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Please Adam no matter what, do not go to Maryland.

There’s things there that you shouldn’t have to see, people you shouldn’t encounter.

Adam you’re a good soul. I knew a man just like you and he is slowly losing himself.

I wouldn’t want that happening to you.

-🐺

I’m not sure if I know you. You seem to know me, or maybe you don’t and are just acting weirdly without being prompted. I’m willing to consider either possibility.

I actually got a great job offer in Maryland! I haven’t told Beth about it yet. I’m not sure if she’d want to move there or if she’d consider staying together if I lived further from New York.

So, I might have to decline the offer anyway…, though I’ve often thought about moving out of the city since my dad passed away.

Have you taken any photos of raccoons? And if so, which is your favourite? I hope your having a good day :D

Hello!,

Yes, I have.

I recently took this picture. It isn’t really good, you can barely see the Raccoons due to the bright city lights. But that day was really precious because the Raccoon family stayed for so long.

I spent almost the entire night there.

Do you have a favorite planet Adam? I feel like nobody asks you about your interests anymore

I am always happy when I can answer questions that relate to my life or interests!. Maybe even more these days than ever, it sort of calms me down, talking about things I know.

If we’re being technical, Pluto doesn’t qualify as an answer. It was reclassified as a ‘dwarf planet’ in 2006, which means it no longer holds planetary status. That being said, when I was younger, it was my favorite—small, distant, and debated over by scientists who couldn’t quite decide where it belonged. It might be irrational but i always thought there was something unfair about that. If something existed, if it mattered for years, how could people just decide it didn’t count anymore?

Neptune is my usual answer. Its winds are the fastest in the solar system, yet it remains so far away that people rarely think about it. It exists in quiet extremes.

Venus also comes to mind… It’s hostile to life, and most people don’t think much of it beyond its brightness in the sky. But I’ve learned that brightness can be deceptive. Just because something appears beautiful doesn’t mean it isn’t dangerous, and just because something is dangerous doesn’t mean it isn’t worth understanding.

hi adam! i hope you’re well :) i just got a late diagnosis of autism (i’m 23!) and i was wondering if you had any advice for self care and such after a diagnosis? i’m totally comfortable with who i am and how my brain works, it’s still just lots to process !!

Hello. First of all, congratulations on your diagnosis. I assume that might seem like an odd thing to say, but I mean it sincerely—understanding yourself better is always a good thing, even if it takes time to process.

I know it did for me.

I was diagnosed early in childhood, so I can’t speak to the exact experience of learning this about yourself as an adult. But I do understand what it’s like to examine yourself through a new lens and to realize that the way you interact with the world—things you may have once thought were simply personal quirks or unexplained difficulties—actually has a name. It can be both validating and overwhelming.

You say you’re comfortable with who you are, which is already more than many people can say. But if I had any advice, it would be this: be patient with yourself. It’s easy to look back on past experiences and wonder how differently things could have gone had you known then what you know now. But you were always you, diagnosis or not. That hasn’t changed—only your understanding has. The most important thing is using that understanding to advocate for yourself, to make your life easier where possible rather than forcing yourself into spaces or habits that were never designed for you in the first place.

Practically speaking, self-care depends on what you need. If sensory issues are something you struggle with, don’t ignore them—accommodate them in whatever ways you can. If you experience burnout, learn to recognize the signs before it happens and give yourself time to recover. If you mask heavily in social situations, make sure you also allow yourself environments where you don’t have to. The world doesn’t always adapt to us, so we have to be intentional about carving out spaces where we can exist comfortably as ourselves.

Most of all, remember that there is no ‘correct’ way to process something like this. No rush, no expectation—just time. I hope that time is kind to you.

My father once told me that understanding yourself is like learning a language—you’ll always be discovering new words, new meanings, new ways to express things you never quite knew how to before. I think he was right.

Everything is too loud today. My skin feels too tight. My head won’t stop running in circles.

I wish it was possible to turn everything off for a while.

I would really prefer if everyone spoke to me directly, instead of over or for me.

I am a functioning adult, and I don’t need to be spoken for. I understand the concern on both sides, but the aggression from either side is unnecessary and, frankly, overwhelming.

I don’t take sides in this, and I don’t appreciate being used like this, as if my life doesn’t already come with its own stresses. I just want to be completely removed from this conflict and, honestly, I’d prefer it if it stays that way going forward.

@1nvictus @deerrdarling @coke-n-dope

Adam, don’t trust Nigel, he’s a bastard. He called me a fucking liability

-Tonny aka @coke-n-dope

I feel as though I’ve been inadvertently dragged into a personal conflict.

Good to hear from you though, Tonny

Do you like bread?

