You Know That Feeling When You Leave Your Spotify Playlist Alone For A Few Weeks And Suddenly You Hate

this. this this this this. i point and scream THIS THIS THIS. WE CAN COPE FINE WE DONT NEED A BAJILLION PEOPLE TO DO ONE SIMPLE TASK (apparently we cant do a simple task without breaking down so we have to have fifteen people do it instead. FUCK EXECUTIVE DYSFUNCTION.)

We love our system. We love our headmates. We aren't upset about getting new guys! What we ARE upset about, however, is our brain deciding the method of running pk;m new 6 times in 2 days is much more efficient than remembering to even make an attempt at anything else.

no. no. DONT TURN ME INTO ONE BRAINCE

past us: “im genuinely so glad we aren’t finding more fictives or just new alters in general! we must’ve finally found a headcount that’s able to handle our daily life and struggles!”

..so about that. -blurry

i forget that im diagnosed with things because they interfere with my daily life........ like what do you mean this isnt normal and i shouldnt be dealing with struggling through getting through daily chores and life in general because of this??? -blurry

hi guys!!!!! idk if this question is too personal (if so just delete this from your inbox) but you mentioned being in love?????? i wnated to know how that would work with all of you guys needing to agree and also what is this person (or persons) like?????

hey! i definitely agree having a crush on another person outside of the system is definitely difficult sometimes, especially due to opposing opinions. however, it's super important to note that not all alters will have to be in a romantic relationship with the person aforementioned! while it's quite complicated and things definitely have to be worked out with the other people or person, it is totally possible depending on their preferences. of course, other alters may not have the same affection towards this person or people as others may, and to that it gets complicated. depending on comforts, could be a polyamorous relationship, open relationship, or monogamous relationship- whatever is most comfortable for both groups overall. as for the person/people, they're the sweetest ever, lol! very supportive, accepting, open-minded, albeit a bit stubborn and competitive at times but we love them for that and honestly think its adorable! :D would genuinely fight whatever lord or god above is there for them and it's just asdiufhuihrh. rambly stupid stuff, i won't talk about it too much, but we appreciate them a ton!

thank you for the question! we rambled a little hard there, sorry if we overshared or anything a little, lol. hope that helps answer your question!

(Holding our cat up) You don't understand. I need you to stay grounded to reality

DON'T PUT YOUR TRIGGERS AND/OR PHOBIAS IN YOUR WEBSITES/PINNED POSTS/BIOS/ETC. FOR EVERYONE ON THE INTERNET TO SEE. ONLY TRUSTED PEOPLE SHOULD KNOW THAT INFORMATION, NOT THE WHOLE INTERNET. YOU WILL GET HURT!!! MEAN PEOPLE WILL USE IT AGAINST YOU!!!

daily amnesia in DID is something i don't see talked about that much, i see regular amnesia (ie not being able to remember years of your life, traumatic memories etc) talked about but never the daily things.

daily amnesia is on a day to day basis never being able to remember important things, did i take my medicine this morning? did i shower yesterday? have i eaten yet? what have i been doing for the past hour? what was i supposed to do today?

daily amnesia REALLY fucking sucks because whenever you start suffering you remember every other time you've been suffering and just scold yourself for not getting help and not getting better - but when the moment it's over? it's completely gone from your memory. it's so much suffering and you're so stuck because how can you ever get help for something you can't remember? you're always in a constant state of 'feeling fine' and when you end up getting help and going to therapy there's nothing to talk about because there's nothing you remember.

every day is groundhog day where you are forced against your will to repeat it over and over for god knows how long.

there’s a difference between being polite and infantilizing. no, talking to an autistic person like they’re a child is not polite. it’s rude. you aren’t helping anyone by talking to people like they’re stupid.

this is a problem with disabled people in general, not just autism. i just saw a video where someone was talking to a disabled army vet like he was a child. that was a grown man. he made it clear he could understand “grown-up” conversation and words.

it’s one thing to treat a child like a child, it’s another to treat any disabled person like a child. we aren’t children. we are just like anyone else.

this is ableism, know it or not.

as someone who has been told that their trauma isn’t ’bad enough’ or real by a psychologist, i want to reassure you that your feelings about traumatic memories you may have are valid. the therapist we’re with now supports us and listens to us and our feelings.

after our interaction with that therapist, including several negative events that affected and worsened our mental state, we grew to believe we were delusional, crazy, and a liar. we were terrified to speak to anyone about it because we feared they would call us liars.

it took us months to gather up courage to talk about anything regarding the topic again with a new therapist. it’s honestly terrifying talking about this right now- but we’re working on getting back our progress again, despite our setbacks and the challenges we experienced.

find a therapist who supports and listens to you- preferably one specializing in dissociative disorders and trauma work- not one who fake-claims you because you aren’t extremely overt and because your trauma seems outlandish or unreal. DID is a covert disorder by nature. just because you don’t seem like you have it on the outside, doesn’t mean it isn’t real. in fact, that’s what it’s supposed to do. it takes several months if not years to even get a diagnosis- because of how difficult it is to pinpoint.

a journey to diagnosis is difficult, even if you have the money for it because of the stigma against DID, OSDD variants, and UDDS, and it takes extreme persistence, some may not even want a diagnosis because people will treat them differently for it- negatively. But, no matter what, your feelings are valid. Your experiences are valid. Your coping mechanisms are valid. If you experience it, it’s real. Even if it’s not in a specifically endorsed label.

Only YOU truly know what you experience. Nobody can tell you what you are supposed to experience.