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Thats exactly how we feel too, so good to see were not alone

A comic about how our system (especially our host) feels about our experiences as a P-DID system, and our place in the system community as a P-DID system.

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"I wish we weren't a P-DID system."

"I've been the lone host of this system for 11+ years. The dominant part of it."

"It's been a lot to deal with."

"I wish I wasn't the host of our system."

"I wish I could switch out with someone willingly,"

"Because sometimes it's all too much."

"I know it would probably be just as - if not more- distressing."

"But sometimes I find myself envious of system that can switch and share responsibilities."

"I want to switch, but I'm also scared of the idea of letting go of front. Maybe that comes with being a P-DID system."

"I'm scared of what might happen if someone else fronted, alone."

"I feel guilty for thinking that, because I know of a handful of instances,"

"and all of them were FINE. Nobody even suspected it was Titan or Harby, not me."

"Of course, they only front very rarely. I can count all instances I know on two hands. And only when I physically can't front. Due to sleeping\being unconscioud or something similar."

"I feel bad that the others don't get time to do the things they want to."

"I feel like none of this might be real, because I rarely see people talk abt [about] P-DID experiences."

"I feel like an outsider in the system community."

"I wish there was a bigger P-DID community to share experiences with."

[text in boxes say: "*something about switches* #pdid" "*talk abt switching* #pdid" "*switching meme* #pdid" "*switching* #pdid" "*switches* pdid"] "I feel sad everytime I see post[s] about switching in the PDID tags. They remind me that's not me."

"You can't do that."

"I'm -- we're -- tired of constantly hearing P-DID is just the OSDD-1 of the ICD. We don't think they're the same at all."

"When we hear people with OSDD-1 share their experiences, we can't really relate. Neither subtype reflects our experience as a P-DID system."

"I feel broken and wrong."

"I feel like we don't belong in the system community."

"We don't share a lot of the common system experiences, because we have P-DID."

"But we don't feel like we belong to the singlets, either."

"We feel alone with our struggles."

⠀ ﹒⠀⠀⠀⠀➴⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀˚⠀ ⠀⠀⠀ 𓂂　⠀⠀⠀𓇼

⠀hi⠀hi!⠀i’m⠀marco⠀or⠀eiji.⠀i’m 16 years old⠀&⠀boygirl, nonhuman ( it + ) i’m mixed ( 🇨🇺 🇯🇵 ). my birthday is june 3rd. i'm taken by my lovely boyfriend and partner 🤍

⠀byi: i’m a system (osdd) & have bpd, autism, and others (ask if VERY close).⠀i struggle to talk to people and don't use tonetags (unless asked) please don't use them on me!⠀i use a screenreader and english is NOT my first lang.

⠀dni: basic dni,⠀you say "i like (interest) more than you" and "i'm gonna touch you,"⠀your only sense of humor is nsfw jokes,⠀ragebait,⠀anti-recovery,⠀those ranfren / okegom / regretevator / 8:11 / southpark fans,⠀i block freely.

⠀interests: animanga,⠀roblox (daybreak, limbo, regretevator +),⠀sparklecare hospital,⠀idv,⠀be more chill,⠀tmf,⠀sam and max,⠀mysme,⠀omswd,⠀twst,⠀amphibia,⠀voltron,⠀it,⠀starberry,⠀spicymints,⠀alien stage,⠀sam and colby,⠀8:11 and more (bold is what i'm most fixated / defensive on right now)

⠀blog info: this blog is mostly for whatever!⠀reblogs, interacting with others, and maybe making my own posts…⠀it really just depends on the day!⠀i may disappear for sometime, mostly due to school or just being with my partners!⠀if anything, that's what i'd post most about.⠀interact with caution if you're iffy with obsessive / posessive, vent-ish, borderline posts!

⠀anons: none..

★ Aatamixx, the Echoflower System's Introduction 💫🪻

Hello, welcome to my blog, I'm Aatami (AKA Mishka or Snep)! Well, that's just collectively speaking. If you're talking about the whole system, you can call me (us) the Echoflower System. My collective pronouns are he/him, but kit/kitself, nya/nyaself, and star/starself are all good too. I'm pretty new to Tumblr (well I had a blog in like 2020, but I've forgotten basically everything about it… also I use parentheses way too much, gosh), but I plan to use this blog as a sort of archive for all the xenogenders I've coined, as well as getting into the MOGAI and plural communities on here. I hope I can find my people on this website. /lh

(This post will be periodically edited as things about myself change, of course.)

★ So Now That I Know This Aatami, Where Can I Find Him? ★

In case you had it in you for even more rambling, you can check out my about me literature on Toyhouse (I use it like a Carrd). More things are already linked there, so I don't need to re-add them all here. I also use the account that it's posted under for posting the occasional bulletin (and storing my original characters, but those are all private and will remain as such for the foreseeable future).

★ Small Facts About the System ★

(Switching to using plural language for this was a little jarring lawl, I'm very much used to referring to myself singularly.)

