s you, not your genetics

I have a friend who is like SUPER skinny. She used to say how she doesn’t get fat at all. On top of that, she seemed to eat a lot of high-calorie food all the time. Everyone kind of assumed that she was “naturally skinny”.

Today she mentioned how she hated eating alone. She just doesn’t eat. That made soo much sense! She might eat a lot when shes at school, surrounded by ppl, but she doesn’t eat much when by herself. As a result she stays skinny.

There are multiple reasons why your skinny friend stays skinny. So stop blaming your genetics!

P.s: unless you have an actual illness that prevents you from losing weight

Quick lesson y’all

So I have done around 175 situps every night for the last while as a nervous thing (yk gotta burn any possible calories) but the thing with situps is that they are so bad for your lower back. I haven’t been able to do my sit-ups or sit comfortably or even sleep comfortably because when I do a sit-up it puts so much pressure on my lower back that now something is going wrong and it is hurting me. So please learn from me if you can and do planks or Russian twists or something other than sit-ups or crunches because they are likely to do more harm than good.

Stay safe babes

I am so hungry rn and wanted to get some yoghurt

However my father forbid me to eat bc someone from the insurance will come this evening and he doesnt want me to eat until He has gone again

So i guess tonight we'll be starving

Man, this family is so fucked up

💫🌿🌺 tips for being ur best self this summer 🌺🌿💫

hey friends, here’s a little post of tips… consider it a less harmful alternative to the hundreds of posts floating around giving advice on restricting and purging. 

🌺 FEELING DIZZY? IS YOUR VISION BLURRY? GOT A HEADACHE? put down the diet soda and drink some water. in any case, you should regularly be drinking water throughout the day. remember, your body can only absorb about 500ml of water at a time, so don’t try and chug your ‘daily requirement’ all at once. you should be aiming for 2L a day. drink up, it’s hot outside.

🌿 DON’T LIKE WATER? jazz it up. put some fruit in it. put some mint in it. lemon + mint + flat or sparkling water = your new lemonade ( NOTE: try not to drink lemon/other citrus-infused water on an empty stomach, the acid will start to eat away at your stomach lining ) strawberries + frozen blueberries + raspberries = also a great combination, as well as watermelon + basil

💫 GOT A BLAND/REPETITIVE MEAL PLAN? take a multivitamin. they come in all kinds of forms from capsules to chewables to gummies, so there’s really something for everybody. taking a multivitamin regularly will help you get the vitamins and minerals that you’re lacking. something to also consider is taking vitamin B6/biotin for your hair and nails, and vitamin D to help lose belly fat.

🌺 WORRIED THAT YOU’LL BINGE? try a meal replacement powder mixed with water or almond milk. not only are they meant to be filling and curb your appetite, they’re also formulated to include most/all the nutrients that would have been found in the average well-rounded meal. the one i personally have is 145kcal per serving and mixed with cold water it tastes just like a strawberry milkshake.

🌿NEED A SNACK? frozen grapes are your new friend, along with frozen blueberries and raspberries. a square of dark chocolate never hurt anybody, and neither did a rice cake with some honey/peanut butter/almond butter drizzled on top. craving something savory? veggie sticks + a little hummus are here to save the day, and if you want something sweet and savory, try a watermelon + feta + mint salad. 

💫 NO GYM MEMBERSHIP? take a walk around your neighborhood. go for a jog. go swimming at your local pool. check out some pilates videos online. try some calisthenic exercises at home, or yoga. even a few minutes of physical activity is better than nothing, and will make you feel so much better and closer to your goals than sitting on tumblr and scrolling through the dash. I mean, you could even scroll through tumblr while you’re out on a walk, if you don’t mind using the data

🌺WORRIED YOU’LL SELF HARM? talk to a friend, or a family member you trust. listen to some angry music. paint a picture, throw some fine china plates on the ground. whatever you do, try to channel your feelings into something other than harming yourself. i know people always say to snap an elastic against your wrist or to chew ice but personally, that stuff never helped me. talking out my feelings and venting to another person, however, did. so really, if you feel like you’ve tried every other alternative and you have no one to talk to–– send me a message, anonymously or not, and i’ll do the best i can to hear you out.

4 months n 20 lbs later

80kg - 45kg

Jul 2017 - Nov 2018

I wish I could do this to my body

how to stay safe

okay so i am making this because even though i have bad days/nights (like today) recently i’ve been feeling like my goals can actually be reached! & i’m going to give my best three tips that i use myself to help you all not feel so crappy.

disclaimer: what works for me may not work for you, please don’t use this as the guide for losing weight. also i know it doesn’t have a huge effect coming from me since i literally said i use these tips but please guys recovery is always the best option. but if that isn’t happening right now i at least want to help some of you, this is being done with my very best intentions. so without further ado...

eat to lose weight: sounds dumb & i don’t really know why this works other than what we all hear (“depriving yourself for so long can lead to binges” & then you ruin any fasting/restriction yada yada) but i haven’t fasted in so long & i’ve finally moved down from being stuck on like a plateau of not losing weight. obviously fasting every once in a while can have benefits but most of the time i eat twice a day. i eat no less than like 700 maybe (i don’t know i don’t count calories often) and have been steadily dropping. plus a lot of energy goes to your brain & i want enough power for good grades. it’s hard to get past but you do not have to completely limit yourself to reach your goals. work smart not hard!

*veganism/vegetarianism: other than the obvious health benefits eating a vegan/vegetarian diet can make it a lot easier to eat a lot more food but not a lot of calories. feeling so full can be scary but knowing that you are putting good foods into your body can be rewarding and help you give yourself bigger portions and feel satisfied. i became vegetarian, not to cut out foods i simply just do not like meat, and my meals are just fine.

allowing leeway: probably the biggest “no no” in all of our minds. honestly this was hard for me too. but like i said, we know that being deprived of certain things makes us want it more & if/when we allow ourselves to have it we may over do it. so to avoid that i do a thing where in a certain situation where there’s a big fear food (lets take a birthday party with cake being served as an example) i ask myself “will i have access to more soon?” since my mother is vegan & i am vegetarian there’s not many sweets and such in the house so for me, the only time i would have cake offered again is at another celebration. so i most likely would allow myself a small piece, maybe only a few bites if i was getting to in my head, and i would just be done with it. it really has (kind of) helped to stop obsessing over all the goodies that are sold everywhere all the time.

*veganism/vegetarianism is more than a simple diet. they require some research on how to safely incorporate new and unfamiliar eating habits into your life. if considering please do it safely and correctly, if you don’t you can cause more harm than good so be careful.

please remember all of this was written with my best intention and i really do just want to help.

My mum just yelled at me bc i am low in iron like wtf? This is not my fault?

Gosh, i hate it here