First Of Many Days Not Eating. I Am Simply Not Allowed To Eat. What A Liberation.

Feeling exhausted. 3d needs patience

36 hours without food now, running 10k every day. Feels good. My body disappears. Disturbing things: sleep is not good and I am freezing all the time (here is still winter). BMI 20.4 now.

new rules just for me:

(im writing these here cause i hide tumblr on my phone so no one can find it)

1. no more than 500 cals a day

2. no liquid calories only water

3. vitamins and supplements every single day no exceptions

4. 10,000 steps a day

5. if youre eating a meal dont finish it

6. no snacking

7. home workouts every night before bed

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Essentially I want to be less. Diminished. 20 kg of me are not needed. I want to be less visible. Paradoxically I find a friend(s) here who sees me. This makes me happy. So I want to disappear while being happy to be seen.

I have an important exam tomorrow which lasts all the day. Normally I would not eat at all today, but then I sleep not good. So I might need to eat, but I will try to eat as late as possible. I hate it.

My 4n4 rules 🍂

Those are my personnal rules for how i deal with my €d so if it trigger you just block 🖤

No processed food

Always zero sugar

Always low/zero fat

Vegetables and fruit every single day

Of course i never add sugar in my meals

No cheese exept mozzarella

Making my meals and limiting eating outside

Always low proportion

No dessert

No fast fooda

No snack on week-end and school vacation

I allow myself 1 snack on the afternoon only on school week for strenght

1000 cal max

1h sport per day

At least one 24h fast per week (since i live with my bf i can't fast much)

Not eating when my bf is not home

Not eating alone

Green tea every morning

2 liter water per day

10k steps per day

Skipping breakfast on week-end

I allow myself to binge only on my first day of period because it make my pain less painful

Small bite

Never taking the first bite

Never asking for food

Daily checking Tumblr for thinsp0

Thats it ! 🍂

Hey, wanna be weight loss buddies? 💝 I came back on Tumblr these days to regain my motivation and started to rearrange the page and made a food journal. If you ever need support or a talk, I am here. I wish you all the best and strength 💖

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i love starving myself

nobody knows what i’m doing, i walk around with a secret, and i love it

quiet rules for quieter days

– choose discipline before desire. let control be the first bite.

– brush your teeth, then once more. mint tells hunger to wait outside.

– cold water fills the places where want once lived.

– chew until your thoughts dissolve, not the craving.

– let the scent satisfy. the will to say no is the real indulgence.

– move your limbs until the noise fades. burn to remember you’re alive.

– stand beneath cold water. reset. rinse the need from your skin.

– scroll the still bodies, the soft lines, the quiet frames. become the goal.

– let bitter coffee kiss your throat. green tea if the silence needs steeping.

– curl into the ache. breathe through it. you’ve done this before.

– remind yourself: it’s not about food. it’s about becoming less.

71 hours