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I’ve never been the first choice

I’ve never been one of the popular girls

I’ve never been invited to all the parties

I’ve never been a ‘goal’ anything

I’ve never been liked

But

trust me

Once I reach my goal, you’ll all see

How beautiful I’ve become

How much of a ‘goal’ I am

How everyone will like me

How I will be the first choice

How much I’ve changed

But

that won’t happen as long as

I choose the sweets over my stomach

I grab the cake without thinking about my thighs

I eat the junk food not giving any thought visible collarbones or dainty fingers

I continue stuffing myself not thinking about my body

I eat like this

But

If I stopped now

If I restricted

If I controlled my own urges

If I lose weight

I will get there

Trust me.

Soooo I was convinced that march would be my month. BUT MY DUMBASS FUCKED UP AND BINGED TODAY

Fml

10 things to do if you feel like binging

1. Listen to music

2. Paint your nails.

3. Do at least 1 homework assignment

4. Go outside and get some air

5. Text/FaceTime a friend

6. Go on tumblr(my favorite😛)

7. Take a shower or bath

8. Play with a pet

9. Do your makeup

10. Do a chore like dishes, or laundry

10 low cal foods to eat

1. Popcorn (50 calories per cup)

2. cucumbers (16 calories in a cup)

3. Rice cakes (30 calories per cake)

4. Lettuce(5 calories per cup!!!)

5. Pickles(16 calories per cup)

6. Carrots( 45 calories per cup)

7.broth (16-ish calories per cup)

8. Watermelon(46 calories per cup)

9.Egg whites(16 calories per egg-also high in protein)

10. Plain non fat yogurt(137 calories per cup)

10 things to do after you binge

1. Take a deep breath, it’s okay

2. Drink at least one cup of water

3. Go on a walk

4. Try and write down what foods made you binge so it won’t happen again

5. Clean up any messes you made

6. Take a shower

7. Write down a plan on how not to binge next time

8. Do something productive

9. Purging isn’t worth it

10. Try again tomorrow❤️

Oversized sweater themed thinspo

I am so hungry rn and wanted to get some yoghurt

However my father forbid me to eat bc someone from the insurance will come this evening and he doesnt want me to eat until He has gone again

So i guess tonight we'll be starving

Man, this family is so fucked up

19.06.2021

Morgens:

Gewicht: 54.8kg (+300)

Gegessen: 1 grüner Apfel, 1/2 Banane, 150g griech. Joghurt

Kalorien: 250

Hunger: bisschen

Essverhalten: abgelenkt (Pinterest), gut gekaut, nur am Esstisch

Sport: -

Vormittags:

Gewicht:

Gegessen: -

Kalorien: 0

Hunger: nein

Essverhalten: -

Sport: im Garten arbeiten

Mittags:

Gewicht: -

Gegessen: 3 Stück Peperonibrot, kleine Portion Wurstsalat, halbe Dose Mais

Kalorien: 600

Hunger: Heißhunger

Essverhalten: riesen Appetit, während dem Essen kein Völlegefühl, danach schon, eher wenig gekaut

Sport: -

Nachmittags:

Gewicht: -

Gegessen: noggereis

Kalorien: 250

Hunger: nein

Essverhalten: Nachschlag, am Tisch

Sport: -

Abends:

Gewicht: -

Gegessen: 4 Neapolitaner, 75g Popcorn, 2 Maiswaffeln, Johannisbeeren

Kalorien: 600

Hunger: nein

Essverhalten: sehr unkontrolliert, abgelenkt (pinterest), große bissen, nicht gut gekaut

Sport: 775 Übungen

Fazit

Gewicht&BMI: 54.8kg, 19.6

Erste Mahlzeit: 8:30

Fastenstunden:13.5

Letzte Mahlzeit: 19:00

Gesamte Kalorien: 1700

Getrunken: 3l

Schritte: 25000

Sport: 775 Übungen 

Viel zu viel gegessen, extrem ungesund gegessen

Thinspo Imagine #1: The Beginning of Fall

It was around 7 in the morning when the sun woke you up. It danced across your sheets and your desk, earning a soft groan from you as you slowly woke up. The sheets draped over your dainty body, slipping down over your shoulders as you sat up. Your hands sat in your lap, bundling up the blanket a bit as you looked out the window at a beautiful morning.

After admiring the view a little bit, you slipped out of bed, one thin leg after the other. Your soft pajamas draped over your lithe figure, truly accentuating how petite you were. They sagged a bit around your tiny waist and the sleeves stopped past the palm of your hand. You looked so tiny in them, swallowed by the soft fabric.