If so, do you like the crust?

I take them off when I eat bread.

I love bread.

I like the crust most. The rest is fine. It feels sort of mushy, sometimes. I don’t enjoy that.

I know many people like you though. Most people prefer bread without the crust rather than the crust without the bread.

But sourdough especially has a wonderful crust in my opinion.

Sourdough bread is actually one of the oldest types of bread, with evidence of it being baked over 4,000 years ago in ancient Egypt. It makes sense why it tastes so good.

tbh with all this chaotic back and forth I think you and Will should just say ‘fuck it’s and get together.

You’d at least make a pretty couple.

I am unsure whether this was meant as a joke or a serious proposition. If it was a joke, I have to admit—

it was actually quite funny.

I can indeed believe that.

I’m not sure if that prohibits you from succeeding in your profession, though. As for what I’ve learned so far, selling illegal substances and having relationships with prostitutes doesn’t seem all that contradictory or uncommon.

Adam, don’t trust Nigel, he’s a bastard. He called me a fucking liability

-Tonny aka @coke-n-dope

I feel as though I’ve been inadvertently dragged into a personal conflict.

Good to hear from you though, Tonny

Adam, don’t trust Nigel, he’s a bastard. He called me a fucking liability

-Tonny aka @coke-n-dope

I feel as though I’ve been inadvertently dragged into a personal conflict.

Good to hear from you though, Tonny

I have memorized every possible answer. I have practiced in the mirror. I know the words. But my hands still shake when I think about it.

I don’t understand why. If I know what I need to say, why is my heart racing? Why does my throat close? Why does my body not listen to logic?.

I do actually own two!.

A ‘Meade Polaris 70mm Refractor‘ that my father previously owned and a ‘Celestron NexStar 8SE’ that I bought myself.

Hello, Adam. I was wondering if you have a favorite flower or plant or a favorite animal?

-Duncan.

Good evening Duncan!.

I do have a favorite animal.

Raccoons. Definitely raccoons. They’re highly intelligent, their problem-solving skills are impressive, and they have these incredibly dexterous little hands. Did you know that they can remember solutions to tasks for years? And they wash their food before eating it, which is both practical and oddly endearing. I often go to watch a family of raccoons at a park near me. They bring me joy.

As for plants, I think carnivorous plants are fascinating. They literally evolved to defy the usual order of things—plants aren’t supposed to consume animals, and yet, here they are. The Venus flytrap, for example, counts the number of times its trigger hairs are touched before closing, like it’s verifying the presence of prey. That kind of adaptation is remarkable. If find that they have a philosophical aspect to them.

Are you a jealous person?

Jealousy is irrational. It serves no practical function, and yet, I think if I care about someone enough, I might experience a version of it.

Not in an aggressive way, but… I wouldn’t like the idea of being replaceable. I‘ve been told I get ‘sulky‘.

No raccoons, but you have uninterrupted access to the stars. That’s something worth envying. Light pollution makes it nearly impossible to see anything clearly here—our atmosphere scatters artificial light, washing out all but the brightest celestial objects. Even planets struggle to compete. It’s especially difficult in a city like New York.

I would love to go to a place like that sometime.

Hello, Adam. I was wondering if you have a favorite flower or plant or a favorite animal?

-Duncan.

Good evening Duncan!.

I do have a favorite animal.

Raccoons. Definitely raccoons. They’re highly intelligent, their problem-solving skills are impressive, and they have these incredibly dexterous little hands. Did you know that they can remember solutions to tasks for years? And they wash their food before eating it, which is both practical and oddly endearing. I often go to watch a family of raccoons at a park near me. They bring me joy.

As for plants, I think carnivorous plants are fascinating. They literally evolved to defy the usual order of things—plants aren’t supposed to consume animals, and yet, here they are. The Venus flytrap, for example, counts the number of times its trigger hairs are touched before closing, like it’s verifying the presence of prey. That kind of adaptation is remarkable. If find that they have a philosophical aspect to them.

Soooo... Are things okay with Beth? Heard something happened, and someone got really upset/sad/angry? Whatever it was, I hope both of you are doing better now ❤️

Thank you for asking. I am doing good.

Beth apologized to me yesterday. I got an offer for a job interview and she will help me with practicing for that. Beth is important to me so I try not to think about it anymore. She seemed really overwhelmed that evening, I can relate to that.

Really? In what aspects?

Hello, Adam. I was wondering if you have a favorite flower or plant or a favorite animal?

-Duncan.

Good evening Duncan!.

I do have a favorite animal.

