ignore the tags. I usually don't use them but I kinda wanna find new people here so if you see this : pls pls reply/like this so I can follow you. my dash is literally dead and I feel like ed tumblr is too :(
all I think about is calories yet that doesn't stop me from stuffing my fat face
PSA
I think i speak for every ED blog when i say that even though i hate myself and my body - i do not think the same about any of my followers.
you could weigh 200lbs more than me and i still would not think you’re ugly, MY body dysmorphia and MY ED does not extend to you
they way ive had this stupid ass ed for so long and im still not skinny shoulda done this shit the healthy way bro 💀💀💀
to every sharp pain in my heart region : i hope u r the 1 end me
why does it feel embarrassing to have any other ed than a restrictive ed?
(I apologize if this is rude to you, I don't mean to be rude or shame or bully anyone who struggles with non-restrictive eds it's just how I feel about myself. I'd rather say I struggle because I don't eat (enough) rather than saying I struggle because I eat too much and binge.)
The people telling me to stop and that I don’t need to be skinny to be pretty, yeah theyre all thin. They’re all pretty.
So stfu. Stfu and worry when I look better than you.
being poor is traumatic. even if you’re not homeless or starving. never being able to get anything nice for yourself, never being able to go out to eat without feeling guilty, never being able to do anything fun that isn’t free, making you housebound in bad weather because you can’t afford to go to a cafe or a movie. it takes a toll. being poor under capitalism makes your life a waking nightmare. this post must be reblogged by everyone.
Currently 2 of my former friends (I don't consider us to be close because we don't talk anymore lol) posted these on insta and they're both super skinny like every time I would see them in our former school I would be so jealous and only stare at their legs and the way they moved. They always seemed so light and carefree.
At work there's a woman even skinnier than them and every time she walks by I also get super jealous. Everyone around me just seems to have their shit together and then I'm over here lying in bed doing absolutely nothing except disappointing my parents with every second that passes, stuffing my fat face at home and also at work. Like can you imagine that I just go to the store on the opposite side of my workplace and buy stuff that together has over 1000 calories
I need to get my shit back together. I got so fat and I look even more disgusting than before