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guys we did it. we held on till may

I want to be loved more than I want to be alive I want to be loved more than I want to be alive I want to be loved more than I want to be alive I want to be loved more than I want to be alive I want to be loved more than I want to be alive I want to be loved more than I want to be alive I want to be loved more than I want to be alive I want to be loved more than I want to be alive I want to be loved more than I want to be alive I want to be loved more than I want to be alive I want to be loved more than I want to be alive I want to be loved more than I want to be alive I want to be loved more than I want to be alive I want to be loved more than I want to be alive I want to be loved more than I want to be alive I want to be loved more than I want to be alive

i’m kind of resenting my friends for being straight.. and not understanding how certain things affect me or how i yearn for people who are similar to me.

i don’t get periods often like i’ve had a year where i didn’t have one at all and i also was really late into having one but im on it now and im horny as hell AND in pain ? how does this work

Haley Lu Richardson as Casey in Columbus (2017) dir. Kogonada

inherited your dad's crazy eyes

history repeats our whole damn lives

well. yes!

Y’all we have to stop making eachother feel bad for having sexual attraction. Lesbians are allowed to be horny we don’t have to be sexless pastel princesses holding hands in a field or smth. Be horny, it’s frankly revolutionary to be a sweaty horny dyke.

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i want to do so much. i know i could be good at some stuff but i choose to sit on my bed with tears and my teddies under my head. i choose to fuck up my life i’m too young to be having an existential crisis

i want to be friends with more dykes. i feel like every couple ive met in this city are sapphic, strawberry picking, mitski listening lesbians, and while i love they life theyve carved for themselves, that is just not me.

i want to be friends with dykes that are having disgustingly kinky sex with one another, dykes that always have their hands dirty, dykes that want to slam shots with me at 6pm on a thursday.

i want to be friends with zine making dykes, drag things, dykes that start fights with men creeping on their friends dykes that dance ontop of the bar and dykes that you can hear getting each other off while you wait in line for their bathroom stall.

i want to play pool and darts surrounded by dykes who have lives revolving around living in the moment, i want to be around dykes who have complex genders and dont care about the norms, i dont want to go to sapphic pottery night, i dont want to pick wildflowers, i want to get dirty and i want to be around people who get me.

Dream Machine (Short) | Brett Vapnek | 2001

Mary Timony

megan lynne

taylor russell in bones and all (2022) dir. luca guadagnino

We Are Who We Are, Luca Guadagnino (2020)

this work maintains for every moment that fleetingness that only Guadagnino manages to convey with such complex simplicity. a story that is an epiphany, the slowness of a summer that passes away, slowly letting the first signs of an imminent change emerge. self-rediscovery, mourning, and again the peace of the quiet sky after the storm. the purgatory of an existence lived anywhere except in a place concrete enough to call it home. adolescent desire, contemplation of beauty. there is purity even in the eros, which never falls beyond the veil of vulgarity. in today's cinematographic culture where sexuality, the exaggerated complexity of man and the so-called beauty are mercifully flaunted, Guadagnino gives us everything and nothing. there is simplicity even in the complex world of those who are slowly starting to discover their identity. religion rediscovered after the untimely death of a friend, or perhaps something more. "I'm 19 years old and I'm a widow, crazy right?", there is innocence even in torment and in the guilt of death. loving in the immeasurable and unconditional way of adolescence is also healing oneself from sorrow, protecting oneself from those who are not able to understand us and carrying each other in our pockets. those who have died are not mourned and distance is treated with so little that one doubts the distance itself.

at the end of the show i let The Great Gig In The Sky play in my headphones. war ultimately leads to peace, to silence.

one of the most splendid cinematic pieces I have ever experienced.

We Are Who We Are: 1.01 (2020) dir. Luca Guadagnino

Chungking Express (1994) dir. Wong Kar-wai

Lorde’s first notes for still sane, buzzcut season, and team

Louise Glück, from “Otis”, Poems 1962 - 2012

genuinely me right now

Party Girl (1995) dir. Daisy Von Scherler Mayer

Parker Posey in Party Girl (Daisy von Scherler Mayer, 1995)

how can being shy and reserved be unique and good when you strive for and need community? when you want to make more friends, like minded etc, when you want to be intimate with someone?

i guess it’s good when you don’t want to do those things but I DO. i want to engage with people i want to have control on when i speak which includes speaking not just being quiet.

uni has been such a weird and alienating experience, granted i’m in my first year and it’s a huge place but it seems like everyone knows eachother and that everything is going smoothly.i went in thinking id make so many friends and feel content with my choices but my mental health has been deteriorating and my doctors (who are male and i swear that has an impact) don’t understand what im trying to say.

I’m obsessed with Rachel True in Nowhere (1997). I can’t tell if I want to be her or be with her .. AAAHH fuck it I’m rewatching it tonight!!!!!

pierce the veil <3

Emo Artists with koalas pt1

do you love me now? ✺*ೃ༄

watching coming of age movies to reinstall my love for living

°❀⋆.ೃ࿔*:･ intro °❀⋆.ೃ࿔*:･ pls read!!

tw’s: sh just like my observations, nsft.

i just post whatever. 18 black femme.

i love movies, books, shows + music! i have a LARGE dvd and cd collection and i want to talk to anyone about anything!!! about being a femme4butch lesbian, i want to make lesbian specifically butch and femme friends who are also kind of not typical. also if you like rookie mag interact! cause i love rookie sm. i’m gonna tag the things i like!

i think the blog will probs have nsfw since it’s a diary so anyone under 18 (06) DNI. zionists, fatphobes, edt, men, lesbophobes and homophobes, transphobes DNI

just to make sure, anything i say about butches/studs is within the context that i am respecting them and not denouncing butches to just sexual beings. i love butches + studs beyond being partners, and will always value the friendship. The obvious eroticism in the butchfemme dynamic should not be lost on everyone, i am embracing it not just someone.

this feels so disorganised lol

FREE PALESTINE 🇵🇸 and all occupied countries.

The Watermelon Woman (1996), dir. Cheryl Dunye