You padded to the bathroom and stripped, stepping on the scale, before smiling to yourself. Almost there.

You took a quick, hot shower, relishing in the feeling of each bone of your body as you skimmed your hands over yourself. Water pooled slightly in your collarbones and not on rolls of fat.

You were glowing when you got out, and turned around in the mirror. You counted three ribs on each side of your flat stomach, which concaved ever so slightly when you looked at yourself from the side. Your tiny waist filled out into toned thighs with a gap in between, which dipped back in at the knees to long, thin legs. Your thin hands danced around your tiny neck and prominent collars, tracing the sharp curve of your jawline, moving a few strands of wet hair that clung to your cheek. Your eyes looked bigger and your sharp nose was the same red as the apples of your cheeks, accentuating your soft lips and tiny chin.

You spoiled yourself for a few minutes, turning this way and that, looking at every curve and dip of your body. Finally, when the water sticking to your frame sent a chill through you, a silk robe was pulled up and over your shoulders. Silently, you left the bathroom.

You walked to your closet and opened the sliding door. You watched your thin fingers as they gripped the white wood.

As you had lost weight, you slowly added more and more clothes to your closet. Flowy tops, cute jeans, sweet skirts. Wearing them was a reward in and of itself, once you were able to fit into them. You looked cute and fragile in some, skinny and sharp in others. They each had their own style - and a place in your heart. They were the biggest sign of your progress.

You slipped into a cute, creme colored long sleeve top, relishing in the comfortable feel of the thin, flowy fabric. Your legs were hugged by dark blue, high-wasited jeans that you slid into perfectly. Simple gold bracelets sat on your wrists, and a thin gold chain around your neck.

You looked killer, and posed a bit. The jeans acentuated your thigh gap and thin, lean legs as well as your cinched waist, while the shirt hung low enough to reveal your collarbone, draping off of you in a way that showed how small you were underneath. Your hands were lithe and dainty, your skin fresh and clear.

You moved to your window, spreading the curtains and pulling the sliding glass open. Birds sang and danced around each other, and the hints of city life teemed in the few people walking along the sidewalk. You adored the city. Maple trees grew along the road and charming shops filled the empty space between tall buildings.

The wind blew, billowing the silk curtins out around you as you took in a deep breath. The cool air filled your lungs so beautifully, and your bright eyes fluttered closed.

All your hard work, all the long night curled up in your bed, ignoring hunger pains. Forcing awful-tasting teas down your throat. Losing and gaining, working out until you colapsed, sleeping through the day and binging at night. Your journey was so hard, with just as many downs as there were ups.

But you kept at it, holding on to the dream of a brighter future. Your binges grew smaller and fewer. You coud last longer without food, and it took less for you to feel full. The barest of muscle formed, and working out was less of a chore and more of a hobby. People started commenting on your figure. It was euphoric, fitting into your first XS pair of jeans.

You opened your eyes again, watching the green trees sway in the breeze. They were showing the first hints of autumn, a few crisp leaves turning to the color of honey and roses.

For the first time in a while, you realised, you were happy with where you were.

Quick lesson y’all

So I have done around 175 situps every night for the last while as a nervous thing (yk gotta burn any possible calories) but the thing with situps is that they are so bad for your lower back. I haven’t been able to do my sit-ups or sit comfortably or even sleep comfortably because when I do a sit-up it puts so much pressure on my lower back that now something is going wrong and it is hurting me. So please learn from me if you can and do planks or Russian twists or something other than sit-ups or crunches because they are likely to do more harm than good.

Stay safe babes

why i enjoy working out as an ana

reason 1: lose weight

obviously you burn calories while working out.. this helps you achieve a lower net cal number and in the end a lower number on the scale

reason 2: something to do

when im bored i tend to eat. but if you get yourself out of the kitchen and into a gym or where ever you choose to exercise. its a distraction that will ultimately be good for your health and weight

reason 3: the showers

this helps me to get into the shower when my depression doesnt want me too. for me getting into a long cold shower after working out makes me feel hydrated and calm. cold showers burn more calories and showering also gives you something to do besides eating

reason 4: feel better about yourself

whenever i binge i make sure to exercise a lot. it makes me feel like even tho i just ate a lot im losing alot of those calories right now

Neue Diät: ich darf nur an denen Tagen auf tiktok, an denen ich weniger wiege als am Tag davor