Latest Posts by im-made-of-crushed-little-stars - Page 9

I just want somebody to show me that they care. I want a best friend, hell, I want any friend, and I want a lover.

Vent since I'm pissed

Tw sh

My one friend is pissing me off so bad she told me something and I said ok and then said "don't go telling anyone I know you like to do that" and all I think is how she told me a week ago that are whole friendship was built off her using me for homework and I'm the backstaber. Like I feel like she's a bad friend cause she made me so upset I relapsed and I can't even say anything cause she will make it about herself and I know she will cause when I told her I self harm the next day she came to school waving her arm in my face showing me her cuts like were twins now and it makes me feel like I'm the asshole for self harming in the first place.

If anyone actually read this thank you for listening and if you have any advice please share if you want I honestly don't no what to do

Whenever I get upset it's like it doesn't even matter. It always "You don't know how to take a joke" "You're being sensitive"

Oh, but if I did the same? I'D BE THE FUCKING ASSHOLE?!

one of my many skills is fucking things up

*No reply*

Oh so you want me to kill myself?

Hating myself is really easy so I won’t blame you for hating me too

I'm always fucking up everything, no matter who I talk to and no matter what I do. I'm sick of this.. Can someone please just bash my head already?

your mental health will take everything from your life until it eventually takes your life

all this effort for what?? im still fucking disgusting, ugly and pathetic. i feel so fucking useless. what’s the fucking point of trying anymore? i can’t see it.

i dont know if i ever could really.

“I love you.”

No you don't.

I never thought I grow up wanting to die.

The last thing I wanted was to be alone in a room with my fucking thoughts.

I love multi swiping sm it feels like im genuinely destroying myself!

Like the grotesque jagged lines that come from my swiping are so nice

Cutting myself isn't enough, i need to skin myself alive

no cuz like what the fuck is wrong w me, why am i like this i need to know

my range of emotions go from “it’s scary how much i feel” to “it’s scary how much i don’t feel”

No matter what I do I'll never be special.

A little poem I wrote

Tw sh mentioned

Tap tap tap

All I hear is tap tap tap tap

It changes as it gets louder click clack tap click clack tap

I want it to stap to sound makes me want to rip out my heart as I'm begging it to stop

It grows louder click clack bang tap tap tap tap

I can't take it and I find my escape

The cold silver that will take it all away

A new sound it made

Slice

The noise stops and all I hear is the hum of the van every since theat day I slice my skin to make the noise go away

me: im gonna go deep tonight

me: im gonna hit beans

me: im gonna multiswipe

me: i will go deeper than ever before

me: i will need stitches

me: i will rip my flesh from my bones

me: i will get so bad that people will stare

me: i will be valid

me: i will bleed out and die

me: i will stain this ground forever with my blood

me that night: does 2 cat scratches 🤡

I'm ashamed of my own pain

i was never supposed to make it this far what do you mean my future depends on me i cant even get my ass out of bed to make myself a sandwich