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My rambles about My Golden Blood episode 1.

Im sorry but you can’t get me to believe that he never so much as scraped his knee as a kid or got a paper cut. Dude. Ain’t no way.

I don’t think the way they went about trying to keep him safe would work. Especially not on a kid.

Oh ok then. I guess if there are healing abilities then that could help but you still can’t tell me he never got a paper cut. Paper can be so evil.

Ah yes, the door wide open is magically closed when Nakan comes upstairs.

I fucking love it man. So so much. If it seems like I’m criticizing, I’m not. I just highly enjoy teasing people and I just think it’s fun to think about stuff. Especially world building, but like very brief world building I do not go that deeply just whatever brings me joy in the moment.

Aaaaaaaahhh I can’t wait into the next episode. Love vampires.

But also, what show did I watch where one of the main characters had the same medical condition that Tong was told he had? Ah that’s it. I remember now. Legends of Tomorrow. That’s how I know it.

Exclusive Love

My rambles about episodes 1-3, spoilers included.

*grabs characters shoulders* bud you just made a grave mistake. He will not be able to believe in you or view any of your actions as genuine. You’ve shot yourself in the foot bud and I hope they make you have to work at getting forgiveness and trust back.

Motorcycle lady I fucking love you. You seem wonderful and I can’t wait to see how awesome you are. Please sweep this man off his feet. I just really want to see what all she does. And I hope they keep a good relationship (besties at the least, please).

My grades are glitched and I’ve been having to go back and forth on messaging people to try to get it fixed. It’s hard though cause thinking about grades can send me spiraling. It just feels so suffocating and then I start panicking and so I literally cannot let myself think about it or just ruminate on it. I feel like a bother having to message my professor this much. It should be fine though, yeah? I mean this is their job so hopefully yeah? I managed to send out another email to my professor today after sending one to my advisor so fingers crossed that everything will be fixed after this one. I hope, it’s like painful for me to think about this stuff so it just gets increasingly distressing to me. One day I’ll figure out what all mental things I have but until then, this public diary will do. Cause for some reason this helps me more than an actual diary. Don’t know why screaming into the void is more comforting than into a notepad for me. Well if it works to make me feel better than it’s worth it. I am still hungry so might do that. Would help if I could overthinking but eh rambling my thoughts at least gets them out of my head so there’s that. Okay I’m feeling a bit better now, still hungry, but better. Signing off for now. - PendingHopes

Going onto [insert random streaming service] to finish watching a show I started… only to find its no longer there. Removed with no warning, and I now I’m left to grasp at straws. TvT

Alas, why. Oh well, time to search for it on other streaming services I hopefully have

Hmmm.. let’s have this post be a random list of shows I recommend.

Pending train

Last Twilight

Vice Versa

Not me

Natsume yuujinchou

Smile down the runway

Campfire cooking in another world

Zombie detective

My boss is goofy

Lost tomb series

One love (Rak Diao)

Soul land

Lego Monkie kid

Three Star Bar in Nishi Ogikubo

And I’ll leave it at that for now. Just a taste of what I’m gonna do here. I shall ramble about my love of fictional media and go on philosophical tangents. I’ll mark those tangents as mature though and give heavy warnings beforehand so don’t worry. Just enjoy your time here and I’ll enjoy mine! Have fun! 💕

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Mwhahahahaha! I have tags now. For organization. They should be fairly to the point so if you wanna search my page, this should make it easier for you.

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Haven’t been able to fall asleep and the amount of work I need to get done feels too much right now. Feels like I’m probably gonna fail, which makes me feel like shit. But even if I do fail

I could always retake the course. I just don’t want to disappoint people. So what happened was I was taking three courses this semester and prioritized one over the other two causing me to fall behind in both. Now it’s finals week and ima till so fucking behind. So I don’t know if I’ll pass them. And I don’t know what I’ll do if I don’t. I’ve almost caught up in one of them but still. Feels like I should just cut my losses and focus on which one I’m more likely to pass. But I want to try. And by trying to do both I might just shoot myself in the foot doing this.

But what if I succeed? What if I fail? If I succeed I’d most likely get a c, if I’m lucky a b. If I fail I could retake the course. Don’t know if I’d still qualify for financial assistance though if I fail these two. I mean I’m not on a scholarship so it’s not that big of a deal I suppose but still. You know I never planned to go to college. Like when I was in school it was expected of me. But school really fucked me up. Had to get As all the time that I’d breakdown over get a b or just a fucking 90%. It wouldn’t matter which assignment, or how many points it was. I would stress over everything. Then I failed a few classes (there were extenuating circumstances that added to this), but it was so freeing. I redid the courses over summer and just felt so alive. The world didn’t implode and I was still alive. It had a lot less impact than I expected. I mean I was still pressured to get good grades but it didn’t hurt as much. Now though getting an A doesn’t feel like an achievement or something that I accomplished, it still just feels like an expectation. So it still hurts when I fail to meet it. And so I decided after graduating that there was no way in hell id go to college. But then I took a single course and honestly enjoyed it. It does help that I qualified for some financial things that cover me for a few years (which really was the deciding factor, it only lasts a set amount of years for me so if I don’t take courses now the money assistance would expire so gotta use it while I can). But old mindsets keep creeping back in. Lack of faith in myself, what could very well be executive dysfunction, mental health issues, just piled up again this semester. Keep thinking I overcame it that I’m doing better and it all comes crashing back. It’s hard. And I don’t know how to tell people that. I just accept my actions as they are and continue on. And I fucked up a lot this semester. But I also did try. There’s also the fact that I get sick when I stress out now. Started happening junior year of high school. On the very last day of school I puked due to stress. Ended up not going cause I couldn’t tell if I was sick or not. Since then whenever I stress out or overthink I puke. I’ve gotten better at managing it but I also have started to get nauseous when anxious so I need to do something. I’ve been meaning to meditate consistently but it’s the consistent part I’m having trouble with. Though I do think it would help. So I guess I’m just worried. And I still have all the work I need to do. I know I’m gonna try but if I fail anyway it’s gonna hurt so much. But I’ll be prepared for next time. No matter the outcome I’ll be prepared for next time. Okay, yeah. I’ll be okay. Sorry just needed to vent. Needed a moment to breathe.

Are you ever too busy monologuing a story in your head that you realize you didn’t actually pay attention to the scene that just played out in the show? You just kinda go off on a side story or tangent with the characters and then are just like, ah damn what’d I miss?

I may have just binge watched this show and I freaking love it. It is incredibly difficult for me to find gifs of it unfortunately.

Got Jirayu as Race in BAD GUYS (2022)

My rambles about Ossan’s Love Thai version.

Honestly I’m loving it. I can handle the comedy and it’s not too hard for me to watch. (Note: I get really bad secondhand embarrassment. I used to have to physically leave the room when watching things cause of how painful it is for me. I’m able to handle more now but still kinda curl into a ball and plug my ears during certain scenes. It hasn’t happened yet for me in this show so I am so happy I can fully handle it. I still enjoy shows I get secondhand embarrassment, such as Bad & Crazy. Amazing but I digress.) Anyway, I absolutely love the comedy and characters. It’s just so fun. I’ve tried to watch the Japanese version but haven’t been able to handle it on my own with the secondhand embarrassment so I’m glad to still be able to experience the story. I’m sure they’re both great. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh it’s just my little pick me up for the week. Okay I’m done rambling. Tiramasee you soon! (<- this is a joke in reference to a musical improv show I saw where this was sang at the end. Let’s just say it was a beautiful in the moment piece).