★ We have OSDD-1B (recognized by our psychologist, but unable to be officially diagnosed due to not being disordered — we've achieved functional multiplicity, surprisingly enough) and are of mixed traumagenic origins

★ We are an aceplex

★ We're a theriosystem

★ We are very male- / masculine-heavy, due to our gender dysphoria affecting everyone

★ Because we're so male-heavy, we default to using he/him instead of they/them when referring to an unspecified alter or one whose gender identity is unknown

★ We're also somewhat angel-heavy

★ Due to our maladaptive daydreaming, our system has countless paracosms (the most active ones of which being the worlds our original stories are set in, as well as our fandoms, especially ones we're hyperfixating on)

★ Our headspace is exclusively set in our daydreams, and is not something that's just there in the background — it has to be consciously visualized and visited (or well, accidentally while zoning out)

★ We are a dreamway system of sorts, but I should mention that we don't experience walk-ins and pretty much none of our alters are paragenic

★ Our alters almost never interact in the headspace, but they can use things like the Simply Plural chat and get a conversation going if need be

★ Alter Signoff Chart ★

(I originally planned to list their roles here too, but I ended up deciding against it, since I'm unsure of what some of their purposes are and uncomfortable with sharing a few others.)

★ The Hosts ★

⚡️💙 = Fritz ★ He/Kit/Spark

🌈🌺 = Sindri ★ He/Kit/Meow/Nya/Star/.Exe

🌀🎧 = Samuel ★ He/Him

❄️🌙 = Mikko ★ He/They/Kit/Nya/Snow/Star

★ Alfred's Subsystem ★

🐾🩸 = Alfred ★ He/Him

🐾🚬 = Ekkehard (Eike) ★ He/Him

🐾🤍 = Kelso ★ He/Him

🐾✨ = Aleksi ★ He/They/Pup

🐾🎀 = Salem ★ She/He/They/Pup

★ Everyone Else ★

☀️🥀 = Akatsuki ★ He/Kit

❓❗️= Alois ★ He/Him

🌻💛 = Asriel ★ He/They

🌹👑 = August ★ He/They

🐦‍⬛🌙 = Corbin ★ He/Him

🔪🚬 = Dylan ★ He/Him

🐈‍⬛💜 = Ender ★ Xae/They/He/Kit

📘⭐️ = Felix ★ He/They

🌊🦈 = Finnley ★ He/They

🪽🏹 = Gabriel ★ They/He

🪖🔪 = Ivan ★ He/Him

🐛🌈 = Jeremy ★ He/Him

🍪💖 = Katsumi / Sabrina ★ She/They/He/Kit/Meow/Mew/Nya

🐺🩸 = Lavrentiy ★ He/Him

🌿⚔️ = Malachi ★ He/Him

🍌🦮 = Nanner (trying to think of a new name for himself) ★ He/She/They/Pup

🌐🖥️ = Prototype (trying to think of a new name for himself) ★ He/Him

🥀🗡️ = Reinhard ★ He/Him

🪐🌌 = Saturn ★ He/They/Pup/Star

🎸🧡 = Shalva ★ He/Him

🎀🐇 = Sylvan ★ He/They/Bun

🪳🩸 = Vermin ★ They/He

🗝️🩸 = (Currently undecided on a name for himself, very recently discovered.) ★ He/Him

We have been so fuzzy and not knowing whos fronting i hate it. Probably cause our birthday but it’s still annoying.

Barely anyone irl knows I’m a system, and i want to keep it that way. I think if more people knew id be even more alone.

Weve had a few splits these last few days, but can only identify one atm. Maybe she can find them?!?!?!?

New job got us acting like one person……little do they know……

I want two sooo bad when i was little, i made a big slideshow for a school project in elementary. I totally forgot about thisss.

My heart-

I find one big misconceptions about fictives in systems is that they are characters that you like/liked. Like I’m a Vriska Serket fictive, and our system HATED the character Vriska. And it took me a while to be myself and be okay with it, and now everyone is chill with me. Just something Ive been thinkin about. It was kinda funny cause one day everyone was like, “oh you actually chill as fuck”. Some of them still dont like the character, but we also know that im not my source.

Alter Fun Fact #1

Lyrics from "Everybody Likes You" by Lemon Demon

Darnell wears rose tinted glasses!

We think he might have NPD, but it's very strange because no one else in our system acts anything like that. He's also very stereotypical and exaggerated so at first I was hesitant to say he did... but now I'm starting to think that's mainly because he has no social skills whatsoever and has barely talked to anyone outside of our system. If that is the case, it's really interesting how disorders can present differently in systems!

Either way, the tinted glasses represent the unrealistic "lens" through which he sees the world. He automatically assumes he's very important and likeable to everyone, and entitled to their attention. He doesn't seem to understand why this isn't the case and gets frustrated when things don't work out the way he wants them to.

We're starting to understand why he acts like this though and hopefully with some patience we'll work it out ^^

When you struggle with identity loss so you just adopt that as your identity.

Me: Scrolling thru Tumblr

Theo: Fucking fronts specifically to make me go back and like a post I didn't care enough to like myself

And that's how literally every post on our feed was liked.

Do any other systems just... like... look through stuff they made/said before they knew they were a system and cringe so hard?

Like. Personally, we made up an entire alternative explanation for what we were to avoid being associated with alters... but uh, funny story, here we are now :]

System Tree

Quick recap of terms:

Split - When an alter "splits", forming two or more new alters from the original one.

Blend - A temporary fusion between alters.

Primary Alter - An alter who is most commonly present, the "default mode". This is a term we personally created for our own system.

Additionally, "whole" is in quotation marks because of how systems form! There technically never was a state a being whole, but because M/N refers to a potential final fusion and blend as well as us before we became a system, we have chosen to use that term.

oh my god r u a system w incredibox sourced alts too ?!?

YES I AM!!!