Raccoons. Definitely raccoons. They’re highly intelligent, their problem-solving skills are impressive, and they have these incredibly dexterous little hands. Did you know that they can remember solutions to tasks for years? And they wash their food before eating it, which is both practical and oddly endearing. I often go to watch a family of raccoons at a park near me. They bring me joy.

As for plants, I think carnivorous plants are fascinating. They literally evolved to defy the usual order of things—plants aren’t supposed to consume animals, and yet, here they are. The Venus flytrap, for example, counts the number of times its trigger hairs are touched before closing, like it’s verifying the presence of prey. That kind of adaptation is remarkable. If find that they have a philosophical aspect to them.

Hiii Adam :3 I was wondering if you have a type? It doesn’t matter if in men or women but you can specify (if you want). I was wondering if there is anything specific you find yourself gravitating towards.

I have found that I find myself gravitating towards people somewhat older than me. I often find comfort in that.

Generally, I don’t feel like I have the experience to make out a type. I don’t find myself in control of who I end up liking.

Hello, Adam. I was wondering if you have a favorite flower or plant or a favorite animal?

-Duncan.

Good evening Duncan!.

I do have a favorite animal.

Raccoons. Definitely raccoons. They’re highly intelligent, their problem-solving skills are impressive, and they have these incredibly dexterous little hands. Did you know that they can remember solutions to tasks for years? And they wash their food before eating it, which is both practical and oddly endearing. I often go to watch a family of raccoons at a park near me. They bring me joy.

As for plants, I think carnivorous plants are fascinating. They literally evolved to defy the usual order of things—plants aren’t supposed to consume animals, and yet, here they are. The Venus flytrap, for example, counts the number of times its trigger hairs are touched before closing, like it’s verifying the presence of prey. That kind of adaptation is remarkable. If find that they have a philosophical aspect to them.

I saw a guy today wearing sunglasses indoors. The sun wasn’t out.

Neither was common sense, apparently.

Thank you, Tonny.

Beth was over today. She took this picture while I was reading and said I should post it.

So I am.

do beth know u behave like a harlot online ?

I don’t think that’s an accurate description of my character..

I intentionally left my wording open to interpretation.

Am I your favorite, Nigel?.

Beth was over today. She took this picture while I was reading and said I should post it.

So I am.

I believe he looks more similar to Will Graham, his hair is just darker.

I would like to reiterate that I am an engineer but I have never committed theft.

You’re like.. crazy pretty

Errr the name’s Tonny btw.

-@coke-n-dope

That is very direct. Hello, Tonny

Hi- Im Lenny, Im really new to this app. You seem really pretty though. Do you have any movie recommendations? I see you like space, I have a few space films at the video store I work at.

talk to you later starboy.

🎬 ( @film-collecter )

Hello Lenny!,

Thank you. I do have many recommendations.

Two of my favorite films are A Beautiful Mind (2001, dir. Ron Howard) and The Imitation Game (2014, dir. Morten Tyldum). Both films have a strong focus on the protagonist, but they still fit your criteria. Contact (1997, dir. Robert Zemeckis) is simply brilliant in its scientific accuracy. I also think Moon (2009, dir. Duncan Jones) is one of the best films ever made—it inspires me to this day. If you want to watch something more laid-back but not the absolute garbage that many self-proclaimed ‘space’ movies are, I can recommend Wall-E (2008, dir. Andrew Stanton).

Let me know if you are interested in something more specific!.

Normally I’m a spacekaiser shipper but I love your interactions with Nigel sm I kinda hope he’ll stop obsessing over Will. Especially because that’s a losing game once Hannibal is involved.

I am afraid I did not understand the context for half of what you wrote. But I am glad that you seem happy with the status quo of this blog.

A hooker and a car thief. You seem determined to compare me to the most questionable people you’ve met. Should that concern me ?

You’re like.. crazy pretty

Errr the name’s Tonny btw.

-@coke-n-dope

That is very direct. Hello, Tonny

That seems like an unnecessary comparison. Helen of Troy caused a war.

I just sat in a chair and read a book. But if you think beauty alone can tip the scales of history, I won’t argue.

Besides, I think I don’t mind being the cause of your awe. It’s nice.

Beth was over today. She took this picture while I was reading and said I should post it.

So I am.

I don’t know what I was expecting, but it wasn’t that.

I feel like I walked into an entire play where everyone else had the script but me. And now the show’s over, the audience has left, and I’m just standing here, still trying to understand the plot.

Intuition is mostly irrational, but if I were to believe in that sort of thing, I would describe having a strange feeling about tonight.

Intuition is mostly irrational, but if I were to believe in that sort of thing, I would describe having a strange feeling about tonight.

You’re like.. crazy pretty

Errr the name’s Tonny btw.

-@coke-n-dope

That is very direct. Hello, Tonny